anyone here do a lot of drugs?

[AloeGarten]

im not totally suicidal at the minute, though i see it as inevitable in the future. basically ever since i actually lost 'the will to live' a few years ago, i started doing a ton of drugs, high doses, insane dose trips etc cause i dont really care about the consequeneces anymore. anyway, wondered if anyone else here does the same? as depressed as i get when i think about my life, being high on something all the time actually makes me want to be alive for at least a few more years, its so fun getting this fucked up and seeing shit from this perspective. if not,maybe u guys should try psychadelics or something, if u got nohting to lose then why not

 

[western_heart]

Yes. I do dissociatives almost every day. Not particularly high/extreme doses, but I am doing them way too frequently and hope I can make it more of a weekly thing soon, instead of near-daily.

I used to do psychedelics a lot but I am too afraid of them now. I really want to approach them again.

I drank away the pain for years, became addicted to stims multiple times... Seven years ago I got to the point in my life where I lost the will to live, got addicted to cocaine and later meth, ruined my career etc. after a long recovery I stick with my prescribed ADHD meds.

 

[painlessvision]

im not totally suicidal at the minute, though i see it as inevitable in the future. basically ever since i actually lost 'the will to live' a few years ago, i started doing a ton of drugs, high doses, insane dose trips etc cause i dont really care about the consequeneces anymore. anyway, wondered if anyone else here does the same? as depressed as i get when i think about my life, being high on something all the time actually makes me want to be alive for at least a few more years, its so fun getting this fucked up and seeing shit from this perspective. if not,maybe u guys should try psychadelics or something, if u got nohting to lose then why not

I used to do a lot of drugs and psychedelics. It made me forget that I was suicidal while high. Now I'm actively making an exit plan. I don't have the money for drugs anymore and I don't have the energy to fake being ok anymore. So I'm just working on CTB right now

 

[Darkover]

in the last month i've had 2 and half oz of weed, 1g ketamine, 2 mdma pills from amsterdam, and 3.5 gram of coke, so yes i do a lot of drugs its the only thing i have to keep me from being even more suicidal depressed ect

 

[jk9761]

I used to do a lot of drugs and psychedelics. It made me forget that I was suicidal while high. Now I'm actively making an exit plan. I don't have the money for drugs anymore and I don't have the energy to fake being ok anymore. So I'm just working on CTB rig

I used to do a lot of drugs and psychedelics. It made me forget that I was suicidal while high. Now I'm actively making an exit plan. I don't have the money for drugs anymore and I don't have the energy to fake being ok anymore. So I'm just working on CTB right now

can you pm me when your able to

 

[Xocoyotzin]

Not anymore but I used to binge on DXM and sometimes use psychedelics. At first I was looking for meaning, but then I went overboard and started using them just to not be sober anymore. Now I use kratom every day if that counts I guess, I love how functional it is.

 

[Funeralprincess]

im not totally suicidal at the minute, though i see it as inevitable in the future. basically ever since i actually lost 'the will to live' a few years ago, i started doing a ton of drugs, high doses, insane dose trips etc cause i dont really care about the consequeneces anymore. anyway, wondered if anyone else here does the same? as depressed as i get when i think about my life, being high on something all the time actually makes me want to be alive for at least a few more years, its so fun getting this fucked up and seeing shit from this perspective. if not,maybe u guys should try psychadelics or something, if u got nohting to lose then why not

Did a lot of psychedelics, ketamine, coke… whatever I could get my hands on really. I'm sober now and am focused on dying

 

[Idontmatter]

I used to do lots of coke many years ago. I felt so good and happy when I was doing it. I miss it actually.