lwlaiet8887
Embodiment of failure/Doom poster/Compassionate
- Sep 14, 2023
- 288
Bored just venting and asking if anyone else has the same problem I do. I don't think this topic is often spoken on but your genetics can make or break your life. I unfortunately have a very messed up body, my dad is tall and very lanky (6'2) my mom is average height, I turn out 5'7 with my dad's same body proportions. I look ridiculous, can't build dense muscle, no neck/shoulders, I look like I'm walking around naked/famished, I have hyper
mobile joints, no clothes fit me, I get treated like an exotic animal (not kidding) I had a very happy childhood but now an adult I'm beginning to realise slowly how physically messed up I am and that I'll never be able to accomplish certain things I want to do in life/how debilitating socially it is looking like this. Sometimes I question whether this is a valid thing to want to CBT over. I know some people have it much worse but being like this is jusxastopose to everything I wanted in life. I'm just fed up of constantly having to swim up stream whilst others who are genetically lucky don't have the same hardships. Everything bores me now, I have no desire to socialise because I don't enjoy being treated like shit/looked down on, no romance, working out seems futile to me now since I can't build much mass, working isn't fulfilling. I mostly spend my days rotting trying to completely distract myself from life. I just want to be gone, not in tragic way either more like idgaf about this life and would like to be put of my misery. I would be so happy just to be a normal person, often when I go out walking I see average people going about their days and am just envious of their lives.
mobile joints, no clothes fit me, I get treated like an exotic animal (not kidding) I had a very happy childhood but now an adult I'm beginning to realise slowly how physically messed up I am and that I'll never be able to accomplish certain things I want to do in life/how debilitating socially it is looking like this. Sometimes I question whether this is a valid thing to want to CBT over. I know some people have it much worse but being like this is jusxastopose to everything I wanted in life. I'm just fed up of constantly having to swim up stream whilst others who are genetically lucky don't have the same hardships. Everything bores me now, I have no desire to socialise because I don't enjoy being treated like shit/looked down on, no romance, working out seems futile to me now since I can't build much mass, working isn't fulfilling. I mostly spend my days rotting trying to completely distract myself from life. I just want to be gone, not in tragic way either more like idgaf about this life and would like to be put of my misery. I would be so happy just to be a normal person, often when I go out walking I see average people going about their days and am just envious of their lives.
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