Discussion anyone else thinks or fantasizes of going full breaking bad or some other crap before u ctb? lol

[vold3m0r†]

sometimes i think (or dream about it, at least lol) of doing something ive never thought of doing. if cops catch on, will ctb, or do something mad crazy and let the cops kill me.

if im successful, i can be the next pablo escobar (im joking), ill make enough cash to support my family after i pass. win win i guess.

kinda always wanted to be a drug lord and then take the whole world with me after i die hahahah

 

[NoPointToContinue]

I'm almost done with this world and life, have no respect for it and have no desire to get anything from it. That's why my last days are not like in movies where I have newly found courage to do crazy shit, because I'll die anyway. It is more like peaceful waiting for the end to come.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

Yes. I had an opportunity when i was in a psych ward to join a gang. This was in the early days when i was "good" and still wanted to recover. Of course I stayed away from him and I was kind of scared of people like that. Now? I really don't give a shit. I'd join his gang lol.

I just don't give a shit about anything anymore. I just wanna find the FASTEST path to the end and do it.

 

[author]

Honestly, yeah. I've been trapped in one room for so long that I think I'd love to do some wild shit before I go out. Not sure what, exactly, but I at least want something satisfying before I go. Honestly I'd probably do something with fire, lol

 

[user_name_here]

No. Never.
I have no desire to harm others just because I don't like living anymore.

Are there people I dislike? sure, but I'm ultimately unhappy with myself and my life. Violence towards others just seems pointless to me at this point.

 

[phoenixx]

Yeah, I have had thoughts about doing some things. Go crazy. Do some things. Let cops put bullets in me. Of course, these are just thoughts and fantasies. I don't think I'd ever act on these them, but I like to think about these things and what could happen. Just like thinking about ctb, it comforts me in some way.

 

[finish.me]

I think about it everyday

 

[RedEther]

I used to. I remember the movie Last holiday, and always dreamed thats how I would go out. Learning the world dosnt work that way, my bucket list stared to lean more on vengeance. Not having a way to Ctb I just stared to be clear and open about how I feel about everything to everyone. Iv done what iv wanted to do and shoved it in the faces of the people who have personaly wronged me (more in a "look at how the girl in HS you turned down is now" kinda thing")
Anything else would be the kinda work that, if i could do, i would be living and doing it ya know? Like if I could be a successful drug lord with a chicken restaurant as a front,then thatll be enough to keep me going.
Alas...tis but a dream

 

[Bullit]

Yes! I think about it every day. Can't say tho hee hee hee...

 

[fox_wannabe]

I am aspie, have bpd, depressed. Only in maniac episodes I think of It but later I crash terribly.
There is a reason I sit at my house all year long

 

[Mr2005]

Never watched it

 

[RedEther]

I think about it everyday

Strait up Discord Am i right?

 

[RazzleDazzle]

When there was still stuff that I wanted to do and I had options I wasn't suicidal. If I had the option of making a dramatic change to my life I would take that option. I'm trapped in some circumstances that I literally can't escape or change. If life was still an option for me I would be choosing life, it's just not.