SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
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Sorry if my question makes no sense.
I'm not sure how to explain it.
I want to know what being dead is like, I'm pretty sure because it is so unknown and final it is putting me off, and if I knew it might make it easier.
 
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Homecoming

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www.channelingerik.com


That teen boy obviously CTB by shotgun!
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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I was in a comma for 2 days and I'm not sure If I was "conscious" but I remember this feeling of just darkness and silence and then I woke up in this world again.

Edit: (it felt peaceful so it was better than living this sh*** life.)
 
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It'sMyLife

It'sMyLife

Little bundles of futile hope we are
Apr 18, 2020
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I met an older man last week. He's a Vietnam vet. I was selling something to tow a car with and he bought it. We got to talking and I had some of mom's things to donate like a shower chair, toilet bars etc and asked if he wanted them. He said he already had all of it since his hospital stay where he had died 3 times and was in a coma for 32 days a few years ago . I asked him did he see anything and he was adamant about it. He had seen his grandparents and they told him three times he had to go back. He couldn't understand why they did it that many times until later. He remembered all of the details including the clothes they were wearing. So after 32 days he woke up and sat up in his bed which freaked the nurses out because he was not expected to ever wake up. His funeral had already been paid for. Later as he was looking at old pictures of his grandparents he found ones where they had the same clothes on. Remember, this is his story but I certainly lean towards believing him. I think the part about the clothes lends credibility to his account although many will say he just remembered it from the pictures he'd seen years ago. I recommend looking up Tricia Barker

Here's the video.
 
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EssenceFocus

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Your question is very understandable:smiling:

www.channelingerik.com


That teen boy obviously CTB by shotgun!


I watched a few videos of it years ago, interesting!


Here is my favorite source, which explains directly what happens in the moment of death... and maybe thousands other things
 
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Sinkinshyp

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Sep 7, 2020
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I've been on life support twice- not dead but close. The 1st time I was 18 and had just had a 14 hour cancer surgery. I got a clot in my throat, they were running my hospital bed through the halls trying to get blood out of a vein-my legs my feet... I just felt so calm and peaceful I wanted to be left alone. They got me to the OR and my lungs collapsed all air was gone and I gasped I can't breathe and went out... the 2nd time was 2013 I had respiratory failure from emphysema. They put me in a medical coma so I don't remember much of before. I woke up to meditation music, my older son on my left side holding my hand, I felt very peaceful.. my vision had black dots all in it. I have had a sense of my grandparents told me something when I was asleep. I haven't been able to remember what.

my brother died of a drug over dose a few years back. He doesn't believe in things.. he told me I was so close to them than I got woke up! I asked who were you close to? He said D I saw Nanny, Poppy & Daddy I was almost to them and than I was back here.... they woke him out of it in the ER
 
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People will say I didn't die because I'm still here but doctors said when they found me after my attempt I was not breathing.

If you have ever had anesthesia for surgery with no awareness while you were knocked out not even dreaming that is what it was like until they successfully resucitated my ass despite my letter of wishes not to do that.
 
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LonelyNick

They/Them, He/Him
Jul 15, 2020
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I drowned and was resucitated when I was a kid. I remember peace before blackness. My first breath after CPR was the most painful one of my life. This happened when I was 5, I still remember it and it is still my most painful breath ever. After that I puked water and felt like shit for 2 days.

My grandmother died on the operation table while they were trying to get to her gallblader (same issue I'm having, how ironic) back in the... 50's I want to say. My mother wasn't born yet. Anyway everytime she would tell us that story, she said she felt no pain, it was bright and music was playing. A voice told her she wasn't done yet and she woke up after the surgery to a bunch of doctor wanting to check if she had brain damage and all.

So I grew up thinking death is nice and you're at peace. My whole family talks openly about death (but not suicide ofc) and it's not something I'm scared of. It's natural, we all die.

I just wish we could have a better say as to how and when.
 
