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offbalance

All I want is peace
Dec 16, 2021
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
3,563
I'm spent most of my time alone. If I'm not alone then I'm usually with my mom.
 
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peaceandlove

peaceandlove

Unwitting
Aug 31, 2024
32
Not alone per se, but I'm probably a hermit
 
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PedroDeath88

Member
Sep 3, 2024
5
I live alone and I don't have a job. I spend most of the day alone.

I hope the translator is doing a good job. I don't speak English.
 
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TheBroken

TheBroken

What Really Matters Anymore?
Feb 13, 2022
232
Most of my time alone since age 12. Most = 96-98%.
 
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-Link-

Deep Breaths
Aug 25, 2018
566
Yes, definitely. It's been like this for me for such a long time, it barely registers with me anymore that it's not normal.

I'd probably have a difficult time going back to being around other people for much length of time.
 
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mrpeter

mrpeter

Specialist
Jun 11, 2024
325
either alone or with family
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Angelic
Jul 29, 2021
4,660
I do. I eat alone, go to the store alone, go for walks alone, live alone, go out to a bar by myself, i have no friends. Being around people is already too exhausting, let alone actually engaging in conversation.
 
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SpeckofDust

Member
Jul 16, 2024
25
Totally alone 98% of the time since about March of this year. I am suffering, as usual, from treatment resistant major depression, and I have nearly zero energy or interest. I go weeks at a time without talking to anyone except employees at the drive thru. I suppose it's best this way as I have very little time left.
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
842
Yup. Always a solitary person. I have hobbies etc but my hobbies are solitary as well. 🌹💔
 
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Chr0nicAnhedonic

Chr0nicAnhedonic

So much for stardust...
Oct 1, 2023
71
I live alone, I work a job where I'm alone 85% of the time, and I have very solitary hobbies. The loneliness has been eating away at me lately, but I remember why I chose to seclude myself after spending any time with my family or "friends".
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
290
I don't have a job so I'm in my apartment alone most of the time, except when I go to the grocery store or go out with friends around once a week
 
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nbk4755

nbk4755

Member
Nov 4, 2023
15
I can't really bear to be around others. Not a sense of disgust or anxiety but just the view that I don't really have any need for them or the social game they play, and the expectation that i'll participate in 'being human' just makes me some sort of disruption upon them, leading to me resenting other people. I would probably live as a total shut-in if it wasn't so difficult to.
 
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CatLvr

Wizard
Aug 1, 2024
686
I'm not good with people. They exhaust me. Even going to the store and picking up groceries once every couple of weeks wears me out. So, yeah, I spend the vast majority of my time alone.

The husband doesn't count. He still works so he's not here all the time, thank God. I know it sounds like I don't love him but that's not true. I have been single more of my adult life than I have been in a relationship. Even though we've been together a long time now sometimes I still catch myself wondering why I got married because I can hardly breathe when he is here. He is not the problem. I am.
 
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AbsurdAbyss

AbsurdAbyss

Lost, broken, empty, fragmented.
Mar 4, 2024
113
always alone and sick to death of everything.
 
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lnlybnny

Mage
Jan 25, 2024
511
I'm alone 98% of the time and I prefer it that way. I only leave the house if I absolutely have to. I'm used to it and I don't know how I'll survive because you need to engage with people to do so. So that's one of the reasons to ctb/why I'm neet/hiki. I don't want to struggle among people to survive. I love being by myself doing my idiosyncratic stuff. Sometimes I get so bored when someone says they're coming over. I generally get extremely bored if I have to interact with ordinary people.
 
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Sarros

Sarros

Student
Sep 2, 2021
112
As of right now, I'm alone maybe 50% of the time. When I'm at work I'm with other people almost the whole time; it's not something I can do by myself due to its nature but at the same time, it doesn't really engage me with other people on a personal level (because its work) so it feels very lonesome.

Then, when I'm off work I try to surround myself with friends with my hobby and then maybe get something to eat after.

I can't stand being alone. I don't enjoy my own company, my own thoughts, and I yearn for the comfort of another's touch. I'm too timid to ask my friends to spend time with me outside of our normal hangouts and they don't satisfy that need for touch regardless. Sometimes I will, out of desperation, hire people to cuddle with me.
 
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Aloneandinpain

Experienced
Dec 25, 2023
232
At most I meet one of my "friends" once per year. Even then it can be quite a short meeting.

I do have a few family members left
 
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sorrowful

sorrowful

My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
284
Practically always alone. I don't go outside, and my interactions with others are very limited. I had someone that I would spend all of my time with but he killed himself a little over a month ago.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,586
Yes. Live alone, work alone. Don't socialise. Rarely leave the house.
 
