Anyone leaving loved ones behind?

[DreamEnd]

How do you cope with that? I have a family that loves me but due to the unfortunate circumstance I have to ctb.

 

[WaffleWoman]

My mother has told me to my face if i ever die she will go insane which obviously i think about whenever i think about ctb but at the same time i assume she will be fine without me after a while. Its unfortunate that this world has given us people we love and that love us when we feel this way

 

[TeflonMummy]

I don't know your particular family situation so I don't have any personalized advice to give, but I would start with making sure you have at least some sort of closure with your family before departing. In your last days you could help them out a lot or just hang out with them. Have them understand that when you go, it's not because you don't love them, it's that this world wouldn't love you. I'm definitely writing a note if or when I go.

In the end I'm planning to make sure that none of them have to see what happened to me; and if that gives you peace of mind I'd suggest doing the same too.

If you have supportive parents (attempted to help you through this) I would thank them especially. A lot of people here hate their parents for valid reasons, I suspect that you probably don't if you are thinking about what will happen to them after you go.

Good luck, hopefully you'll have the peace you're looking for soon.

 

[Das Nichts]

My mother told me she expects at least half of my money so that she will give the rest to the person
I intend. My father told me he's going to leave as soon as I'm grown up.
My grandparents are old and won't live much longer.

So yeah, it's not too hard for me. Except for my friends.
But what am I supposed to do ?! The situation is unbaerable for me, and that's reason enough.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think the cruel thing would be to expect someone to stay here when they don't wish to prolong their existence, continuing to exist isn't an obligation after all and we all have the right to take control over our inevitable fate. Whatever happens in this world after we are gone could simply never be our concern and anyway we all have to die and lose everything someday, eventually we very likely won't even exist in the memories of those who continue to stay here. Grief and loss are just an inevitable consequence of life being so cruelly brought here.

 

[animetal]

How do you cope with that? I have a family that loves me but due to the unfortunate circumstance I have to ctb.

I'm leaving a lot of loved ones behind and I feel really sad about it because no one knows I'm leaving :/ I can't really remember who I am that well and due to a lot of circumstances I have to ctb as well. The way I'm coping is hoping that everyone in my life will remember me as how I remembered them before I got the memory loss. And hoping they will still be okay without me because it's tearing me apart deep down

 

[anywhere_else]

And hoping they will still be okay without me because it's tearing me apart deep down

Grief brings about a lot of emotions. Anger will be one, so will guilt. But they subside in time and they'll be ok in the end. I say this as someone who has lost two friends to suicide.

Personally, yes I have loved ones. I'm worried they will think less of me, but I know they will come to understand. I get quite emotional thinking about them, about not seeing nephews and nieces grow up. But I also think it's emotional SI kicking in a bit there. I'm very privileged to have had friends and family, I know that, and don't take it for granted at all.

 

[HitBlackVein]

How do you cope with that? I have a family that loves me but due to the unfortunate circumstance I have to ctb.

It's extremal guilt for me, my family loves me now but they HAD hurt me really really bad. It wouldn't be that hard if I wouldn't have a twin brother who was there for me all my life. I just can't leave him, he won't be able to live without me

 

[Ambivalent1]

Over9000

 

[leftdreaming]

I try not to think about it. Before I ctb, I'll probably distance myself from my loved ones for a while and write a note. If I think about it more than that, I am not sure I will succeed. My love for them came out during my last attempt and I ended up being hospitalized. With my current method, I can't afford to half-ass it unless I want to end up worse.