Discussion Anyone planning or considering a revenge CTB?

[Shadowplay]

I'm curious to hear from you in revenge is the or at least a motive for CTB. Thanks!

 

[exhausteduntreatable]

It isn't the driver or motive but I must admit that I have considered the impact it would have on my abusive malignant narcissist mother. Considering the reaction she had to me cutting her out of my life for the past year I can imagine it wouldn't be good. I know people would consider me a heinous and probably evil person and nightmare of a daughter for even thinking this but I hope it hurts her even a little. She has hurt me so so much throughout my life.

 

[motel rooms]

I know people would consider me a heinous and probably evil person and nightmare of a daughter for even thinking this but I hope it hurts her even a little. She has hurt me so so much throughout my life.

I wouldn't consider you evil

 

[Rogue Proxy]

It isn't the driver or motive but I must admit that I have considered the impact it would have on my abusive malignant narcissist mother. Considering the reaction she had to me cutting her out of my life for the past year I can imagine it wouldn't be good. I know people would consider me a heinous and probably evil person and nightmare of a daughter for even thinking this but I hope it hurts her even a little. She has hurt me so so much throughout my life.

You're not "heinous," "evil", or a "nightmare" for thinking that. The bitch that forced you in existence and tormented you deserves all the suffering it can get. Anyone who throws that judgmental shit at you is a mindless, self-righteous meatbot that cannot handle the facts about breeders using, abusing, and/or neglecting their offspring

 

[exhausteduntreatable]

You're not "heinous," "evil", or a "nightmare" for thinking that. The bitch that forced you in existence and tormented you deserves all the suffering it can get. Anyone who throws that judgmental shit at you is a mindless, self-righteous meatbot that cannot handle the facts about breeders using, abusing, and/or neglecting their offspring

It was cathartic to read that, so thanks. She starved my brother and I until we were underweight. Forced me into eating disorder treatment but then called me huge when I put on weight. Threatened to accuse my dad of raping us if he didn't give her what she wanted in the divorce. Tried to have our dog euthanized when we disagreed with her. She's a horrible person and if she's capable of a modicum of guilt I hope she feels it. I'm making sure she's completely cut out of my will. I don't even want her near my remains.

 

[Rogue Proxy]

It was cathartic to read that, so thanks. She starved my brother and I until we were underweight. Forced me into eating disorder treatment but then called me huge when I put on weight. Threatened to accuse my Dad of raping us if he didn't give her what she wanted in the divorce. Tried to have our dog euthanized when we disagreed with her. She's a horrible person and if she's capable of a modicum of guilt I hope she feels it. I'm making sure she's completely cut out of my will. I don't even want her near my remains.

That bitch clearly should have been spayed, if not euthanized, decades ago. It's absolutely appalling how humans repeatedly and intentionally ignore, ridicule, shame, guilt-trip, silence, minimize, and victim-blame those who experience abuse and neglect from relations and "caretakers." Not to mention idolize every breeder not matter how horrific they are. I'm also cutting out every shitbag that's related to me from my will.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

I'm curious to hear from you in revenge is the or at least a motive for CTB. Thanks!

Not for me. I admit I wonder sometimes how my suicide would affect some people from my life but one of my saving graces is my refusal to damage myself over somebody else.

Apart from the eating disorder and the cutting. But no one needs to know about that so I can pretend it doesn't apply.

 

[rivertone]

Not my motive per se but I do plan to mention my retarded cunt of a former boss in my suicide note. Hopefully he reads it.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me, ctb is to prevent decades of suffering and that is it. I am doing it as it is the right thing for me. I'm not quite sure I understand the idea of a revenge ctb, as I thought the whole purpose of revenge is to gain some sort of satisfaction of seeing somebody else in a disadvantaged position. If you ctb, you will no longer exist, you will be gone from this world.

 

[forgotten15]

It isn't the driver or motive but I must admit that I have considered the impact it would have on my abusive malignant narcissist mother. Considering the reaction she had to me cutting her out of my life for the past year I can imagine it wouldn't be good. I know people would consider me a heinous and probably evil person and nightmare of a daughter for even thinking this but I hope it hurts her even a little. She has hurt me so so much throughout my life.

