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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
707
almost everything we do is just to prevent suffering and if we dont do it we suffer.

-you have to eat but just the right amount and the right things.
-you have to poop , which is disgusting and annoying or your tummy hurts and you get sicks but it smells bad.
-you have to piss
-you have sexual organs , sperm is disgusting . you can have wet dreams and make a mess.
-you have to brush your teeth and floss and mouthwash or you end up with tooth decay and bad pain
-you have to sleep or else you get tired and then you cant function properly the next day.
-you have to keep your mind engaged or you get bored
-you have to interact with people on some levels or you get lonely and depressed.
-you have to exercise or you get unhealthy and sickly but just the right exercises.
-you have to work or you starve and die.
-theres so many random diseases and illness
-people can ruin your life.
-you can have a body that makes you dysphoric.
-you can lose your parents.

theres many other factors.
the human body is never content , its like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill, you may alleviate one symptom of this useless human body but then something else will start to gnaw at you.

life is a persistent struggle to alleviate and prevent suffering and doing damage control.

fuck this curse.
 
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Altvtysp

Altvtysp

Member
Nov 5, 2022
96
Yes the entire process of life is exhausting and pretty disgusting. Those who don't understand why we are suicidal are not understood by us either for their reverence to this nonsensical existence.
 
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SectOfValtiel

SectOfValtiel

Attendant of God
Nov 7, 2022
217
Thats something Ive been struggling with a lot, personally

The self-grooming wasnt something I learned as a kid because my parents either didnt enforce it, didnt care, or werent around to do either, so in my adult life its been a struggle just to get to a point where I feel like a 'normal' functioning human being, that and I lack resources to really fully maintain myself
Wasnt even that long ago I was pushing hard to try to get there, putting every ounce of energy I had into bettering myself, physically and mentally
In the end, though, all I really did was lose that energy, and now Im not sure Im physically or mentally able to put in that effort again

It boggles my mind people can maintain all these things at once and still function, it feels like I have to be high or manic just to get a simple task done
And what are you even supposed to do about it when your default state is to suffer regardless of if all those little things are maintained?

Its kinda funny, we as a species built all these things to reduce that suffering, but I think this website itself is proof it didnt really work
Everything we created came with more suffering despite the intentions and things just stagnated that way
And where there isnt suffering already, its almost like we will it into existence
Maybe suffering *is* our purpose

And that really would be a curse, huh
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,140
So true. Most of the day to day maintenance is just aggrevating until some disease comes along to show you just how bad things can get.

On top of all the biological crap, you also need to do a job you probably hate to pay money into a another life support system that is society in order to buy the crap you eat and drink and heat/ cool your environment to a liveable temperature.

To put a two penneth in for the ladies out there, you also get clobbered with menstruation each month (if not more- depending on your cycle) which is also utterly disgusting, painful and mentally rubbish, followed by the menopause. Which will have been all for absolutely nothing if you don't have children. I really wish I'd been given the option not to have a womb.
 
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Altvtysp

Altvtysp

Member
Nov 5, 2022
96
So true. Most of the day to day maintenance is just aggrevating until some disease comes along to show you just how bad things can get.

On top of all the biological crap, you also need to do a job you probably hate to pay money into a another life support system that is society in order to buy the crap you eat and drink and heat/ cool your environment to a liveable temperature.

To put a two penneth in for the ladies out there, you also get clobbered with menstruation each month (if not more- depending on your cycle) which is also utterly disgusting, painful and mentally rubbish, followed by the menopause. Which will have been all for absolutely nothing if you don't have children. I really wish I'd been given the option not to have a womb.
I'm grateful every single day I'm a man for not having a vagina and the all that entails. I'm also grateful every single day that I'm gay and cannot get someone pregnant because I would never want to bring kids this insane world. I wouldn't have been able to deal with either of these things.
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
707
I'm grateful every single day I'm a man for not having a vagina and the all that entails.
yeah not to disregard this but i hate being a man with a micropenis, its a constant stress to worry about the size of my penis. Especially society seems to place a mans entire worth on penis size. " small dick energy' " oh you mad? you must have a small dick! " " that guy has a big dick!"
 
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Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,574
yeah true that life is mundane
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,338
To me life really is pointless, awful and tedious. Being trapped in this human body is prison like, the human body is designed in a way in which to torture people and cause suffering to be experienced. Us humans have to pay the price because of the decisions of others to selfishly procreate, it's like we are punished for someone else's crime.

