Anyone else not want anything out of life?

[Ambivalent1]

I was at a place in public yesterday. I normally don't go out and stay in one spot for long. While I was out, I realized there isn't anything I want to do like ever.

 

[Hollowman]

I haven't wanted anything for years. I'm just holding on for one last family member.

 

[day]

I want to feel like I made an impact. Not a big one just to those around me, it doesn't even have to be good just some sort of lesson or like example that we don't all think alike. Feel like my family is brainwashed into only accepting the norm and to me it's pathetic. CTB seems like something that could open their eyes a bit (not that thats the only reason I want to) but at times I feel they're too dense to even think differently if I did.

 

[FailerQt.]

I only wanted one thing from life, but that is no longer obtainable for me which leaves me with 0.

 

[12_Years_Late]

I have never wanted to do anything but lay in bed. No sporting events, book readings, nothing. Have never cared for games, playgrounds, fairs, television programs, or even eating & drinking.

Moreover, I will never listen to a single lyric of any of the modern "songs" or anything outside of 1932-35. There are less than five things in the entire world that I like. That just shows you how little I care about this world.

 

[90starve]

yes - i completely and utterly lack ambition, even in the slightest amount. i don't even have the desire to eat food anymore which is getting harder to hide from peers, and achieving anything in life is just a massive chore.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course, I only wish for nothingness personally. Existing could never be desirable or appealing, it's just dreadful, pointless and unnecessary, having the ability to exist is such a terrible burden, I could never wish to age and deteriorate in a world filled with endless suffering.

I've always wished to not exist in my case, not existing forever certainly is the only relief for me, it comforts me the thought of everything finally being forgotten about. Existing is just waiting around to die anyway, it's just meaningless suffering, to me existence could never be worth enduring, it's what I see as being the true problem.

 

[Fktw0rld]

I can relate. Absolutely nothing seems worth reaching for, acquiring, accomplishing or even living for anymore. Nothing is fulfilling. My life has become solely about finding distractions until the bus arrives.

 

[PinkyStat]

Same, i dont know if i want to have something else, it just feels like it won't make a difference to me even though i fought for it, or maybe im just to tired to even try to think about achieving something

 

[hopelessgirl]

Yes

 

[hellispink]

I feel the same way

 

[Sweet Tart]

I can relate. Absolutely nothing seems worth reaching for, acquiring, accomplishing or even living for anymore. Nothing is fulfilling. My life has become solely about finding distractions until the bus arrives.

Me too. I'm old enough to have tried multiple times to attain meaningful things and have a purpose to live. Love didn't work out. Careers didn't work out. So much disappointment in people in my life and humanity in general. The energy for that effort is gone now. Ofc there are still unknown things that could change my perspective... and if anything does, that's great but definitely not something I anticipate or hope for. Meanwhile, I do the minimum to care for this body and distract the mind when possible.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

What i want is unattainable. At best i can cope.