I am pathetically throwing myself at men just to get some attention and temporary distraction. Im also into masochism so it's become like a version of self harm. Anyone else doing this shit? Just wanted to feel less alone.
This post touched my heart OP. Please look after yourself, as much as you can. Sex is life in a way, so I understand women would want to do it to feel good. But it's an ugly fact that women are more vulnerable on average in casual sex encounters, and are more likely to come to harm, especially if we have mental health problems and don't have solid self esteem and self assertion. Risks of non consensual sex, abortion which some find difficult, STIs, or just lowered self esteem from feeling used. I have dated both with and without mental health problems/damaged self esteem, and I think that with even moderate mental health difficulties as a woman you can just be so much more more vulnerable when dating or looking for sex. There are so many men out there, sad to say, who look for women who are vulnerable, they can sense it. Maybe sometimes they just think it will be easier to get sex from such women, but at other times it's darker than that, it's as if there are men out there who get off on mentally beating down women who are already vulnerable. Something
@GoodPersonEffed once posted stuck with me, "even men you'd want to date and start a family with are going to see that you're beaten down, that you won't say Aw hell no, and beat you down further for their own amusement or fulfillment". That has been so true in my experience. Also I understand that there are women who quite happily have sex with strangers or in short term relationships and don't mind if the man regards them as an object only and has no feelings for them…………..but tbh if you're not in a good place mentally already that may make you feel worse. As you say…..masochism.
There are also lovely men out there who will love and care for you, and sex with them might be a more positive experience.
That all sounded a bit 1950s, but I think we have to be pretty careful when we're already low…..please look after yourself lady.