Venting anyone else’s job make things so much worse?

[TimeTheTaleWereTold]

i work as a kitchen porter in a local restaurant chain, i make minimum wage and it's hell. i have severe social anxiety which makes interacting with customers and my co-workers extremely difficult. none of my co-workers respect me and i've overheard them talking shit about me behind my back (just the usual stuff - "she's so weird i hate working with her","she never speaks" "why can't she do anything right?" as well as some nice homophobic jabs thrown in there too)
i'm just so sick of this shit - it's like this with every job i've ever had. maybe (more like definitely) i'm not cut out to be a functioning member of society.

 

[Dear Flabby]

i work as a kitchen porter in a local restaurant chain, i make minimum wage and it's hell. i have severe social anxiety which makes interacting with customers and my co-workers extremely difficult. none of my co-workers respect me and i've overheard them talking shit about me behind my back (just the usual stuff - "she's so weird i hate working with her","she never speaks" "why can't she do anything right?" as well as some nice homophobic jabs thrown in there too)
i'm just so sick of this shit - it's like this with every job i've ever had. maybe (more like definitely) i'm not cut out to be a functioning member of society.

I'm so sorry that you have to endure that. It sounds absolutely soul crushing.
My hunch is that it has more to do with the mean-ass people at minimum wage jobs.
Once I was able to break free from the rat cage that is fast food work, I worked in libraries, where my problems (anxiety, etc.) were not as noticeable.
Do you think that you might have some options as far as getting some training/a tech diploma? It's a huge step to contemplate, but there is freedom in finally finding a job that doesn't involve constant bullying by jumped-up losers.
Hugs and peace,
Flabby

 

[TimeTheTaleWereTold]

I'm so sorry that you have to endure that. It sounds absolutely soul crushing.
My hunch is that it has more to do with the mean-ass people at minimum wage jobs.
Once I was able to break free from the rat cage that is fast food work, I worked in libraries, where my problems (anxiety, etc.) were not as noticeable.
Do you think that you might have some options as far as getting some training/a tech diploma? It's a huge step to contemplate, but there is freedom in finally finding a job that doesn't involve constant bullying by jumped-up losers.
Hugs and peace,
Flabby

thank you so much for your kind words <3
i actually do have a diploma in IT haha! but unfortunately all the relevant jobs require a minimum 1 year experience working in the industry, which i don't have :-(
i am going back to uni in september though, so i guess i'll just have to stick it out until then :-/

 

[Dear Flabby]

thank you so much for your kind words <3
i actually do have a diploma in IT haha! but unfortunately all the relevant jobs require a minimum 1 year experience working in the industry, which i don't have :-(
i am going back to uni in september though, so i guess i'll just have to stick it out until then :-/

Not the best phrase, but Hang in There!
There are always people around here when you need to vent.

 

[randomz]

I am sorry for what you are going through. I graduated from law school in my country and managed to find a good workplace in my home town but in the year that has passed since then I have never been in a worse state. My constant severe anxiety and depression combined with the brain fog from it made me not good at my job and I also realised that maybe after all, I didn't really wanted to study law and did it just as a chore, with no passion and love.

These feelings are killing me a little with each passing day - I basically have no self-esteem, my brain fog makes me uproductive as a person, I have tried a lot of methods to ease my anxiety and depression as much as possible, but to no avail. I started taking medications recently so this might help.
Even as I am writing this, I am trembling with anxiety for a task I have to report with not good results from my side......

 

[TimeTheTaleWereTold]

I am sorry for what you are going through. I graduated from law school in my country and managed to find a good workplace in my home town but in the year that has passed since then I have never been in a worse state. My constant severe anxiety and depression combined with the brain fog from it made me not good at my job and I also realised that maybe after all, I didn't really wanted to study law and did it just as a chore, with no passion and love.

These feelings are killing me a little with each passing day - I basically have no self-esteem, my brain fog makes me uproductive as a person, I have tried a lot of methods to ease my anxiety and depression as much as possible, but to no avail. I started taking medications recently so this might help.
Even as I am writing this, I am trembling with anxiety for a task I have to report with not good results from my side......

i'm sorry you're feeling this way too. i relate a lot, so if it's any consolation you're not alone... i guess none of us on this forum are really alone since we all are likeminded and stuff...
i hope you find luck with your medications though!

 

[randomz]

i'm sorry you're feeling this way too. i relate a lot, so if it's any consolation you're not alone... i guess none of us on this forum are really alone since we all are likeminded and stuff...
i hope you find luck with your medications though!

Thank you, we are definetely alone in this forum, which kinda helps yeah. I hope things turn out great for you and you manage to find a better place to work! :)

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

In over 20 years of working, I was ever only in one environment where everyone got along and we were all mutually supportive. I loved going in almost every day those four years. I had one other mostly good working environment early on, but for the most part, people are people, and people can be quite shitty, in any kind of group or community.

Someone will almost always be outcast, but consider that those people don't even really like themselves, what they like is judging and hating because it makes them feel more right and more valid. It's hard to be the outcast, and being around such people is draining, not uplifting or affirming. So sorry you're dealing with this. They're bullies. They will respect you if you stay calm and call them out.

They're picking on the best of you because they don't have it, you reflect what they lack, therefore you are higher and they'll feel better if they put you lower. You're not responsible for making their weak egos feel better. :)