Anyone else live vicariously through ppl who have succesfully ctb?

[Inevitable]

Watching bud Dwyer video with envy that he had the guts to do it. Seeing headlines of death and thinking lucky them. Looking up pics ofbodies who ctb with the method u chose to see what you'll look like.

 

[TAW122]

Yes, I have and yes Budd Dwyer does give me hope in my method, which is a barrel in the mouth (but instead of a pistol, it would be a long gun, a shotgun to be exact). Also, I have seen other suicides via firearm. A few examples include the guy who CTB'ed in an interrogation room when the cops and detectives walked out of the room for a moment (he hid his pistol really well or either the detaining officers failed to thoroughly check his pockets), and another one who hugged his ex-girlfriend and after his ex went up the elevator, he pulled out a pistol and offed himself. There are more but these are a few to name.

 

[Kyrok]

Don't you mean die vicariously through ppl who have ctb?