Well, triggered I am.
As the wife of a truck driver, and as a wife of a truck driver that lived for over 7 years in a semi truck, over the road, 16 hours a day, six to seven days a week, I have had enough trauma in my life and would not have needed to experience that, and with my husband still on the road, why should he have to experience that, and further, I really do not need to get a knock on the door from the po po telling me my hubby is dead or severely injured in the hospital, which would place me out on the street with my two cats and all our belongings, because, if he is in the hospital, or dead, he is not working and his work will no longer pay for our hotel room, so really, it would still traumatize both of us and both our cats.
I will try to not yell and type in all caps like I did to the jerk who wanted to steal a sick dogs medication.
Read the PPeH, you do not need to buy drugs, or gasses, or steal people or animals meds, jump in front of cars or trains or semi's, off bridges or buildings.
You do not need to traumatize unwitting people and create victims the way you were created as victim.
For less than 10 bucks you can acquire all you need, go off into the wilderness where you will not be traumatizing hotel/motel/apartment staff, or anyone else, you only need to assure that you will have about an hour, really 20 minutes will do, but I like to take my time.
Find the way that does as little damage as possible on your way out, without destroying others lives that do not deserve it. Cause, frankly, I have had enough shit in my life, that is why I have attempted 5 times and why I am here now and soon to be gone, I do not need anything else, so just stop even thinking of doing that shit.
unless that is your aim, your goal, to traumatize others as you exit. If that is your goal, there is a reason, I am sure, aim that reason at those who deserve it, not at the innocent drivers and their wives, children and pets that rely on them.