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TheSomebody

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Only the dead know what it's like to be dead. There are studies that claim that people in NDE are far from dead, quite the contrary, the brain works harder than ever which would explain a heightened awareness
 
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Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
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Later as he was looking at old pictures of his grandparents he found ones where they had the same clothes on.
It's interesting about the same clothes.
I had a friend who died at age 19 in a car accident. I had a vivid realistic dream of her in a dark dead looking forest. The trees were dead. I carried her to the place and put her down under one of the dead trees. She had on a long white gown with tiny red roses all over it.

I went to her funeral a few days later and in her open casket, she had on that same white gown with the red roses. I had never seen that before.

She was a catholic and I later heard about some dead people going to "limbo", an unpleasant place, and I think that is where she went. But I almost fainted when I saw her dead body in that same dress. My friend grabbed me as I started to faint and held me up.

I'm guessing they might have on the same clothes so we make no mistake about who they are. They want to make sure we know who they are.
 
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Lordsudbury

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Jul 26, 2020
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Hi. I overdosed on crystal meth in Thailand once and kicked the bucket before being resucitated and woken up again. Couldn't believe it.

The way down was obviously really scary because it felt like I was having a heart attack and dying. When my heart finally stopped it was just black like your eyes closed and quite nice. I felt like I was just floating through space. Then like you're asleep, but not dreaming or anything. It was great.

Was very lucky to wake up. Count your blessings.
 
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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
Hi. I overdosed on crystal meth in Thailand once and kicked the bucket before being resucitated and woken up again. Couldn't believe it.

The way down was obviously really scary because it felt like I was having a heart attack and dying. When my heart finally stopped it was just black like your eyes closed and quite nice. I felt like I was just floating through space. Then like you're asleep, but not dreaming or anything. It was great.

Was very lucky to wake up. Count your blessings.
I'm just being curious, why are you telling me to count my blessings?
Thank you for sharing your experience.
 
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Lordsudbury

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Jul 26, 2020
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I'm just being curious, why are you telling me to count my blessings?
Thank you for sharing your experience.
Well it's one of those things. I wasn't in a bad place when I accidentally did too many drugs, and I was very fortunate when I awoke and realized how precious life was. The next five years from then til now were amazing too. Of course, something's happened to me now that has made me really depressed and suicidal; but even I know that good days are possible.

Or for example if you see Kevin's video about when he jumped off the golden gate bridge; he regretted the jump as soon as he left. Sometimes you just snap out of it.

Anyways, just TRYING to be positive lol.
 
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Thatdude

Life is temporary, death is permanent
Sep 26, 2019
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I was in a comma for 2 days and I'm not sure If I was "conscious" but I remember this feeling of just darkness and silence and then I woke up in this world again.

Edit: (it felt peaceful so it was better than living this sh*** life.)

I have to wonder more about time. Were you able to feel time go by? Like were you just sitting there being bored, or is it just like you're sleeping but in a dreamless state? When you close your eyes, and wake up type of thing.
 
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SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
Well it's one of those things. I wasn't in a bad place when I accidentally did too many drugs, and I was very fortunate when I awoke and realized how precious life was. The next five years from then til now were amazing too. Of course, something's happened to me now that has made me really depressed and suicidal; but even I know that good days are possible.

Or for example if you see Kevin's video about when he jumped off the golden gate bridge; he regretted the jump as soon as he left. Sometimes you just snap out of it.

Anyways, just TRYING to be positive lol.
Thanks for explaining, I get what you mean.
 
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Acopia

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Sep 21, 2020
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It was just like falling asleep, but dreamless.
Just black, nothingness.
Peaceful though.
-A.:halo:
 
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dilapidatedMind

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Oct 1, 2020
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Well it's one of those things. I wasn't in a bad place when I accidentally did too many drugs, and I was very fortunate when I awoke and realized how precious life was. The next five years from then til now were amazing too. Of course, something's happened to me now that has made me really depressed and suicidal; but even I know that good days are possible.

