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Knowledgeseeker

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Jan 14, 2020
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No. I'm suffering because I'm stupid and I made wrong decisions. It's not about reincarnation or luck.

Yes, I know how you feel. I beat myself up every day for the multitude of wrong turns I've made that I thought were the right ones. No crystal ball to guide me, and can't believe how stupid I've been, and feel that it could be fatally so at this point. I could possibly starve to death from my bad moves. Maybe its natural selection, but I've already decided not to reproduce because it might be a genetic brain thing this habitual failure I seem to possess.
 
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Throwmyselfaway

Not gone yet but soon
Jan 14, 2020
798
I was raised in a cult to believe in well heaven and hell but those that don't get that. Long story. Anyways after I left I started having dreams a lot of them of past lives. I have a friend that taught me how to find them and how to meditate on them to focus and find out more. I have 6 I think at last count. Right now I'm the oldest I've ever lived which is surprising. I don't think punishment comes from past lives at all if you believe in past lives/reincarnation. I'm not sure why we come back or why certain people are chooses.
 
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Knowledgeseeker

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Jan 14, 2020
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In my religion, we believe that how your life is this life is based on what you did in your last life. Example, last life you were an evil person, this life you paying it back your bad deeds.

My baby died in Jan 2019 when he was 1.5 years old to terminal illness. Since the death of my son, I lost the will to live. EVERY.single.day is I bawl and cry, yes, I literally cry every day for the last 11 months since my son died. I'm planing my death, I want to have the same anniversary date of death as my son, so I will CTB in Jan 2020. Same month, same date that my baby died.

I must be a very evil person in my last life, therefore this life I suffer the pain of losing my own child, and I will plunge at least 1,500 feet to my death (yes, I need to reach terminal velocity to be sure). If my life ending is like this, I can't be a good person in my last life. Perhaps this is my ending, to pay back for my bad deeds in my last life.

I just hope once I took the plunge, it will be over. I don't want to wake up in coma, bedridden and forever lost all body movements and still be alive. I hope that is not what the higher being have in store for me. God, or whatever higher being please don't play me like this. Picture what physical consequences of your body you will be in if you plunge 1,500 feet and survive.

Does anyone here believe in reincarnation? Sometimes life is just so unfair you know, babies, toddlers, children who have to die, but then serial killers out there without getting caught, or bad people out there still having a good life.

There probably isn't anything on the other side, nor reincarnation, probably just like a lottery machine, chances, some win lottery some don't, some have bad life some don't, some lost a child some don't.

You are blaming yourself for something you couldn't control. How is this? I sold a home that was free and clear in exchange for the lies of a sister who has lead me into near poverty and potential homelessness, and I keep asking myself why I'm so stupid to have allowed that to happen. I was in control and could have ignored her with the warnings I heard and felt. But I suspended my disbelief and thought somehow she'd changed and that she wasn't lying. Now that's something to be angry with oneself about.

You didn't do anything wrong. There is a book called "Angel Unaware" by Dale Evans Rogers and its about a child she had with downs syndrome who lived a short time and then died. Its written from the imaginary perspective of the child, and its very inspiring.

You don't have any reason to end your life if you are fed, housed, loved by a husband, and possibly going to be loved again by another child. Life hurts like hell, but if you have the basics covered, like I once did and have no more, you have a foundation. Please reconsider WHY you feel you want to die. You might also watch the film "Harold And Maude," which a testament to why someone might want to reconsider suicide. I live right now hoping I won't have to starve to death or end my life because of my bad decision, and I have four cats (babies) to see through. I'd have to put them down first, they are older anyway, and I don't know how I'm going to do that. I can't watch strangers take them or see them starve.

CTB really isn't for you. There is no proof of reincarnation or the afterlife, just hope that a benevolent creator will love us forever unconditionally. We can believe anything we so choose, but it doesn't mean that its reality. I do believe in the infinite, but faith is based only on what I know to be true. I parked my car out front and left it when I came in, and based on what I know, it should be there when I return. However, if I expect that car to turn into a helicopter based on belief, I could very well get disappointed as that has never happened before. How can we be held responsible for something we can't know?
 
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issyishere

Goodnight and always remember that’s life
Nov 5, 2019
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although i don't believe this. if this is the case i hope my next life will be better because i've received my punishment and i know what true pain is.
 