Life is a process which is focused on fulfilling endless needs and desires, that's all it is, and I've never wanted anything to do with this life and could never do. No words can describe my dislike of life, I'm disgusted by life and all the extreme suffering that it allows and I'm beyond tired of it all. The reality is that there is nothing to be gained from being alive, it's an useless unnecessary concept. The existence of life will always be a mistake and of course it's irrational to want to stay here where all that we have to look forward to is the eventual deterioration from old age. As humans we are destined to suffer and then just die.
You are right that life is a curse.
 
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jodes2

jodes2

Hello people ❤️
Aug 28, 2022
7,736
I'm never content. Nothing fixes it. But then add chores on top and life is just suffering. Chores chores chores.
 
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Nirrend

The important is not how long you live ...
Mar 12, 2022
400
almost everything we do is just to prevent suffering and if we dont do it we suffer.

-you have to eat but just the right amount and the right things.
-you have to poop , which is disgusting and annoying or your tummy hurts and you get sicks but it smells bad.
-you have to piss
-you have sexual organs , sperm is disgusting . you can have wet dreams and make a mess.
-you have to brush your teeth and floss and mouthwash or you end up with tooth decay and bad pain
-you have to sleep or else you get tired and then you cant function properly the next day.
-you have to keep your mind engaged or you get bored
-you have to interact with people on some levels or you get lonely and depressed.
-you have to exercise or you get unhealthy and sickly but just the right exercises.
-you have to work or you starve and die.
-theres so many random diseases and illness
-people can ruin your life.
-you can have a body that makes you dysphoric.
-you can lose your parents.

theres many other factors.
the human body is never content , its like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill, you may alleviate one symptom of this useless human body but then something else will start to gnaw at you.

life is a persistent struggle to alleviate and prevent suffering and doing damage control.

fuck this curse.

I feel also like it's awful and exhausting. Eating and taking a shower can really become impossible to do just because of fatigue and all the invading thoughts..

Sorry to see you suffer like this sweet @HermitLonerGuy

Hoping for you that things will get better ❤

Sending you love 😊❤❤
 
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Altvtysp

Altvtysp

Member
Nov 5, 2022
96
yeah not to disregard this but i hate being a man with a micropenis, its a constant stress to worry about the size of my penis. Especially society seems to place a mans entire worth on penis size. " small dick energy' " oh you mad? you must have a small dick! " " that guy has a big dick!"

yeah not to disregard this but i hate being a man with a micropenis, its a constant stress to worry about the size of my penis. Especially society seems to place a mans entire worth on penis size. " small dick energy' " oh you mad? you must have a small dick! " " that guy has a big dick!"
Hey friend I'm sorry that you hate this physical aspect of yourself. I've had lots of fun with guys with smaller packages. You are so much more than your dick size. Society puts fucked up unrealistic priorities on all of us. I hate society. Especially here in America it's so toxic and harmful but try to isolate (like I have been doing) and that's just as harmful if not more so.
 
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SamTam33

Warlock
Oct 9, 2022
763
I legitimately get angry at the prospect of wiping my ass and brushing my teeth (not necessarily in that order). And trying to figure out what to eat. I have to distract myself and pretend not to be sad for about 30 minutes so I can fix food and eat it.

I can't eat when I'm perpetually anxious. But I'll notice a headache coming on or I start to get shaky, and I have to shut down my brain so I can focus on preparing the food and eating it without puking.

I think about how dogs don't have to wipe their asses. How they can drink water out of the toilet and be completely fine. But our fragile asses need water to be purified first. They can gobble down uncooked meat and sleep like babies. We'd be on the way to the ER.

Most animals have a mouth full of teeth, but they don't have to brush them to maintain them. They don't need shoes to protect their feet. They don't need prostate exams and mammograms and all that other shit humans need in order to maintain themselves. We are the most inferior creatures on this planet.

High maintenance, using up all the resources, but contributing absolutely nothing to the earth in return.
 
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niiina

niiina

🌸
Aug 20, 2022
232
I just eat sometimes and go to the toilet since my depression started to get real bad I don't do absolutely anything for myself anymore I just can't. I'm disgusting, never thought I'd arrive in such a low stage.
yeah not to disregard this but i hate being a man with a micropenis, its a constant stress to worry about the size of my penis. Especially society seems to place a mans entire worth on penis size. " small dick energy' " oh you mad? you must have a small dick! " " that guy has a big dick!"
As long as you have a tongue and some fingers and know how to use (matter of training) you're fine, I'm absolutely sure I'm not the only woman who finds it
 
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Sunny-Pia

Sunny-Pia

Student
Jul 12, 2022
105
almost everything we do is just to prevent suffering and if we dont do it we suffer.

