anyone have a specific person who they're dependent on?

[exhaustedanonymous]

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[SunnysSunset]

Yup. It's an awful situation to be in

 

[Ultracheese]

In what sense? Financially, emotional, etc.? I have someone who I'm dependent on financially and another who I'm dependent on in the emotional sense.

 

[hellispink]

I have bpd, so yes. I have what they called a favorite person or someone I am very dependent of. They can drive me crazy and make myself die if they wanted. It is a torture hard to escape of.

 

[lionetta12]

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My therapist call me atypical every time I see him because I don't depend on anyone and I don't have the desire to do so since people just disapoint me and are unreliable to me usually.

 

[CinnamonTwirls]

I have bpd, so yes. I have what they called a favorite person or someone I am very dependent of. They can drive me crazy and make myself die if they wanted. It is a torture hard to escape of.

Fellow person with BPD here. It's a true and absolute hell to have a favorite person. They control whether I live or die, and every emotion I have.

 

[exhaustedanonymous]

fellow person with BPD here. It's a true and absolute hell to have a favorite person. They control whether I live or die, and every emotion I have.

I have bpd, so yes. I have what they called a favorite person or someone I am very dependent of.

im in the process of getting diagnosed with it, i probably shouldve been earlier but my parents convinced me not to get it officially considered at until recently. i know who my favorite person 100% is if i do have it (which at this point is an almost-given?) and i agree with you guys. its hell. i wouldnt wish this on anyone.

 

[metalpi]

Complicated, I have BPD and I'm recovering but my boyfriend. Starting to have healthier boundaries

 

[HayBunny23]

I depend on others for my survival. It'll be great when I finally am left alone to die. It's a shame people keep me alive as it is already.

 

[Kurushii]

I depend on my partner for mostly everything because I'm too depressed to do anything for myself. I do want to be independant, but sadly I don't think that will ever be possible in my case.

 

[Depresso]

I depend on one person for all my self worth. He emotionally took advantage of me for years until he found someone he actually wanted to date and fall in love with. The attention he gives to someone else I just project it onto myself that I am worthless of anybody's love and that I'm inherently flawed. He has had such an profound negative affect on me and I project his image to the men I date and the friends I make. I still eat up his affection when he does decide to breadcrumb me.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I feel like I depend on my therapist for way too much when I'm depressed the way I am now. Then when I can't see her for a while it feels like my world is crumbling and I'm totally alone, because she's the only person I can trust to handle all my ugly thoughts. I'm seeing her two days later than I normally do next week and it has potentiated my hopelessness. It makes me feel pathetic because she's just a person and I'm responsible for my life. So why am I even here?

 

[Heartbroken2022]

I feel really bad that I say it, but yes I am also emotionally dependent. And I think this is the worst kind of dependence. I hope I wasn't.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

Yeah, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I've been dependent on my boyfriend for several years, and I hate myself for ending up in this situation. Soon enough, my living situation, finances, and even immigration status will be completely in his hands, and I really despise the position I'm in.

I'm quite emotionally vunerable and susceptible to loneliness as well. This puts me further up shit creek without a paddle, because soon I'm going to have to be living alone with him in an area where there are 0 other people I know around.

My boyfriend has threatened to leave me many times, and has stated that he knows I'd be screwed without him. Like most people, he has a family to run off to when times get hard. Me? I've got nothing. When I tried to emphasise how awful I feel about this catch 22 situation, I get accused of immaturity, unreasonableness, and told that if I simply fix/change myself then there wouldn't be a problem.

I hate having no family or close friends, because it means that you constantly have to provide some sort of value to a romantic partner in order to "earn" love and help. I really have no interest in sex, or transactional arrangements, but that's all adult relationships seem to boil down to.

It is godawful being dependent on a romantic partner for most of your needs, and knowing that if you can't consrantly fulfill their desires, they will eventually abandon you. The prospect of spending years with someone only for them to inevitably never speak to you or care about you ever again once they've decided you're a poor investment is a major thing I hate about this life.