Ambivalent1
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- Apr 17, 2023
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I don't see the point in going to museums or the park or for walks. So pointless. I have anhedonia so it's doubly pointless, especially when you're doing everything alone.
What do you do at home?I don't go out a lot, only for the necessary things, mainly buying food and things like that.
I have no social anxiety and the like, I'd like to travel, go out and do other things but I do not have the financial means to take part in that kind of "social life" anymore.
So I'm kinda forced to stay at home.
Nothing much. Spending time on SS, Discord, utube, eating, drinking ... Hoping for a wonder to happen ...What do you do at home?
HibernatingI am in total hibernation.
The last time I was out of my house was Christmas Day.
I only like to do chores when I'm home alone too! I just hate being watched... I know it's my mental illness, but I misconstrue anyone in the vicinity who happens to look at me as staring, and I fucking hate being stared at. It's unhelpful.or to try to help with chores when no one's home
RIGHT, I feel the same exact way!!! I hate having eyes on me, I feel like I'm being stared at whenever someone's around as well :'<I only like to do chores when I'm home alone too! I just hate being watched... I know it's my mental illness, but I misconstrue anyone in the vicinity who happens to look at me as staring, and I fucking hate being stared at. It's unhelpful.
Awh that's awesome I love nature too if I was in an area where I could be around nature without being around people I would definitely do that. If I live long enough I really want to move to countryside somewhere in Southern Japan. Do you ever read/draw/do other things while sitting in nature if it's okay to ask?I go out very often but I'm all alone. I like nature and spend time. It's peaceful and that is actually good to get away from other humans and forget about the world.
How about being complained about? Apartment neighbors do that and I hate it.I only like to do chores when I'm home alone too! I just hate being watched... I know it's my mental illness, but I misconstrue anyone in the vicinity who happens to look at me as staring, and I fucking hate being stared at. It's unhelpful.
Luckily I'm back at home so I don't have to worry about it much, but when I live in apartments I'm so afraid to make noise- I don't really get complaints as far as I know.How about being complained about? Apartment neighbors do that and I hate it.
Same fear. It sucks. Especially when they say they don't mind but you can hear them complain through the wall. Fucking liarsLuckily I'm back at home so I don't have to worry about it much, but when I live in apartments I'm so afraid to make noise- I don't really get complaints as far as I know.
That's a good question. My problems are following me everywhere, I can't relax or "forget" about them when I do other activities. What's the point then?How come it's so common for us to only leave when necessary and to feel it's a waste to walk around aimlessly at the park?
Makes sense. Going to the park means having to go there, wonder why I'm there, suffer from my problems, and be bored.That's a good question. My problems are following me everywhere, I can't relax or "forget" about them when I do other activities. What's the point then?
Sure, when there're only the regular / average problems the majority has it's easy to "forget" about them when doing other activities but not when they are too big, too severe, too unsolvable.
I used to just find an excuse to go out, I'd walk like 3 miles just to get a drink or something simple, then moved and unfortunately in a place that doesn't have many paths, and I don't know my way round or anyone to show so I'm kinda stuck- but wasn't a fan of ppl always looking , makes u question how ones walks lol, I could walk for hour and literally avoid everyone…but thank heavens for interactive fitness I can go skiing, running, from comfort of barn. So till I move whether to place with my partner or a diff realm, I'm stuck in a virtual world….yay to bein introvert and neurodivergent