Anyone else think suicidal ideation could be a side effect of pharmaceuticals?

[freedomcalls]

Is anyone else wondering if their suicidal ideation could be a side effect of pharmaceuticals?

My depression started very young (7); I was put on the pill at 13 to treat my acne and I was suicidal from then until I came off birth control in 2011, with a couple of attempts
I was better during my pregnancies, although I had some PND after each of my babies.

In 2014 I went back on the pill because I didn't want any more kids. Came back off because after a month I was seriously suicidal again
Went on the pill last yea after the birth of my 5th child, had to stop due to becoming actively suicidal again

Started taking the pill again a month ago (I absolutely CANNOT have any more children) and have been getting more and more obsessed all month with methods, suicidal planning etc.
in the last few weeks I've been getting practical things in place for my children, with my home etc so I can CTB but I wonder if I come off the pill will that mean my children get to have their mother around a while longer???

Is it worth it? A life without intimacy is so lonely I can't risk another pregnancy. But I really think that the hormones in birth control are making me much more likely to CTB

 

[goldenvirginia]

I think messed up hormones can play a massive role in depression and suicidal thoughts. Have you thought about other methods of birth control?

 

[freedomcalls]

I'm scared of committing to tubal litigation / coil etc because they're linked to depression and there a much longer commitment

I don't trust condoms (a partner I was with recently 'lost' it during foreplay and I wasn't aware until after he'd ejaculated inside me)

 

[Little T]

BC pills made me crazy. BC is based on a 28 day cycle when my natural cycle was 35.

 

[goldenvirginia]

How about a diaphragm. I know they're a bit annoying to insert, but at least you aren't taking anything that will affect your mood.

 

[freedomcalls]

I considered that but i can't go and get fitted because my husband would find out and be angry, so I don't know if it would be reliable
And I can't buy online because he sees every transaction that comes out of my bank account

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I considered that but i can't go and get fitted because my husband would find out and be angry, so I don't know if it would be reliable
And I can't buy online because he sees every transaction that comes out of my bank account

He's not going to like it either if you can't fight off the thoughts brought on by the pill. There are other birth control options and it's not unreasonable to use birth control after five children. Your health is important too and the option you are using evidently isn't good for it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

For me, my ideation didn't come about like that but I definitely think it can. I knew the most confident, vibrant lady who suffered a bout of depression as a side effect to the medication she was on. (Don't know the details but it made her much more sympathetic towards people who suffer.)

 

[Unending]

Is anyone else wondering if their suicidal ideation could be a side effect of pharmaceuticals?

My depression started very young (7); I was put on the pill at 13 to treat my acne and I was suicidal from then until I came off birth control in 2011, with a couple of attempts
I was better during my pregnancies, although I had some PND after each of my babies.

In 2014 I went back on the pill because I didn't want any more kids. Came back off because after a month I was seriously suicidal again
Went on the pill last yea after the birth of my 5th child, had to stop due to becoming actively suicidal again

Started taking the pill again a month ago (I absolutely CANNOT have any more children) and have been getting more and more obsessed all month with methods, suicidal planning etc.
in the last few weeks I've been getting practical things in place for my children, with my home etc so I can CTB but I wonder if I come off the pill will that mean my children get to have their mother around a while longer???

Is it worth it? A life without intimacy is so lonely I can't risk another pregnancy. But I really think that the hormones in birth control are making me much more likely to CTB

I Take estrogen daily and can remember that when I used to do it via intramuscular injections, my dose was way too high for a while resulting in some pretty severe suicidality. When I lowered my dose I felt a lot less anguished.

 

[Little T]

I considered that but i can't go and get fitted because my husband would find out and be angry, so I don't know if it would be reliable
And I can't buy online because he sees every transaction that comes out of my bank account

Sounds like you may be going through emotional and psycological abuse because you mention husband?

I had a tubaligation, it was a day surgery proceedure that I was actually able to drive myself to and from (lied about a ride). I always had horrible cramping naturally so I don't know if it caused more cramping. I did find a doctor who prescribed me progesterone vaginal suppository from a compounding pharmacy that stopped all cramping.

I Take estrogen daily and can remember that when I used to do it via intramuscular injections, my dose was way too high for a while resulting in some pretty severe suicidality. When I lowered my dose I felt a lot less anguished.