Or for example if you see Kevin's video about when he jumped off the golden gate bridge; he regretted the jump as soon as he left. Sometimes you just snap out of it.

Anyways, just TRYING to be positive lol.
Pro-lifers are insufferable. Kevin changed his mind because his SI kicked in.
 
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Lordsudbury

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@Lordsudbury are you a pro lifer? People here aren't interested in continuing on. They don't think of life as precious. Their suffering is intolerable.
Some have a sliver of hope
 
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TooConscious

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Sep 16, 2020
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No but it doesn't help in my fear that my current consciousness can return... After all, all we are is a mere sum of our memories at this very moment in time. The fact I exist as oppose to NOT keeps me terrified, just because when I died I was unconscious it doesn't make me believe that it lasts, I hope it does, un consciousness is heaven, non existence is bliss.
 
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lostangel

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There are many of them stories on youtube. Many of them state it was nothing.
 
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Buttlerix

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Sep 28, 2020
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Ive been in ER after ODing, for a day blacked out, stomach pumped. Remember seeing my ex boss and co-workers since I used to work there, just for a moment. Felt nothing, woke up on the way to a psych ward
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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I have to wonder more about time. Were you able to feel time go by? Like were you just sitting there being bored, or is it just like you're sleeping but in a dreamless state? When you close your eyes, and wake up type of thing.


Time felt as an instant!
I felt that silence and darkness for what it seemed to be seconds and then I was waken up by two doctor (which I thought were aliens lol).
So, it didn't feel neither boring nor fun but it did feel relaxing. For me they were seconds, for the rest of the world, two whole days! Damn!
 
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k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,546
I haven't really experienced it myself, but I've talked to people who described the experience as like being under anesthesia. Just no awareness and then they woke up.

There are some stories in my family about elderly relatives dying and right before the end suddenly exclaiming that they saw other family members who died a long time before. Even if it was hallucinations, it seemed to make them really happy right at the end.


Some have a sliver of hope
Yes, I agree. I guess the post you were responding to is gone, but I don't think that was fair to accuse you of. Not everyone here hates life. You can be suicidal but still wish you could go on living. I'm deeply at odds with myself most times, or I wouldn't still be here. I kinda like being alive, and I'd like to not have the problems that have taken me here so I could keep doing that. That tiny bit of hope is what makes me try, but it doesn't take away the intense suicidal urges and ideation I'm plagued with. I don't think I'm the only person here who struggles with that.
 
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TheQ22

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Aug 17, 2020
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How are you feeling today @SHThrowAway213 ? I know what it's like to go through a divorce etc, I'd been with her for alost 23 years - as long as you are old.

It hurts but I promise you it can get better from the crap they put you through.

Funny for me to be on a suicide forum and say that, but my problems are not down to that, it's down to finances I've messed up while getting over her.

I think if you can get over this blippy hurdle, you'll be fine.

Do it for me and show me the way.
 
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SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
How are you feeling today @SHThrowAway213 ? I know what it's like to go through a divorce etc, I'd been with her for alost 23 years - as long as you are old.

It hurts but I promise you it can get better from the crap they put you through.

Funny for me to be on a suicide forum and say that, but my problems are not down to that, it's down to finances I've messed up while getting over her.

I think if you can get over this blippy hurdle, you'll be fine.

Do it for me and show me the way.
I will not be fine, even if I get over this hurdle.
I have had mental health problems since I was 12, that is my main reason.
 
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It'sMyLife

Little bundles of futile hope we are
Apr 18, 2020
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It's interesting about the same clothes.
I had a friend who died at age 19 in a car accident. I had a vivid realistic dream of her in a dark dead looking forest.
Thank you for sharing this experience. That's amazing! I'm sorry about your friend but I guess it must give you hope that she's in another place and a better one at that. I don't think religion matters on the other side if there is one and she's in a place of light.I don't have dreams like this but my mother did.