-you have to eat but just the right amount and the right things.
-you have to poop , which is disgusting and annoying or your tummy hurts and you get sicks but it smells bad.
-you have to piss
-you have sexual organs , sperm is disgusting . you can have wet dreams and make a mess.
-you have to brush your teeth and floss and mouthwash or you end up with tooth decay and bad pain
-you have to sleep or else you get tired and then you cant function properly the next day.
-you have to keep your mind engaged or you get bored
-you have to interact with people on some levels or you get lonely and depressed.
-you have to exercise or you get unhealthy and sickly but just the right exercises.
-you have to work or you starve and die.
-theres so many random diseases and illness
-people can ruin your life.
-you can have a body that makes you dysphoric.
-you can lose your parents.

theres many other factors.
the human body is never content , its like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill, you may alleviate one symptom of this useless human body but then something else will start to gnaw at you.

life is a persistent struggle to alleviate and prevent suffering and doing damage control.

fuck this curse.
I thought I was the only one who thought this way.
almost everything we do is just to prevent suffering and if we dont do it we suffer.

-you have to eat but just the right amount and the right things.
-you have to poop , which is disgusting and annoying or your tummy hurts and you get sicks but it smells bad.
-you have to piss
-you have sexual organs , sperm is disgusting . you can have wet dreams and make a mess.
-you have to brush your teeth and floss and mouthwash or you end up with tooth decay and bad pain
-you have to sleep or else you get tired and then you cant function properly the next day.
-you have to keep your mind engaged or you get bored
-you have to interact with people on some levels or you get lonely and depressed.
-you have to exercise or you get unhealthy and sickly but just the right exercises.
-you have to work or you starve and die.
-theres so many random diseases and illness
-people can ruin your life.
-you can have a body that makes you dysphoric.
-you can lose your parents.

theres many other factors.
the human body is never content , its like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill, you may alleviate one symptom of this useless human body but then something else will start to gnaw at you.

life is a persistent struggle to alleviate and prevent suffering and doing damage control.

almost everything we do is just to prevent suffering and if we dont do it we suffer.

-you have to eat but just the right amount and the right things.
-you have to poop , which is disgusting and annoying or your tummy hurts and you get sicks but it smells bad.
-you have to piss
-you have sexual organs , sperm is disgusting . you can have wet dreams and make a mess.
-you have to brush your teeth and floss and mouthwash or you end up with tooth decay and bad pain
-you have to sleep or else you get tired and then you cant function properly the next day.
-you have to keep your mind engaged or you get bored
-you have to interact with people on some levels or you get lonely and depressed.
-you have to exercise or you get unhealthy and sickly but just the right exercises.
-you have to work or you starve and die.
-theres so many random diseases and illness
-people can ruin your life.
-you can have a body that makes you dysphoric.
-you can lose your parents.

theres many other factors.
the human body is never content , its like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill, you may alleviate one symptom of this useless human body but then something else will start to gnaw at you.

life is a persistent struggle to alleviate and prevent suffering and doing damage control.

fuck this curse.

almost everything we do is just to prevent suffering and if we dont do it we suffer.

-you have to eat but just the right amount and the right things.
-you have to poop , which is disgusting and annoying or your tummy hurts and you get sicks but it smells bad.
-you have to piss
-you have sexual organs , sperm is disgusting . you can have wet dreams and make a mess.
-you have to brush your teeth and floss and mouthwash or you end up with tooth decay and bad pain
-you have to sleep or else you get tired and then you cant function properly the next day.
-you have to keep your mind engaged or you get bored
-you have to interact with people on some levels or you get lonely and depressed.
-you have to exercise or you get unhealthy and sickly but just the right exercises.
-you have to work or you starve and die.
-theres so many random diseases and illness
-people can ruin your life.
-you can have a body that makes you dysphoric.
-you can lose your parents.

theres many other factors.
the human body is never content , its like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill, you may alleviate one symptom of this useless human body but then something else will start to gnaw at you.

life is a persistent struggle to alleviate and prevent suffering and doing damage control.

fuck this curse.
I am very tired of it! I thought I was the only person to think this way. So true!
 
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Altvtysp

Altvtysp

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Nov 5, 2022
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I thought I was the only one who thought this way.





I am very tired of it! I thought I was the only person to think this way. So true!
If we're bitching about what sucks in life I'd like to make a special mention to teeth. They rot and are full of nerve endings and cost a lot of money to fix or even get ripped out. My teeth causes me as much anxiety as anything else in my life if not more so. One of the reasons I want to "go" is because I don't want to go through any more of my teeth falling apart.
 
