Ambivalent1
🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
- Apr 17, 2023
- 3,279
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Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
- Aug 12, 2019
- 2,737
No I'd rather ctb. Non-existence forever is the ultimate bliss to me. I hate living for many reasons. Just some it's horrific being trapped in a aging animal body. I'm a slave of this body, this mind / brain and of this evil world / society.
Any day I keep living I risk something very horrible happening to me and this fragile animal body or brain
any experience that is pleasurable will be fleeting and forgotten after death. You can't take any memories or possessions money with you. After death is non-existence forever
Any day I keep living I risk something very horrible happening to me and this fragile animal body or brain
any experience that is pleasurable will be fleeting and forgotten after death. You can't take any memories or possessions money with you. After death is non-existence forever
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Octopixie
If not now, when?
- Jun 26, 2023
- 18
I don't think there is anything that would change my mind. It might delay it a bit longer, but I want out while I still have my mind. I watched my mom suffer the last 5-7 years before she died. Half the time she didn't know up from down. I helped take care of her when I could, but during the pandemic I couldn't see her at all because it put my health at risk to visit the nursing home.
If I won some outrageous amount of money then I would delay it so that I could set the two people I live up for life. Then I would by myself a peaceful out because either way my body is failing me. Private nurses and all of that is nice, but I've suffered enough and there just isn't a future where I wouldn't still be in serious pain or have to take a ton of meds daily.
If I won some outrageous amount of money then I would delay it so that I could set the two people I live up for life. Then I would by myself a peaceful out because either way my body is failing me. Private nurses and all of that is nice, but I've suffered enough and there just isn't a future where I wouldn't still be in serious pain or have to take a ton of meds daily.
Kerrtu
Komeetta ♊︎
- May 8, 2023
- 474
Same.
Also, would it be alright if I messaged you tomorrow? I'm going to smoke a bowl now and hopefully sleep, but tomorrow if I can message you, I'd appreciate it. If not, it's fine and I'm sorry for asking!
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Global Mod
- Jun 24, 2023
- 644
Life has been nothing but hell and that's just how it is for some. We deserve to have a safe and reliable means out of the world but we are robbed of that.
To me I've lost all sense of SI and simply seek CTB at this point. I'm not ready to give up yet and think I may find purpose but I've only given myself till september to figure that out.
To me I've lost all sense of SI and simply seek CTB at this point. I'm not ready to give up yet and think I may find purpose but I've only given myself till september to figure that out.
Yes- of course- message me anytime you like. I'm a bit more on and off here of late but I'm sure I'll be on at some point. Hope you sleep well.
Death is my goal
pathetic failure
- Aug 25, 2022
- 506
Lots of money would make me stay long enough to take care of my debt, spend quality time with those I love, etc. But with my losses, heartache, and illness over the last several years, I don't want to drag it out
Kerrtu
Komeetta ♊︎
- May 8, 2023
- 474
Thank you @Forever Sleep
I'm just waking now, I will message you.
Very much appreciated ♡
Sweet Tart
Arcanist
- May 10, 2023
- 452
If I had enough money to have more control over my life (i.e. the chance for better quality of life), I might want to live. It's just I have college debt, rent is very high, and the profession I was educated for is demanding, triggers my depression, and pays little. Since the pandemic, I've thought about what else I could do with my life to have better prospects for independence and privacy from family but I can't think how.
