Anyone else watch videos of other's suicides?

[dynastickitten]

When I get really bad, I start watching videos of other's suicides. Liveleak was my shit back when it was up and running when I was suicidal as a teenager.

 

[carac]

Not really but I have been watching the deleted Hannah Baker suicide from 13 reasons why recently. I dunno why I just feel really connected to it, it was my choice of method until I discovered it wasn't reliable

 

[BringMeToLife]

Sometimes I watch videos of suicides by my preferred methods. I like to know what might happen with me and analyze. It helps me soothe my mind

 

[hikikomorizombie]

i would if i knew how to find them. prob just my method though. liveleak was so popular it was the place to go even for ppl like myself who aren't rlly into gore, & now that it's gone idk any of the more underground sites :/

 

[stuckinthemud]

I saw one by accident on Facebook about 6/7 years a go now. A 12 year old girl hung herself from a tree. She shook violently it was awful.
Wish I'd never watched it. Never watched one since and I don't wish to.

 

[4am]

i would if i knew how to find them. prob just my method though. liveleak was so popular it was the place to go even for ppl like myself who aren't rlly into gore, & now that it's gone idk any of the more underground sites :/

watchpeopledie is kinda the same thing, just yk, don't look into comments there

 

[dynastickitten]

Sometimes I watch videos of suicides by my preferred methods. I like to know what might happen with me and analyze. It helps me soothe my mind

What's your preferred method?

 

[BringMeToLife]

What's your preferred method?

Right now jumping (not into water) is my first choice

 

[dynastickitten]

Right now jumping (not into water) is my first choice

you could use 9/11 footage like baby sensory videos then

 

[shun75x]

where can I watch those videos? I'd like to watch about using N.

 

[caninecomposer]

I believe my autism prevents me from watching such videos, I have a strange spastic physical response to both gore and intercourse/genitalia. Although there were plenty of non-death liveleak videos which I loved and wished I had archived. They're definitely gone from the internet, I've searched an unhealthy amount for some.

 

[JOkE2109]

Yeah sometimes. Most suicide videos are just really violent and gruesome (Jumping, getting hit by train and trucks etc). I do remember watching the Katelyn Davis/ItzDolly video while researching hanging and that having a way more profound emotional impact on me than other videos. The end with her body hanging as her parents are trying to call her and shout her name is just absolutely haunting.

 

[suffocatingseraphim]

I haven't sought out any actively because I know it would take a horrible toll on my already frail mental health, but I recall back in middle school or early high school, I came across this video (maybe on tumblr?) Of a man using everything he could to end his life. He was slavic, blonde, long hair thin build, outside in the mountains. He drank a bottle of alcohol, took pills, then slit his wrists and started laughing at the camera. I thought it was horrific at that age but it got worse.

He then doused his body in liquid, kerosene or gas or alcohol im not sure, put a rope around his neck and lit his clothes on fire, then jumping from a cliff. I have no fucking idea how he a) managed to hang without the rope burning and b) managed all of it at once.

There was a second camera streaming it from the bottom of the cliff edge that showed him spasming and dangling, before falling into some rocks, and growing still.
I wish I at least knew what the video's origin was because it sounds so outlandish. It's forever burned in my memory though

 

[Thanksforeverything]

I've stumbled across several by chance. But I'm never going to seek them out personally. Suicide is an inherently personal thing, and I don't think is meant to be consumed for pleasure or my own peace of mind.

 

[Maeve]

I don't go searching for them but ive seen a few
Thw only one i ever went searching for was one of the sn method

 

[Reuthry]

I have gigabytes of video where people jump from building (I was also planning to back then so I was watching them to learn), people who hang themselves etc. Honestly they encourage me to kill myself, which is what I exactly want.

 

[Ninja_Master]

I don't go searching for them but ive seen a few
Thw only one i ever went searching for was one of the sn method

Have you found the one with SN as a method?

 

[Runa]

no, i think it's grotesque. no one should have their last moments posted on the internet for other people to gawk at.

 

[dynastickitten]

no, i think it's grotesque. no one should have their last moments posted on the internet for other people to gawk at.

They were the ones who posted it homie

 

[Runa]

They were the ones who posted it homie

do you think they were of sound mind when they did it? I don't think Shuaiby or Ronnie McNutt were.

 

[WheelSucker459]

Don't think I could watch that

Just want my own CTB

 

[Yavannah]

I saw one by accident on Facebook about 6/7 years a go now. A 12 year old girl hung herself from a tree. She shook violently it was awful.
Wish I'd never watched it. Never watched one since and I don't wish to.

12 years old thats so sad

 

[Worndown]

Yes. I prefer hanging and they are like training videos. See how they did it. Look for ways to make it work for you.

 

[rozeske]

I have but I have only searched about my method(partial) and hanging in general. Which is not easy to do b/c even if i type and search hanging there are other method gore ctb or murder videos that are displayed, I have to cover the right side of my phone with my hand. I still never escape the pain deep in my stomach when am in those sites, but it's a good way to learn about my method.

 

[fightingforchoice]

Where can these videos be found?

 

[throneofdispair03]

I wish I could, but I have no clue where to find em'

 

[steppingoff]

I have because I want to know what it will be like. There are a few hangings. that I really saw myself there. It's a weird experience