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freedommatrix
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- Dec 19, 2019
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My parents say there's definitely something wrong with me and I've been diagnosed with Aspergers but I wanna know what you guys think.
Ever since I was a child, I talked to myself. It didn't bother my parents until 2013 when I experienced extreme elation and talked 100mph. Looking back it was mania but I didn't know that at the time. Everyone seemed to say that I smiled all the time. EVERYONE (okay not everyone) but my teachers, classmates, friends of my parents when visiting them. It wasn't conscious and I wasn't trying to be positive, it seems the mania made me happy and it showed on my face. At night, I'd have conversations with myself but not because they were voices but I just feel like talking to myself.
I also had according to people and still do, an unusual way of sitting. When I sat in chairs, I sat at the edge of chairs in class and walked very stiffly with my arms to my body not moving them naturally. 2014 was when things got fucked up and I got violent for the first time ever. I experienced a low mood like never before.
Now, I'm still in the low mood in 2019 at 21. I regularly get my clothes dirty from eating (food stains), my mother says I walk like I've got a shit in my pants.
Ever since I was a child, I talked to myself. It didn't bother my parents until 2013 when I experienced extreme elation and talked 100mph. Looking back it was mania but I didn't know that at the time. Everyone seemed to say that I smiled all the time. EVERYONE (okay not everyone) but my teachers, classmates, friends of my parents when visiting them. It wasn't conscious and I wasn't trying to be positive, it seems the mania made me happy and it showed on my face. At night, I'd have conversations with myself but not because they were voices but I just feel like talking to myself.
I also had according to people and still do, an unusual way of sitting. When I sat in chairs, I sat at the edge of chairs in class and walked very stiffly with my arms to my body not moving them naturally. 2014 was when things got fucked up and I got violent for the first time ever. I experienced a low mood like never before.
Now, I'm still in the low mood in 2019 at 21. I regularly get my clothes dirty from eating (food stains), my mother says I walk like I've got a shit in my pants.