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CatLover

CatLover

Member
Jun 3, 2018
73
I totally agree, I have a chronic illness which means even MORE maintenance every day just to be alive, medications to take (but the right amount at the right time and sometimes even then they don't work) really all the day to day nonsense just sucks all my 'spoons' or energy and there's so little left for doing anything I find interesting. I live alone and everything is such a massive effort, my very least favourite thing is changing the bed sheets, that just does me in and I have to sit down hurting for a long time afterwards. I used to have a lady who would come round and help me but I've had to cut back recently as I am struggling financially too. I get disability from the government which is meant to level the playing field and mean I can still live a normal life, the same as people who are able-bodied, but it's so little money and everything is so expensive now that it usually just ends up going on food or bills and I get stuck at home. I suppose I should be grateful that after a court case I don't have to work, although claiming benefits has become so much effort as well, like they are constantly re-assessing me when every single doctor I've ever seen has said I'll never get better. The last time I had to fill out a 30 page form, and just to keep it a huge effort, every single time they seem to slightly rewrite and renumber the forms so we (whoever is filling it in on my behalf) can't just put the same answers. I think they want to drive people to suicide or make them die of stress, or just stop claiming because it's so much effort and starve or something.
Someone once said 'humans are basically just portable sewage factories' and that is so true. If you look at us as a species objectively, what do we do? What do we contribute to the planet? Basically we destroy and eat other living things, be they plants or animals, and drink lots of liquids and then dump out huge amounts of disgusting waste. I dread to think how much we create in an average lifetime. We take nice things and turn them into shite. Literally.
And the worst thing as someone else said... it just gets worse the older you get. It's like you spin the wheel of misfortune every day, and some days it comes up with some 'exciting' new ailment or symptom, very rarely is anything 'fixed' or gets better.
I didn't like living when I was young and able-bodied, but it REALLY sucks now. Ugh.
 
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Sunny-Pia

Sunny-Pia

Student
Jul 12, 2022
105
If we're bitching about what sucks in life I'd like to make a special mention to teeth. They rot and are full of nerve endings and cost a lot of money to fix or even get ripped out. My teeth causes me as much anxiety as anything else in my life if not more so. One of the reasons I want to "go" is because I don't want to go through any more of my teeth

If we're bitching about what sucks in life I'd like to make a special mention to teeth. They rot and are full of nerve endings and cost a lot of money to fix or even get ripped out. My teeth causes me as much anxiety as anything else in my life if not more so. One of the reasons I want to "go" is because I don't want to go through any more of my teeth falling apart.
Agreed! That needs to end for sure!
 
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EntomologicalCat

Loss is the worst!
May 9, 2023
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almost everything we do is just to prevent suffering and if we dont do it we suffer.

-you have to eat but just the right amount and the right things.
-you have to poop , which is disgusting and annoying or your tummy hurts and you get sicks but it smells bad.
-you have to piss
-you have sexual organs , sperm is disgusting . you can have wet dreams and make a mess.
-you have to brush your teeth and floss and mouthwash or you end up with tooth decay and bad pain
-you have to sleep or else you get tired and then you cant function properly the next day.
-you have to keep your mind engaged or you get bored
-you have to interact with people on some levels or you get lonely and depressed.
-you have to exercise or you get unhealthy and sickly but just the right exercises.
-you have to work or you starve and die.
-theres so many random diseases and illness
-people can ruin your life.
-you can have a body that makes you dysphoric.
-you can lose your parents.

theres many other factors.
the human body is never content , its like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill, you may alleviate one symptom of this useless human body but then something else will start to gnaw at you.

life is a persistent struggle to alleviate and prevent suffering and doing damage control.

fuck this curse.
This is the reason why I hate that I was born to begin with. Like dude! if there is a God, why did he allow me to be the winning sperm? I can barely walk down a flight of stairs without feeling like my heart is giving out, how the heck did I manage to win a race against millions of microorganisms!?!?!
 
oldfritos

oldfritos

BPDeez nutz
Jun 9, 2023
26
And no one signed up for this either, consciousness in humans was a mistake. Having the species of Homo Sapiens be on survival autopilot would be better for literally everything in the world. We're ruining the climate and making so many animals go extinct as the consequences of the industrial revolution, which is a conseuqence of humans evolving to be intelligent, self-aware individuals
 
CYP11B1

CYP11B1

Member
May 23, 2023
19
We're ruining the climate and making so many animals go extinct as the consequences of the industrial revolution
And that's OK. We're not the only sentient, pain feeling creatures. Suffering is an inherent component of life. It should be destroyed. The only problem is how long it takes. Let's hope humankind doesn't come up with a magic-tier technology, and self-reinforcing feedback loops together with extremely fast pace and today's strength of the Sun guarantee venusification.
 
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yeah it's a pointless loop that leads you nowhere and wears you down both physically and mentally.
 

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