You are not evil, when you are hurt so much by someone it's normal to have thoughts like these. This also crossed my mind a few times so I understand your position.

I can only imagine the rage you must feel, but i believe you shouldn't let her determine your decision.
I think the decision to end your life should only have to do with your way of perceveing life and not be influenced by this type of emotion.
I hope time heals your soul.

 

[exhausteduntreatable]

That bitch clearly should have been spayed, if not euthanized, decades ago. It's absolutely appalling how humans repeatedly and intentionally ignore, ridicule, shame, guilt-trip, silence, minimize, and victim-blame those who experience abuse and neglect from relations and "caretakers." Not to mention idolize every breeder not matter how horrific they are. I'm also cutting out every shitbag that's related to me from my will.

She's an absolutely evil person. Having children and then making them feel guilty for existing and abusing them. And this isn't a rare experience at all. No wonder so many people are deeply troubled. Good for you. I hate the societal view that we are obligated to our blood relations no matter what.

You are not evil, when you are hurt so much by someone it's normal to have thoughts like these. This also crossed my mind a few times so I understand your position.

I can only imagine the rage you must feel, but i believe you shouldn't let her determine your decision.
I think the decision to end your life should only have to do with your way of perceveing life and not be influenced by this type of emotion.
I hope time heals your soul.

Thanks. Sorry you can relate. No, it isn't determining my decision but I think the fact that she is my mother has contributed to my brain being the way it is.

 

[Acceptance]

Sometimes I feel like one of my reasons for wanting to CTB is because a couple years ago my manipulative and toxic mother didn't care at all when I told her during an emotional argument that I've been suicidal for years. Her only response in that situation is "do it, I don't care". I have never forgotten and even if she drank and has a drinking problem as well as mental health issues and trauma of her own, it doesn't take away the fact that she never even thought about those words coming from her only child. She has traumatized me for years in many ways and while im alive i feel like i want revenge.

I sometimes just really want to CTB to spite her. Let her know and make her feel like she pushed me to this point, but there is also a side of me where I want to peacefully go and leave no bad blood. Besides CTB will set me free and I wont have to deal with emotions or anything else that comes with living. I wouldnt even be able to experience any of those revenge feelings be satisfied because I would have already moved on.

Sorry if my writing is all over the place.

 

[exhausteduntreatable]

Sometimes I feel like one of my reasons for wanting to CTB is because a couple years ago my manipulative and toxic mother didn't care at all when I told her during an emotional argument that I've been suicidal for years. Her only response in that situation is "do it, I don't care". I have never forgotten and even if she drank and has a drinking problem as well as mental health issues and trauma of her own, it doesn't take away the fact that she never even thought about those words coming from her only child. She has traumatized me for years in many ways and while im alive i feel like i want revenge.

I sometimes just really want to CTB to spite her. Let her know and make her feel like she pushed me to this point, but there is also a side of me where I want to peacefully go and leave no bad blood. Besides CTB will set me free and I wont have to deal with emotions or anything else that comes with living. I wouldnt even be able to experience any of those revenge feelings be satisfied because I would have already moved on.

Sorry if my writing is all over the place.

How disgusting! I can relate. There is absolutely no excuse. Although people like that are usually full of them if you ever confront them on their awful behaviour- in my experience. My mother was full of self pity and excuses for her abusive behaviour.

I think what you're saying makes sense. Sometimes imagining my death hurting her gives me some satisfaction. I am still alive in the present moment, unfortunately. But this year of mostly not having to think about her at all has been such a relief.

 

[Shadowplay]

My suicide is partly revenge, but also cos I just don't give fkcu and I hate pretending I do which is so tiring.

 

[Supersadmommy90]

I almost feel as though ctb is a flex against God as if to say, the world has been deprived of wonderful me.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i have trouble seeing suicide as an act of revenge, i see it as a way to end your own pain but i can't see how it would affect narcissistic abusers. these types of people don't usually blame themselves.

