Hello! I am in a similar boat, some days are more productive for me and other days - not so much. On the non-productive days, either because I'm in physical distress or deeeep into my depression, I allow myself to obsess over my obsessions - I watch non-stop gaming videos, research everything and anything, hang around my cat all day, play Sims etc. On the productive days I clean the house or organise/rearrange a certain space that I feel could be better functioning. I sometimes take on home projects that I feel able to do, like this week I replaced some curtains and curtain rods and it made me feel so accomplished. I also love to be creative. I know you mentioned you can't express yourself, but what if you wrote a book about a character that has been through what you have? I remember reading somewhere that the best thing to write about is what you know, since nobody can tell a story better than someone that has actually lived through it; they include the words, thoughts and actions that other authors - who haven't lived through these moments - would otherwise overlook. At least that is what I am trying to do, write a book. It can be triggering sometimes, though, so take breaks from writing if you need to. When you write about your experiences, you will know better than anybody how to make each experience realistic - since it literally was/is your reality! I don't know your own personal experience, but I feel stuck in my life - like I can't advance because each day I get little chores done, but no actual progression in my own life, besides time. Writing my book helps me feel like I'm still progressing even when everything else is still, when I feel like I can't advance in my own life I can at least advance in projects that could in the end pay off and be worth it to me. So short term: little tasks/chores each day that stops you from dying of boredom but also helps you feel accomplished, and long term: a project you can do as often or as little as you like day-by-day that in the end you feel is worth it to you - it can be anything, not just writing a book. Another suggestion is to keep a routine. Both daily, weekly and perhaps monthly trying to keep a flexible routine - on Monday I clean the bathroom and at 3pm each day I treat myself to a coke etc - anything to keep you from falling into the slum of every day and every hour blurring into one. For social interaction, hmm, I definitely would suggest to keep it flexible, so maybe an online pen-pal or something - so that you have the flexibility on when to respond, I remember there is a site that connects you to a pen-pal. I know I struggle with phone and face-to-face social interaction right now as sometimes I will suddenly have a very negative emotion that I can't shake and suddenly have to excuse myself and it can make the conversation awkward and can make me feel like I have back-peddled in my relationships. Some kind of social interaction is important, but it's also important to remember your own limitations you have surrounding social interaction right now - if you have any, like I do. Sorry for the long read, I hope these help you.
