I imagine you don't live anywhere near me I'm in Southern California, but I really think I need someone to do it with me I cant seem to end my life myself. My family would be devestated if I try it. they want to help me, but nothing seems to work. I might have to go on living and that' a scary because I'm depressed beyond belief - physical chronic health problems make living a struggle, but suicide seems to be even more of a struggle.