It was cathartic to read that, so thanks. She starved my brother and I until we were underweight. Forced me into eating disorder treatment but then called me huge when I put on weight. Threatened to accuse my dad of raping us if he didn't give her what she wanted in the divorce. Tried to have our dog euthanized when we disagreed with her. She's a horrible person and if she's capable of a modicum of guilt I hope she feels it. I'm making sure she's completely cut out of my will. I don't even want her near my remains.

i am so sorry you had to go through that. i can't even imagine how that must have affected you. she sounds truly evil and i really wish you the best.

 

[Shadowplay]

i have trouble seeing suicide as an act of revenge, i see it as a way to end your own pain but i can't see how it would affect narcissistic abusers. these types of people don't usually blame themselves.

What? Why bring up narcissistic abusers?

 

[fox_wannabe]

She starved my brother and I until we were underweigh

what in actual fuck..

 

[Pluto]

What? Why bring up narcissistic abusers?

In my own case, the family abuse was narcissistic as well. So it's the opposite of revenge.

When dealing with people with the same underlying mentality of serial killers (minus the serial killing!), they would actually derive immense pleasure from seeing me dead and knowing that I suffered slowly after ingesting the poison of a dysfunctional childhood. They would also be happy to know that the legal estate of the parents will no longer need to be split 3 ways, and gleefully continue to manufacture and propagate narratives about themselves being a caring family and me being a deranged loser who went off the rails.

The only way to hurt these people would be to achieve some sort of successful life. Having failed at that, there's no choice but to let them win.

 

[Shadowplay]

1. I still think that narcissists can be hurt by revenge suicides; maybe not all, of course.

2. I'm not sure why revenge would not work cos of narcissistic as if they're the only kind of abusers which the post above seemed to state.

 

[Pluto]

There can be legal ramifications towards abusers. Not sure how it would work as an actual strategy for revenge. You might know of Brodie's Law.

Beyond that, it all depends on the specifics of the situation. But of course it is important to make choices that are true to yourself, regardless of others.

 

[Shadowplay]

There can be legal ramifications towards abusers. Not sure how it would work as an actual strategy for revenge. You might know of Brodie's Law.

Beyond that, it all depends on the specifics of the situation. But of course it is important to make choices that are true to yourself, regardless of others.

Ohh I didn't know about that law, but I think I remember that case.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

What? Why bring up narcissistic abusers?

because someone brought up the subject, and if someone wants to get back at somebody, they must have abused the person in some way...

 

[Shadowplay]

because someone brought up the subject, and if someone wants to get back at somebody, they must have abused the person in some way...

Do you not see how suicide could be a revenge in some cases?

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i do see it but it is not an effective revenge tactic. i just thint its pointless as the only one whose going to suffer from it is the person killing themselves.

 

[Shadowplay]

i do see it but it is not an effective revenge tactic. i just thint its pointless as the only one whose going to suffer from it is the person killing themselves.

1. Why is it not effective? What counts as effective revenge to you?

2. No the person might not suffer.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

2. No the person might not suffer.

this. and the only really effective revenge would be either to actually "hurt" the person or show them that they don't have any power over you.

 

[Shadowplay]

2. No the person might not suffer.

this. and the only really effective revenge would be either to actually "hurt" the person or show them that they don't have any power over you.

Sorry I was unclear - I meant the person suiciding might not suffer.

I'm still not sure why you think suicide can't be revenge, or even what 'really effective revenge' is as you put it.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

it can be seen as revenge by the person committing suicide but the reality is the person/s they are trying to get back at probably won't be intensely affected. i just explained what effective revenge would be.

 

[Shadowplay]

it can be seen as revenge by the person committing suicide but the reality is the person/s they are trying to get back at probably won't be intensely affected. i just explained what effective revenge would be.

1. 'probably wo't be intensely affected'? Umm what? Why would you think that? Do you have any evidence? People can be devastated from suicide, but I guess not cos of uumm... reasons.

2. 'effective revenge'. You put 'hurt' in inverted commas so not sure how you're using the word after re-defining it. I'm not sure why showing people they have no power over you is a worse revenge. The best revenge is living well slogan it would seem.

3. If you're a sneaky pro-life well played.