Anyone else love themselves but hate society/other people?

[Busticket]

I love myself.
I truly do.
I am a kind, moral, good hearted guy.
It's just that I was always shy and never good socially with people.
And people have always treated me badly, laughing and bullying me.
People are so judgemental too.
And society and other people try to tell me that I am the problem.
No, I think other people are the problem.
If everyone were kind, and non judgemental many of us here wouldn't be suicidal.

 

[Beachedwhale]

Are you absolutely sure you love yourself? Really go deep there.

 

[Busticket]

Are you absolutely sure you love yourself? Really go deep there.

Yes I am.

 

[meetapple]

I don't know whether I love myself but I hate other people.

 

[newave3]

I think I have more of a love/hate relationship with myself. I admit I'm not the nicest guy in the world. I just try to treat others the way I want to be treated. If you are nasty towards me you better watch the fuck out though. I will be twice as nasty back at you. I'm no tough guy but I don't want to be disrespected. Nobody does.

 

[Buffy5120]

I love myself.
I truly do.
I am a kind, moral, good hearted guy.
It's just that I was always shy and never good socially with people.
And people have always treated me badly, laughing and bullying me.
People are so judgemental too.
And society and other people try to tell me that I am the problem.
No, I think other people are the problem.
If everyone were kind, and non judgemental many of us here wouldn't be suicidal.

Yup we are very similar. I have cptsd from years of abuse that your describing and now spiraling into more mental issues. I feel like my brain is breaking.

 

[Garbage Person]

I'm indifferent to myself. I'm far too emotionally tired to hate on society full time, but I still have my days where I feel the rage. It's an undeniable cesspool of deranged neanderthals out there that put the seven sins on the highest pedestal. It's for the best that I stay inside and peacefully focus on myself. The alternative is pacing my house and fantasizing about building a militia of misifts to forcefully cut them all down. I'd hate to end up just another prisoner with a story that gets used to push whatever agenda is convenient at the time. I can use anger to get things done, but the hatred would just be a slippery slope into complete insanity, with malice and vitriol only rivaled by those said deranged neanderthals.

 

[Pookie]

I carry a lot of self-hatred and I'm pretty sure this is one of the many reasons that has caused me to engage in a variety of self-sabotaging behaviours. I think it may stem from the type of environment I grew up in.

Even though I hate our society, I don't blame society for all of my problems, although society too may have contributed to or exaggerated my mental health issues.

 

[Taki]

A firm No to that question.

 

[BlankUser]

I don't love myself. Bad people, bad environment, bad circumstances traumatized me, my mental illness tortures me for more than 16 years... I became someone I'm not proud of. I'm messed up since my childhood. And I hate society and most people.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wouldn't say I love myself or really hate myself but this life has caused me lots of pain. That is what I dislike, existence. I was never meant for this life. The majority of the negative things that have happened to me have been out of my control. Other people are capable of causing us so much pain.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I wouldn't say I love myself but I don't hate society or other people either. Sure some people are ignorant but it's also so easy to ignore them. I can't control other people's actions, only how I feel about their actions. Even if I didn't meet the people that caused me the most pain/hurt, I can't be sure there still wouldn't be the urge to CTB. In the end, it's all in my head and I'll probably never be able to escape it.

 

[Largeletters]

I'm glad you love yourself... you truly deserve it. I hate both, myself and society/other people, but in different ways. Fuck other people. I'm sorry you've been treated so badly.

 

[ImLosingMyGrip]

I love myself.
I truly do.
I am a kind, moral, good hearted guy.
It's just that I was always shy and never good socially with people.
And people have always treated me badly, laughing and bullying me.
People are so judgemental too.
And society and other people try to tell me that I am the problem.
No, I think other people are the problem.
If everyone were kind, and non judgemental many of us here wouldn't be suicidal.

You stand strong in that. You are not the problem. A lack of willingness to understand is the problem.

 

[Itsallover123]

Other people are the reason why I hate my existence so idk but if everyone else in the world was a clone of me I don't think I'd hate anyone

 

[Suicidebydeath]

We don't get to choose the conditions we're born with, but we still get blamed for them. If someone is continually damaged eventually they break or the damage resurfaces later, but many people are quick to harm others. Heart can be in the right place, but the body and mind are imperfect.

If only people were more understanding.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I find other people to be quite understanding -of me anyway.
However, I am severely damaged. I am broken. I've been trying to get myself fixed for many years through therapy and anti-depressants etc. I've tried. It hasn't worked. That's why I'm here. If by the age of 50-something you haven't gotten things figured out, it's probably not gonna happen.

 

[Bleak]

I generally like people from a distance. But I hate how I feel and come across when I interact with them, which leads to me hating myself.

 

[EDMisgood]

people just keep on leaving, and I can't do anything about it, but i love myself no matter what