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V0latile

And God decreed, “Coronavirus spread forth!”
Sep 24, 2019
234
I don't have kids or a spouse by the way.

I want to alienate them because then I can die without leaving a note. I'll destroy my hard drives, wipe my phone, toss my wallet in a trash can near my destination. I would get to disappear and no guilt.
 
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tehdisturbedone

tehdisturbedone

Innately yearning for eternal sleep
Oct 24, 2019
42
I don't have kids or a spouse by the way.

I want to alienate them because then I can die without leaving a note. I'll destroy my hard drives, wipe my phone, toss my wallet in a trash can near my destination. I would get to disappear and no guilt.
I do and sometimes I want to leave like a weird paper trail that dictates all the ways I fucked up in the head,
 
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talktomeplease

talktomeplease

not someone to talk to anymore.
Oct 26, 2019
7
Hey bud do you want to talk about it, if so just hit me up. I'm here for people to talk to if you want to hit me up just do it whenever.
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
837
I'd want to disappear into the woods or have a happy accident.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I wish I had a family, friends, or spouse. Nobody to alienate.
 
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Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
1,938
I wish I had a family, friends, or spouse. Nobody to alienate.

If it's any consolation, you won't have anyone to hurt because a suicide (especially for young people) can be very damaging for the family.

No, I won't alienate them because I feel that'd hurt them more. I'm going to leave several notes with different tones.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
If it's any consolation, you won't have anyone to hurt because a suicide (especially for young people) can be very damaging for the family.

No, I won't alienate them because I feel that'd hurt them more. I'm going to leave several notes with different tones.
And nobody to remember me. It will be like my life didn't matter. I look at grieving as a good thing. It meant your life mattered and you actually had people in your life who cared... and noticed you were gone.
 
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trynacbt

trynacbt

Arcanist
Sep 28, 2019
476
And nobody to remember me. It will be like my life didn't matter. I look at grieving as a good thing. It meant your life mattered and you actually had people in your life who cared... and noticed you were gone.

I'm sure many here will grieve for you, Jean. You've been a very active and supportive member of SS.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I'm sure many here will grieve for you, Jean. You've been a very active and supportive member of SS.
Which is why I here. First time in my life people actually know I exist :)
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,781
I don't have kids or a spouse by the way.

I want to alienate them because then I can die without leaving a note. I'll destroy my hard drives, wipe my phone, toss my wallet in a trash can near my destination. I would get to disappear and no guilt.


did that decades ago. but, yeah, being able to leave w/o having to deal with all that extra baggage is a small gift.
 
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,621
Planning? Already have
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,781
sometimes I want to leave like a weird paper trail that dictates all the ways I fucked up in the head,

i realize this probably wasn't intended to be funny, but it made me laugh anyway. thanks for that.
 
tehdisturbedone

tehdisturbedone

Innately yearning for eternal sleep
Oct 24, 2019
42
For me this parts already easy though, I probably say maybe a paragraph a week to my dad, and sisters. I only complain to my mom when I talk to her and i don't really talk to anyone outside my immediate family.
 
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Astral316

Astral316

Specialist
Aug 26, 2019
332
Even better... my family alienated me. I'd feel pretentious leaving a note, anyway.
 
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PhuckLife

Life is a stage, but I'm not acting...
Jul 20, 2023
5
Atleast my family... a bunch of proud self righteous Caribbeans..I would definitely alienate them. Feed them the same food that poisoned me. Pretend to care, just enough to see let them know something is coming, then disappear and let the shame and guilt of not taking you serious enough eat their conscious alive if they have a conscious. My family doesn't. I was homeless due to cancel culture as a content creator, my family ate thanksgiving and Christmas dinners in the state I was homeless in and couldn't care less to come look for me. I haven't had a holiday dinner with my family in Five years. Families that don't prioritize each other or relationships or the well being of it's members deserve to lose that, so the guilt of loss will teach them, to respect family over bullshit distractions in reality or selfish money motives. Fuck "family".. your TRUE family are the people who relate to you, who support you, who try to understand you and even take an interest in you however big or small. Blood family is bullshit and people are conceited and take you for granted!
 
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suicidaleeyore

Member
Jun 30, 2023
58
I have an incredibly loving and supportive family which I've always been so thankful and they have been my main protective factor but I'm at the point now where I wish they'd give up on me and kick me out and hate me so it's easier for both sides when I die