Anyone else not care about how their death will affect those they know?

[antinatalist123]

I don't think about it. I have had enough existing for others.

 

[Cant Maintain]

I hope my family has a life insurance policy on me so they can get absolutely fucking nothing lol
I used to care about how my friends would feel...but...like...I'm at the point where this is starting to feel like a trip to disneyland or something as a kid and I'm just to excited to care anymore, they'll have a note, and they'll move on in time. Some might follow, though I'd prefer them not to, but fuck it's their choice.

 

[mathieu]

I don't care. They will be fine.

 

[dilapidatedMind]

I don't think about it. I have had enough existing for others.

I've lived 10 yrs longer than I should've because of that.

 

[pika8787]

No it will be a relief for everyone. I've slowly detached myself from everyone. I guess it will be hard for a few months but after everything is going to be back to normal. I have to wait to ctb because of fkn coronavirus. Can't be alone in my house for more than an hour. I want to hang myself.

 

[ecmnesia]

it's weird. if I am away, which I am most of the year when we are not living through a pandemy, I don't give a shit, in fact, when I'm a far my hatred towards them flourishes.

when I am close to them tho, all of the trauma and fucked up things they did to me are repressed and suddenly I feel empathy and it concerns me who they will handle it.

basically, idk and can't understand.

 

[Lost1804]

I think I'd only kind of care about how my mom would react but there's nothing she could do to prevent it and I hope she would realize that.

A note would help her a lot to understand that. Xx

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

A note would help her a lot to understand that. Xx

You're right lol.

I hope whenever I do write a note that it's readable though. I have a tendency to make Loooong posts when I write.

 

[Shades of Grey]

I worry a lot about the impact my death will have on my mom (I suspect others won't be terribly impacted), but I can't continue living for others.

At this point, I am staying alive for a geriatric cat whose time here is coming to an end. His appetite has finally started to decrease. I know where we're headed.

I started the note I'll be leaving for first responders today. Next of kin, aftercare wishes, disclosure of method and intent (which may not be readily apparent). I also want others to know that my cat was euthanized because it was HIS time, not because it was mine. I am ready.

 

[Hotsackage]

I care but my brain needs to be put down

 

[GoneGoneGone]

Yes, do not care at all

 

[OnlyTheWind]

If I can't be happy, there is no reason why I should care how those I leave behind will feel.

 

[MariV]

I wish!

 

[BridgeJumper]

I have long ceased to give a fuck, and even went out of my way to choose a violent method.
Whats worse, knowing your death will hurt people that care about you, or knowing it wont hurt anyone, because youre an object to use and make fun of?
Years of mental and physical abuse eventually do that to you I guess

 

[Neilg1972]

Yes, I don't care how my family reacts, I don't think they'll be too sad cause im doing something good for them. I don't have any friends, so no need to worry about them. Im hoping to meet an old friend of mine if there is something like an afterlife, if not i can just sleep forever and everyone will forget me soon enough.

Totally get what your saying here I think my Mum will be sad but by dying I would be un burdening her as she would then be free to go and and live near my sister which my sister has wanted since my Dad passed as for my two daughters they only want me in their lives for the things they want or for lifts there doesnt seem to be any bond in a real sense .I think they would be initially upset but not for too long my ex wife and her mum will be over the moon .My older sister hates me and my brother doesn't have much to do with us .So all good to go really.
I think I'd only kind of care about how my mom would react but there's nothing she could do to prevent it and I hope she
I wish it wouldnt affect my family, I really do.

 

[greebo6]

No ,not really. Or at least not enough to stop me.
But if I had pets I loved that would make my decision harder.

 

[Nigh]

I do, but at the same time I feel - no I know, that I don't have a choice.

 

[somewherebeyond]

I know that my death would ruin my sisters life. I feel guilty but I don't know if I can hold on much longer

 

[I want to end it]

I have cared for a long time (hence my join date 2 and a half years ago) but I've reached a point where I have to do it when I get a good opportunity. So now I don't care.

 

[bornintoagrave]

I was just about to post on this.

I hate that I'll never know how all the former friends and partners who've turned on me and completely shut me out will react. I get sick thinking about how a good deal of them will just completely milk it for their benefit and either actually feel sad or pretend to be sad even though they've hurt me so much while I was here. I always try to reconcile and it's a virtue that I'm proud of. I've reached out to a lot of people in the past couple years, and they've all turned their backs on me, which makes me feel like I must be a horrible person or just really boring. I don't get it. I don't think I'm either. I have my faults, but overall I'm not terrible. I have attracted a lot of narcissistic people over the years though, so it's almost a given that it will happen. That alone almost makes me want to stay just so they can't have that from me.

Never had much of a family. I can't imagine it would bother any of them too much, to be honest.

 

[yabadabadoo]

onece you go, the universe ceases to be and hence it really would not matter what is the case with other beings.

 

[StuFin]

onece you go, the universe ceases to be and hence it really would not matter what is the case with other beings.

This is how I'm trying to think of it. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I can't continue on feeling like this.

 

[Moondust87]

I only care about how my children would react and a guy in dating because he has depression as well. I want my kids to move on and grow up with happy lives. I want him to be ok and not ctb bc i did but if he did then for his own reasons

 

[Deleted member 23586]

Whats sad to me is that most of the people I'd care about are on this forum lol. Definitely my brother...and mayyyybeee my sister. Oh and my cat. Ok thats alot of people. hmm.....Let me get back to you. lol But my brother is the only thing keeping me here rn. I'm afraid that, that will only last so long if something doesnt give tho. But he's why i'm still here.

 

[Frauw]

Yes, but progressively less and less as the days go on.

 

[Gerard de Nerval]

When it comes to family, I am quite apathetic. I haven't talked to them for more than a year and any notion of them being hurt would be false. They didn't know me at all, and never made a faithful attempt in doing so.

However I have a few friends that have been closer than any family could. They would be devastated, but I think they would understand why, as any notion of love is pervaded by death. I know that love could not grace us without death, I think it's impossible to love without finitude, as it tries to transcend finitude. But, for me, this notion of finitude and death is so explicit that I can no longer make the attempt to express it anymore. It's too painful.

 

[12345678]

The only thing that is stopping me is actually my family. They have just given me unconditionally love. I so so regret to come in their life and now I if go they would be shattered to the core. Is there any way I can atleast make them understand that I am moving to a happy place

 

[elfin]

i do care, but i know that they'll all help each other through it and be okay. i'm already a disappointment, i've already hurt people, i don't think this is going to have a huge impact to be honest.

 

[CrossroadsCurious]

Once you're dead, who cares! Worrying about how your ctb will affect others is just another form of SI kicking in to stop you. So don't waste a single second on others when it comes to your plans or date! If you honestly believe ctb is your choice and no one elses then you need to be a selfish bastard and stop thinking of others and do whatever you need to do for you!

 

[hatedanddestroyed]

I don't care about the ex wives. I'm still in love with one but she left me. Her pain, if any, is on her own head. The first ex I couldn't care less. The children I love the most but Fathers do not matter where I'm from unless it's money ( never get to see them because of the ex's). Parents are self absorbed pricks so no pain there. No one cares at all.