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Imapieceof
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- Feb 14, 2021
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Im talking the kind of thoughts that disturb you and you can´t get rid off.
A couple years ago i used to let myselft think and imagine awful psicopathic things and not even realize how bad it was, i just felt so hurt and disconected from my emotions that it didn´t matter to me, didn´t really paid attention to how much i left my trauma grow, to a point i can´t spend an hour awake without thinking things that are just so bad that it´s making me feel like i should just kill myself.
Over the past months i´ve been trying to get better and improve myself, be a normal person (which i never really was), but this sort of things are building a tension on my mind that is just unbearable.
i´ve always wanted to kill myself, but lately i feel like i NEED to kill myself because, how could a person who has such thoughts as i do live with herself or be happy or just deserve to live?
i don´t know, i think one day i will finally get so tired of them that i´ll do what i´ve always wanted to do, and i´ll be so relaxed for finally having some rest that i wont even cry or feel bad about it.
Anyone else struggling with this kind of situation?
A couple years ago i used to let myselft think and imagine awful psicopathic things and not even realize how bad it was, i just felt so hurt and disconected from my emotions that it didn´t matter to me, didn´t really paid attention to how much i left my trauma grow, to a point i can´t spend an hour awake without thinking things that are just so bad that it´s making me feel like i should just kill myself.
Over the past months i´ve been trying to get better and improve myself, be a normal person (which i never really was), but this sort of things are building a tension on my mind that is just unbearable.
i´ve always wanted to kill myself, but lately i feel like i NEED to kill myself because, how could a person who has such thoughts as i do live with herself or be happy or just deserve to live?
i don´t know, i think one day i will finally get so tired of them that i´ll do what i´ve always wanted to do, and i´ll be so relaxed for finally having some rest that i wont even cry or feel bad about it.
Anyone else struggling with this kind of situation?