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Hotsackage

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Mar 11, 2019
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Just wondering if.anyone else is afraid to cbt because certain injuries or major impairements can result
 
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No life

I have to go soon now
Mar 27, 2019
29
Yep definitely and I don't have the energy to go out getting stuff and failing again
 
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RevolutionaryRed

RevolutionaryRed

Member
Apr 8, 2018
60
Stuck is the right word. But I can't afford to be stuck , I need to make a decision soon
 
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Sick Boy

Sick Boy

Student
Oct 19, 2018
186
Yes i´m stuck,i´m trying to obtain N in my third world country, but no vet wants to sell it to me,everytime i get rejected,and i don´t have the guts to do partial and I dont think that SN would do the the job,i feel that im going to be rescued and end up in the ER
 
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Addy92

Student
Mar 24, 2019
152
Nope. Afraid to ctb especially last two days. Feeling better. That's scary. Cos I know there's no future now. A week ago I was set on dying.
Just thought about this. I'm stuck.
 
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Hotsackage

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Mar 11, 2019
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Yes i´m stuck,i´m trying to obtain N in my third world country, but no vet wants to sell it to me,everytime i get rejected,and i don´t have the guts to do partial and I dont think that SN would do the the job,i feel that im going to be rescued and end up in the ER
What's wrong with partial
 
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misos9

misos9

nothing
Mar 28, 2019
16
I am stuck at cutting wrist part because I don't have enough courage
 
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Sick Boy

Student
Oct 19, 2018
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About_to_Go

About_to_Go

It deepens like a coastal shelf
Mar 20, 2018
303
I am stuck at cutting wrist part because I don't have enough courage
Don't try to ctb by cutting your wrists, it very, very rarely works. I don't think that was what you're saying, I think you were talking about self-harm, but for anyone reading this: don't try to ctb by cutting your wrists!
 
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CoolGuy9

CoolGuy9

Mage
Mar 5, 2019
524
Don't try to ctb by cutting your wrists, it very, very rarely works. I don't think that was what you're saying, I think you were talking about self-harm, but for anyone reading this: don't try to ctb by cutting your wrists!
Don't tell me what to do! tries to ctb by cutting wrist
 
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Queer_Kenny

Queer_Kenny

Member
Mar 26, 2019
41
Just wondering if.anyone else is afraid to cbt because certain injuries or major impairements can result
Not so much afraid to ctb, as I am of failing again.
 
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Olach

Student
Feb 4, 2019
113
Was afraid of afterlife. But once i figured out that there is non existents, I'm ready to go
 
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Namnaf

Member
Mar 26, 2019
8
Yeah. N costs a bit much and takes its time to obtain. My next idea is oxycodone... A failure could be bad. Stuck
 
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Cookiedough8956

Wowzers
Feb 24, 2019
636
I'm scared of what can go wrong, but I gotta suck it up eventually. Can't keep waiting and telling myself "yeah..but this might happen, or that" Just gotta risk it, and take a chance.
Im also afraid of the unknown afterwards..now THAT i cannot seem to come to terms with.
What a stupid predicament to be stuck in :meh:
 
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seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
Yeah. No reliable method and plan for exit and no hope for a better tomorrow. Feeling trapped is amongst the worst feelings one can have.
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
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Yeah. No reliable method and plan for exit and no hope for a better tomorrow. Feeling trapped is amongst the worst feelings one can have.
You and I both. I've gotten close to passing out with hanging. That's the best .method i got
 
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DeadlyLiving

DeadlyLiving

I can't fix it, is this where I give in?
Jan 1, 2019
152
I want to die - I am 100% sure of it. But doing all these things for preparation like writing a letter, cleaning my room and sorting out stuff that no one should find, seem to be so much. And there is still my dog and my cat, I am pretty sure that my grandparents would take the dog but I am trusting no one on my cat..
And I am afraid of the afterlife, or to be more accurate - that there is nothing that comes after.
 
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neveranyhope

Member
Mar 27, 2019
56
Nope. Afraid to ctb especially last two days. Feeling better. That's scary. Cos I know there's no future now. A week ago I was set on dying.
Just thought about this. I'm stuck.
This is the worst. I'm here now.

This last month has been torturous. I had to push through the worst of it because I would have been posthumously embarrassed by the timing (fucking stupid and weird huh) but now that I pushed through to the thing I needed to do, the monster has started to fade a bit. Although not enough, apparently, because I was in a meeting (I do volunteer work since I'm not employed and hate being such a drain on the universe) and was trying to control panic attacks I was having and I guess I spaced out and didn't respond to someone talking to me, which then led to a very uncomfortable phone call about my wellbeing.
 
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seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
You and I both. I've gotten close to passing out with hanging. That's the best .method i got
Didn't get that far myself. Tie I used slipped and my ass fell to the floor. I don't have anything that's even remotely reliable.
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
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Didn't get that far myself. Tie I used slipped and my ass fell to the floor. I don't have anything that's even remotely reliable.
I'm sticking with a belt. And hopefully one day i just fall unconscious
 
seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
And I am afraid of the afterlife, or to be more accurate - that there is nothing that comes after.
Might you be able to shed some light on what there is to fear regarding the prospect of nonexistence after death? I mean if you cease to exist then there is nothing to experience and you basically go into an eternal dreamless sleep. It seems to me more reasonable to fear an afterlife of torture. I personally hope that there is no afterlife to walk into after I die.
 
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Gina

Gina

Unknown
Sep 2, 2018
53
Definitely, I don't want to die but I want to relieve my family of my burdens.
 
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uiop

uiop

Fun drugs make me happy
Mar 27, 2019
218
I am stuck. The only things holding me back are my parents, and the promise I made to my friend and brother. If they disappeared, it'll all be so easy. I want them to hate me so I can go through with it, but I do not believe that is a rational choice. Ultimately if I go through with it, it will be a strategic decision, not an act based on emotion.
 
Ruffian

Ruffian

Jumpin Jack Flash, it’s a gas gas gas
Jan 16, 2019
696
Yes i´m stuck,i´m trying to obtain N in my third world country, but no vet wants to sell it to me,everytime i get rejected,and i don´t have the guts to do partial and I dont think that SN would do the the job,i feel that im going to be rescued and end up in the ER
Do you mind me asking is that Charlotte Gainsborough in your profile pic? It looks like her.
This is the worst. I'm here now.

This last month has been torturous. I had to push through the worst of it because I would have been posthumously embarrassed by the timing (fucking stupid and weird huh) but now that I pushed through to the thing I needed to do, the monster has started to fade a bit. Although not enough, apparently, because I was in a meeting (I do volunteer work since I'm not employed and hate being such a drain on the universe) and was trying to control panic attacks I was having and I guess I spaced out and didn't respond to someone talking to me, which then led to a very uncomfortable phone call about my wellbeing.
Oh no! I do embarrassing stuff at work sometimes. I have difficulty sleeping and sometimes fall asleep for a minute during the day.
 
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Olach

Student
Feb 4, 2019
113
Might you be able to shed some light on what there is to fear regarding the prospect of nonexistence after death? I mean if you cease to exist then there is nothing to experience and you basically go into an eternal dreamless sleep. It seems to me more reasonable to fear an afterlife of torture. I personally hope that there is no afterlife to walk into after I die.
An afterlife of torture. That sounds disappointing. But, besides me, there is no afterlife at all. As most of near death experience people reported there is nothing after death, only the darkness.
 
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Struggling

Struggling

Student
Feb 6, 2019
107
Can't work out what's worse fear or failing attempt or fear of having to deal with people. So far found 'sweet spot' but always catching windpipe.
 
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