Anyone else neurotic

[rabbithole]

And feel their neuroticism makes ctb difficult?

I'm attached to every small thing from my old life in an over emotional way, but in the life im living now I am numb to everything. If I try to ctb I'm going to think about all the things I'll miss even though I'm in a situation now where I enjoy nothing except sleep. I'm in emotional torment all day. I want to ctb so bad though. And I will soon. Anyone relate to this? Has anyone's life changed over night in a traumatic way also?

I wish I had a close friend who could hold my hand while I ctb. Why do we let dogs die peacefully but not humans...

 

[WornOutLife]

Yes, it makes it more difficult but in the end, you won't probably care about the things you'll leave behind simply because you won't exist anymore and if there's some kind of afterlife, I bet it's better than this hell.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

I'd be stunned if there was someone here who wasn't neurotic/overthinking ctb.

 

[rabbithole]

I'd be stunned if there was someone here who wasn't neurotic/overthinking ctb.

Good point.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

Yes op this sooo much and I think too much about everything when I know I should just be diving into the void!!