Anyone else just ONE more bad thing happening in life away from ctb?

[jasoncan]

Anyone else just one more thing going wrong in life from ending it? I feel my time is near and I already know bad things are coming I can't bare to deal with

 

[ClippedWings]

I don't need any more bad things to happen. Enough has happened.

 

[soonnotkoei]

I don't need any more bad things to happen. Enough has happened.

+1.
only thing holding me back is having family and friends. and also maybe fear

 

[ClippedWings]

+1.
only thing holding me back is having family and friends. and also maybe fear

makes sense, but I have no friends, haven't for 15 years. and family, I told them all imma ctb and they support it because of my condition. I have no fear of death, only of waking up in this nightmare another day.

 

[soonnotkoei]

makes sense, but I have no friends, haven't for 15 years. and family, I told them all imma ctb and they support it because of my condition. I have no fear of death, only of waking up in this nightmare another day.

how vastly different from my situation. if i even so much as hint to my family that i wanna die then ill immediatly be moved to a psych ward. my death will be out of the blue for them.
as for friends, i have a few but they are still my friend only cause they do not know what is going on or what i am planning. i am just a normal person for them.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I agree with clipped. What I endured was enough to make me lose interest in anything. I doubt magic exists and it'll magically change that...

 

[Prism]

Yes, I'm tired of everything going downhill and afraid of what else could be in store. I sometimes wish something good would happen that would "save" me, as lame as that sounds, but I have no reason to actually believe in anything like that occurring. And I certainly don't know how to make it happen myself.

 

[ClippedWings]

how vastly different from my situation. if i even so much as hint to my family that i wanna die then ill immediatly be moved to a psych ward. my death will be out of the blue for them.
as for friends, i have a few but they are still my friend only cause they do not know what is going on or what i am planning. i am just a normal person for them.

ya, we hella diff, but I get it. You'd have to know my life but it all makes sense from over here. My mom still gets sick when I bring it up, but all my immediate family supports it. It took multiple conversations, but we got there. It's really pretty simple actually. I make the case that I can't acheive what I want and prove it and tada, death is certain. it's not that simple, but that's the gist. Your people have to be receptive though. It's one area I lucked out on, ironically.

 

[soonnotkoei]

ya, we hella diff, but I get it. You'd have to know my life but it all makes sense from over here. My mom still gets sick when I bring it up, but all my immediate family supports it. It took multiple conversations, but we got there. It's really pretty simple actually. I make the case that I can't acheive what I want and prove it and tada, death is certain. it's not that simple, but that's the gist. Your people have to be receptive though. It's one area I lucked out on, ironically.

hmm yea not so lucky here. well, we all got our own problems ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

[finallydone]

already happened, my brain is just buying time that it doesn't have

 

[ClippedWings]

hmm yea not so lucky here. well, we all got our own problems ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

for sure, tbh, I read gobs of shit on this site, but don't really relate to anyone.

already happened, my brain is just buying time that it doesn't have

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