Sometimes I can be nervous. My job only requires me to interact with one person right now, but as long as I'm there, I'm also responsible for their life lol. I would rather stay in bed, too, but I am in the middle of a depressive episode. Normally, I'm less nervous and just kind of annoyed when I have to go in. I have to put on a fake persona and keep someone entertained, happy and safe for eight-sixteen hours, and by the end of the day, I'm very exhausted by it all even though I'm not really doing much at all by comparison to some other jobs. I'm noticing myself shutting down too, but I try not to. I generally care for my clients and that's the only thing keeping me going, but damn, am I starting to hate the job in general. Not the best mood for a person in my field to be in, so I hope I can get into another position soon. Seems time is just up for me, with this one.
I hope your days get easier to start one day soon. I know it can suck having to be social for your job when you're not really feeling happy, or present, or social… or much like a human at all, in my case, haha.