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porfin1234

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Dec 26, 2019
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I don't think so... so many good decent human beings have suffered so much while awful people often get away with things they've done and live long lives getting what they want. Some things happen because bad decisions or just because shit happens. I don't think there's some entity keeping score. It's like saying someone who has been raped it's because they were bad in a past life as if they deserved it. I don't think it works that way. But who knows really.
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

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Nov 7, 2019
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It's because I did something stupid in this life not past life/lives.
 
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nitrogen

nitrogen

Schrödinger's cat
Nov 5, 2019
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I hate to break it to you folks about reincarnation being mere superstition.

How many of you know about the phenomena of reincarnation has been and is being studied by the University Of Virginia School of Medicine Division of Perceptual Studies? How many of you read the department's founder, Dr. Ian Stevenson's 2000 page work? Do you know the Nobel Prize-winning physiologist named Charles Richet also studied seances and ectoplasm? How many of you practice black magic rituals to summon demons?

I'm personally terrified of the idea of reincanation and the afterlife. After I die, I just don't want to exist in any form at all. I've always been agnostic. I don't practice any religion. Coming from a science and medical background, I only give empirical evidence credit.

There's a lot about human existence and consciousness that we don't know. The most troubling aspect of that is we don't know what we don't know.

Reincarnation and demons are most likely real, whether you and I want to believe or not, independent of your religion, unfortunately.
 
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TheLastGoodbye

Student
Oct 23, 2019
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I've thought about reincarnation. I sometimes wonder if I did something horrible in a previous life. I consider myself a pretty good person but my health is terrible and I am suffering immensely. Who knows. Maybe I'll be better off if there's a next life's
I wonder the same thing about myself
 
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Headingoutsoon

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Jan 16, 2020
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Eeeh, That fear is one reason why I haven't CTBed yet. I'm not religious really at all. But, so many of them believe suicide as a sin. The last thing I want is to wake up in another life that is worse then this one.
 
zherhk

zherhk

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Nov 25, 2019
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If in the previous life we did something bad and we are now paying, where is the lesson if the past ourselves is now unconscious?
 
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foreveryoung

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Jan 2, 2020
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Im a really big fan of buddhism and indian religions so I can tell you some things about reincarnation from what I read.The buddha talks about reincarnation, when asked by a man that says he's not sure if he believes theres a hell in the after life and is afraid to end up there, the buddha answers even if there isn't a hell, you should do good deeds and not be harmful to others anyway, that way if there is a hell you'd be sure you wouldn't end up there. If there isn't a hell you would still be remembered as a good person.

Another time he mentions reincarnation is when he talks about karma. He says we need to get rid of our karma, meaning to be neither a good or bad person. Why because you can reincarnate into a better life if you have good karma but theres no telling in the next life you'll do even more bad deeds and end up in hell. What you ultimately want to do is attain non-existence, and so thats why buddhists practice non-attachment and try to let go of everything in the current existence so they can leave samsara (suffering) for good. They believe our "worldly passions" are the cause of suffering, and if we can achieve detachment from passions in the current existence to some extent, after we die we will indeed reincarnate to an existence where passions don't exist and all suffering is gone.

Theres also a similar telling in the "Myth of Er" which is a NDE of a greek soldier recorded in Plato's republic. Depending on how you lived life you would go through heaven or hell then afterwards get to pick how you live your next life, quote:

Then, in the order in which their lottery tokens were chosen, each soul was required to come forward to choose his or her next life. Er recalled the first one to choose a new life: a man who had not known the terrors of the underground but had been rewarded in the sky, hastily chose a powerful dictatorship. Upon further inspection he realized that, among other atrocities, he was destined to eat his own children. Er observed that this was often the case of those who had been through the path in the sky, whereas those who had been punished often chose a better life. Many preferred a life different from their previous experience. Animals chose human lives while humans often chose the apparently easier lives of animals.

So like what the Buddha mentions, in your past life you might of been a good person that made it to heaven but you reincarnated into something that were prone to causing harm to others or lead to bad deeds or circumstances. Op might of been a good person in the previous life but might of chosen the wrong life. really though, the only way we'll get to really know what happens in the after life is when we get there and experience it for ourselves. We learn from our past mistakes (i hope), I'm sure no matter how many lives it takes we'll keep improving until we reach peace forever, so even if this life we live now was suffering it was at least meaningful to some extent to improving our after life and the lives that come after it.
 
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