Your cycle sounds just like mine was - It's the estrogen! You need progesterone - stops cramping and promotes better mood.
You really need a new doctor!
Take care.

Is anyone else wondering if their suicidal ideation could be a side effect of pharmaceuticals?

My depression started very young (7); I was put on the pill at 13 to treat my acne and I was suicidal from then until I came off birth control in 2011, with a couple of attempts
I was better during my pregnancies, although I had some PND after each of my babies.

In 2014 I went back on the pill because I didn't want any more kids. Came back off because after a month I was seriously suicidal again
Went on the pill last yea after the birth of my 5th child, had to stop due to becoming actively suicidal again

Started taking the pill again a month ago (I absolutely CANNOT have any more children) and have been getting more and more obsessed all month with methods, suicidal planning etc.
in the last few weeks I've been getting practical things in place for my children, with my home etc so I can CTB but I wonder if I come off the pill will that mean my children get to have their mother around a while longer???

Is it worth it? A life without intimacy is so lonely I can't risk another pregnancy. But I really think that the hormones in birth control are making me much more likely to CTB

5 children - may I ask your approximate age? Could be beginning of menopause. I went through the year of menopause and never even realized it.

 

[goldenvirginia]

I considered that but i can't go and get fitted because my husband would find out and be angry, so I don't know if it would be reliable
And I can't buy online because he sees every transaction that comes out of my bank account

Can't you explain the situation to him? Pretty sure he'd rather you have a diaphragm fitted than have a dead wife. Sorry for being blunt. But your health and mental health is more important than appeasing him surely.

 

[freedomcalls]

he doesn't want to have sex with me, I've tried to leave but he won't let it happen without terrible consequences for our children. Our marriage is over - I've told him repeatedly,
I stay because that's what he wants and what is best for the children

So no, I can't explain to him why I need it
I'm 37

 

[Dot]

Is anyone else wondering if their suicidal ideation could be a side effect of pharmaceuticals?

My depression started very young (7); I was put on the pill at 13 to treat my acne and I was suicidal from then until I came off birth control in 2011, with a couple of attempts
I was better during my pregnancies, although I had some PND after each of my babies.

In 2014 I went back on the pill because I didn't want any more kids. Came back off because after a month I was seriously suicidal again
Went on the pill last yea after the birth of my 5th child, had to stop due to becoming actively suicidal again

Started taking the pill again a month ago (I absolutely CANNOT have any more children) and have been getting more and more obsessed all month with methods, suicidal planning etc.
in the last few weeks I've been getting practical things in place for my children, with my home etc so I can CTB but I wonder if I come off the pill will that mean my children get to have their mother around a while longer???

Is it worth it? A life without intimacy is so lonely I can't risk another pregnancy. But I really think that the hormones in birth control are making me much more likely to CTB

Slf hd coppr coil

0 hormnes involvd - wll wrk fr up t/ 10yrs bt u cn bk a removl fr whenvr u lke

Slf reactd 2 hormnl brth cntrl & coppr coil wrkd bst

Mght b an optn

he doesn't want to have sex with me, I've tried to leave but he won't let it happen without terrible consequences for our children. Our marriage is over - I've told him repeatedly,
I stay because that's what he wants and what is best for the children

So no, I can't explain to him why I need it
I'm 37

Am srry tht u r goin thru ths - tht snds tramatc fr u

 

[well2hell]

Yes, of course. Suicidal ideation is a symptom of severe withdrawal syndrome from antidepressants, antipsychotics, benzodiazepines, GABAergic medication (pregabalin and gabapentin) and opioids.

It also is a paradoxical symptom of antidepressants, especially in children and teenagers at the beginning of the treatment. The FDA has put a boxed warning on many antidepressants (including SSRIs) to warn about this.

 

[freedomcalls]

Slf hd coppr coil

0 hormnes involvd - wll wrk fr up t/ 10yrs bt u cn bk a removl fr whenvr u lke

Slf reactd 2 hormnl brth cntrl & coppr coil wrkd bst

Mght b an optn

Am srry tht u r goin thru ths - tht snds tramatc fr u

I'll look into the copper coil, just don't know if I can get it done without him knowing
I'm literally with my children 24/7 and never anywhere without him knowing

 

[Dot]

I'll look into the copper coil, just don't know if I can get it done without him knowing
I'm literally with my children 24/7 and never anywhere without him knowing

Cld sy = pap-smr or smethng lke tht