She had 4 children. My oldest brother was born in 1951. He died in a motorcycle accident in 1972 just shy of his 21st birthday. They were living in a small town in Kansas for a few years after he was born and she recounted to me how she took him downtown. She had driven the two of them and went around the car to get him. He was out of the car and she took his hand as he was around 4. She said the most horrible feeling came over her at that moment that he would die before she would... that she was going to bury him. She was very disturbed by that for some time because she'd never had a vision before this. That took about 16 years. She occasionally had lucid dreams as well. My brother and I shared a room and I remember him having vivid dreams when I was 4 that really troubled him. He would get my mom in the room to talk about it. The dreams had bright stars that followed him and an undertaker at a funeral telling him here's your casket.

I myself never had such dreams but I did get a motorcycle in the early 90's. I can't imagine the hell that must've caused my mom. I feel guilty about it whenever I think of that. Some years later I was on my bike in SC going down a 4 lane divided highway. At one point it's like every thing was in slow motion for a few seconds. I looked down and thought why am I moving the handlebars left to right? That doesn't make sense. I even had time to look to my left and see a guy in a van going the other way his mouth gaping in amazement. It's like I was in a time warp...like I was in a bubble of sorts. It all seemed to happen backwards. I knew I was skidding but it's like I was watching it happen and not part of it. That happened first but then I heard the back wheel screeching and the engine stop. At first I heard nothing at all. I still wonder why didn't I hear the tire first and see the oversteering second. Then it all came together and I went off the road and down an embankment into the mud. My knapsack had gotten eaten by my back tire and sent me skidding at 65 mph but I was unscathed. I couldn't get the bag removed or move my bike. The guy in the van pulls up kind of freaking out. He was coming back to see that I was in the road and to go get help. There were literally no other cars anywhere to be seen. He just couldn't believe I was in one piece and said I was all over the road and was certain I was going to be dead. He helped me get everything corrected and to get back on my way. I still don't believe I was in charge of that motorcycle for those few seconds but I know that will be hard to accept for many. It is for me. Was it my brother or just natural reflexes? If someone can explain it to me as a normal psychological experience I'd love to hear it. I don't rule out that it has a rational explanation. It was all so surreal and I still question my tendency to believe it was him helping me I guess I'll never know. I hope this wasn't too long of a post.
 
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ARW3N

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Dec 25, 2019
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It's impossible to "revive" someone from clinical death to know what death feels like because all their organs, including the brain, would have completely ceased functioning. Death is the irreversible ending of vital processes. We can resuscitate those close to death.
 
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Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
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It's impossible to "revive" someone from clinical death to know what death feels like because all their organs, including the brain, would have completely ceased functioning. Death is the irreversible ending of vital processes. We can resuscitate those close to death.
From my extensive readings and research on this subject I can assure you that people have been very dead, and been brought back to life. Completely 100% dead. No heart beat. No brain function at all. Dead as dead can be. Many people like this. It actually happens quite a bit now.
 
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ARW3N

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Dec 25, 2019
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From my extensive readings and research on this subject I can assure you that people have been very dead, and been brought back to life. Completely 100% dead. No heart beat. No brain function at all. Dead as dead can be. Many people like this. It actually happens quite a bit now.
In its crudest form, clinical death just means that a doctor thinks that a person's dead - somebody standing at the bedside believes he is dead. In summary, no heartbeat + no breathing + no brain activity = clinical death. If someone's brain dead, the damage is irreversible. They have no chance of recovery because their body is unable to survive without artificial life support. They will not ever regain consciousness or start breathing on their own again. They have already died.
 
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Oct 18, 2020
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I was in a comma for 2 days and I'm not sure If I was "conscious" but I remember this feeling of just darkness and silence and then I woke up in this world again.

Edit: (it felt peaceful so it was better than living this sh*** life.)

This is something I've always wondered about. People describe a peaceful black nothingness(a few seconds for what actually is a while irl), but do you believe that blackness will continue on for an eternity? Do you think the dead will get bored of the silence after a while? I have no idea if that momentary euphoria will feel good forever.