Discussion anyone else want to die in impossible ways?

[ctbcat]

i guess mine aren't so impossible, but i envision them in an impossible manner.

a lot of the time, when my suicidal thoughts are the worst in the day, or i'm feeling numb or annoyed or whatever, i get two desires: 1. the desire to drown 2. the desire to melt. these are not calm methods, nor very feasible to carry out on yourself. both are agonising deaths that involve screaming and thrashing and are slow and whatever else... but i never imagine them that way.

i imagine my face, peaceful and dazed and not there, just letting myself go - like that one 'ophelia' painting. death is such a happy thought to me - an end. so while, logically i know my body would fight against my mind, try to stay alive with all my might, all i can ever think about is just lying there and letting death happen, under the water, or into the ground.

anyway. that's me jotting down my fantasies or whatever... have you got anything similar? illogical desires like that?

 

[DepressedDude]

Yes, I'd really like to die in my sleep, I've heard it can happen but is very rare.

 

[lost_ange2211]

I think when my thoughts are someone clear i would like to go down in sleep too. Just fall asleep and never wake up again but that is very impossible as i don't really have any physical health condition that could help with that.

During some darker days and high destructive emotional times i would like to succeed and kill myself with a bladed weapon, a knife. In that moment i would not care about the pain or the damage i do to my body. But it is quite unrealistic to be successful with that in reality.

 

[timetodie24]

Yes. The voices tell me to stab myself, swallow sharps, jump in front of cars, they have even suggested taking others with me (which I absolutely wouldn't do) . I know it won't work and will just make things worse so I don't and never will . But I fantasise about it i guess .

 

[Forever Sleep]

I wish we could just wish ourselves away.

 

[fleetingnight]

Yes, so much. At my worst, I always visualize stabbing myself in the chest or throat. Even if I had the will,I doubt I have the physical strength to pull that off. I wonder why we picture something so intense, outside of just not thinking rationally, of course.

 

[kyhoti]

Let me start with, I love all animals, especially bears and wolves. That said, I'd love to be ripped to shreds by a bear and a timber wolf. What a way to go.

 

[dolemitedrums]

Nope, I just want some damn N so I don't traumatize myself or the next person to enter any more than the unavoidable minimum.