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ThatGuyOverThere

ThatGuyOverThere

David Benatar Enjoyer
Apr 25, 2024
143
I love isolation, I only find any real tangible form of comfort in my own company, I don't have the societal burden to act as others expect me to or believe as they expect me to. Isolation is freeing, freedom from human failures, and selfishness. Ever since freeing myself from the world, becoming a hermit if you will. I have lost all my friends, that I spend years bending myself to fit an ideal that I wasn't, all so that I could meet my social requirements. Though now I'm free from that, I don't have to pretend to like others. Ever since then I have spent most of the last few years of my life, avoiding any kind of interaction keeping my head down, and tying to continue on with things until, I reach my inevitable destination.
 
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genoke

genoke

Member
Aug 13, 2024
78
I love isolation, I only find any real tangible form of comfort in my own company, I don't have the societal burden to act as others expect me to or believe as they expect me to. Isolation is freeing, freedom from human failures, and selfishness. Ever since freeing myself from the world, becoming a hermit if you will. I have lost all my friends, that I spend years bending myself to fit an ideal that I wasn't, all so that I could meet my social requirements. Though now I'm free from that, I don't have to pretend to like others. Ever since then I have spent most of the last few years of my life, avoiding any kind of interaction keeping my head down, and tying to continue on with things until, I reach my inevitable destination.
You're not describing isolation. That's solutide. Isolation will destroy your prefrontal cortex and is the same on your heart as smoking 3 packs a day. They live 12 years less on average.

I just read an article on the inmates in isolation in Venezuela and how it's so unbelievably torturous even Venezuela can barely find guards who can handle the job. And the guards have to be reminded every day there the worst of the worst or they'll help them.

Anyone else ever isolate themselves to the point you don't miss others anymore, you miss yourself? Or you're such a tired insomniac so not used to talking your vocal cords become so weak you have to hold your throat to speak.
 
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syde44

Member
Sep 3, 2024
77
I'm always alone, always and i know what it mean
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
797
I spend about 1.5-2.5 hours in the same room as and/or talking to my family per day in an average week. Assuming I'm awake 14-16 hours, that's about 10-15% of my day, so in an average week I'm alone 85-90% of the time.
 
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AnonThinker

AnonThinker

Member
May 7, 2024
55
I rent a room in a house and I'm always alone in my room at home. Now and then I go to the pub (About once a week) and do the social thing, though I've also been known to just sit and read my book. The only reason to go outside is to drive my car so the battery doesn't die. I just had that replaced a couple of months ago.
 
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LittleBit

LittleBit

Member
Aug 26, 2024
19
I live alone, unemployed, in a city i moved to a year ago, no friends. I go out of my apartment about once or twice a week. Planning to ctb this month.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
797
I can't really bear to be around others. Not a sense of disgust or anxiety but just the view that I don't really have any need for them or the social game they play, and the expectation that i'll participate in 'being human' just makes me some sort of disruption upon them, leading to me resenting other people. I would probably live as a total shut-in if it wasn't so difficult to.
Yeah I get that. I kinda resent other people being in the way of the world I'd like to live in. Mostly, like- I'll go on walks at night and there's cars, light pollution, etc. I wish they weren't there so I could just wander in silence and not feel any lingering need to act like a person and talk and etc.
 
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sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

Arcanist
Dec 14, 2023
463
Yes, since September 1st 2021 when I got my first apartment. Before then I was constantly surrounded by people, which began to take a toll on me after a few years into adulthood. I usually don't feel very alone though, there's more or less always someone who wants my attention, sometimes it's nice, sometimes it's just stressful. On Wednesdays (SaSU doesn't count lol) and Saturdays I make an effort to not talk to anyone at all, which has been a lifesaver more than once.
 
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Ironborn

Ironborn

Specialist
Jan 29, 2024
390
I know it's probably made my mental health worse but being around people takes so much effort, I have to act completely differently to when I am alone and after all these years of doing it it has just sucked me dry spiritually.
 
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Tenebrion

Tenebrion

Member
Sep 2, 2024
11
Not just most, 100% of the time.
I live alone and the only time I leave home is to go to the pharmacy to collect my meds (about 5 minute walk). I don't work, have no friends or family anymore and I get all my food delivered. The only social interactions I have now are with the pharmacist (a brief "hello") and maybe a few words with the delivery driver. I don't even have online "friends" so that is it. Every single day the same as the previous one, on and on and on. It's tough.
 
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