Venting Anyone else just exhausted with life?

[justkatie]

I'm not going to go too much into my history and life as it doesn't really matter, you'll all have heard similar stories like mine before and I'm not here to look for sympathy.

I'm 40 years old and I'm exhausted with life. I'm just done. My life has been unhappy for as long as I can remember (I have two fleeting moments of happiness I can remember) and a lifetime of toil and rubbish.

I have nothing to look forward to and nobody to live for, so I just keep thinking "what's the point?"

People say things like "Well you have to hit rock bottom before you can climb up" but when I hit rock bottom, it turns out there's only more bottom to go down.

It's refreshing to have a place where I can actually be open about this without being referred to useless (for me) mental health charities.

I don't really know where I'm going with this as its my first post here. Just really a feeler to see how people react and to see if this is somewhere I want to discuss my feelings in without the "call the samaritans" nonsense like everywhere else.

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

Don't think I've even seen people saying that on here unless it was appropriate.

Feel free to share as little or much as you want. I'm guessing a lot of people will recognize this.

Welcome to Sasu

It's weird how many rock bottoms there can be. In my experience hitting something on the way down doesn't make me bounce back.

 

[Willy Wonka]

I'm not going to go too much into my history and life as it doesn't really matter, you'll all have heard similar stories like mine before and I'm not here to look for sympathy.

I'm 40 years old and I'm exhausted with life. I'm just done. My life has been unhappy for as long as I can remember (I have two fleeting moments of happiness I can remember) and a lifetime of toil and rubbish.

I have nothing to look forward to and nobody to live for, so I just keep thinking "what's the point?"

People say things like "Well you have to hit rock bottom before you can climb up" but when I hit rock bottom, it turns out there's only more bottom to go down.

It's refreshing to have a place where I can actually be open about this without being referred to useless (for me) mental health charities.

I don't really know where I'm going with this as its my first post here. Just really a feeler to see how people react and to see if this is somewhere I want to discuss my feelings in without the "call the samaritans" nonsense like everywhere else.

I can relate 100%

Don't think I've even seen people saying that on here unless it was appropriate.

Feel free to share as little or much as you want. I'm guessing a lot of people will recognize this.

Welcome to Sasu

It's weird how many rock bottoms there can be. In my experience hitting something on the way down doesn't make me bounce back.

well said - I also wonder how often you can even hit rock bottom and how deep it should actually go to finally just be enough

 

[justkatie]

Don't think I've even seen people saying that on here unless it was appropriate.

Feel free to share as little or much as you want. I'm guessing a lot of people will recognize this.

Welcome to Sasu

It's weird how many rock bottoms there can be. In my experience hitting something on the way down doesn't make me bounce back.

That's one of the biggest things. There's never a bounce back, you just learn to accept your new and worse situation until it becomes the norm haha.

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

That's one of the biggest things. There's never a bounce back, you just learn to accept your new and worse situation until it becomes the norm haha.

Precisely! Haha and if I don't get used to it I laugh about because crying is of no use.
Its exhausting

 

[HiddenPain]

Can really relate to this, I'm not sure rock bottom is even a thing, life feels more like a bottomless hole and you can always fall a little deeper.

 

[Jeav]

Haha, I'm still hitting rock bottom. Where is the light in all this madness and chaos? I don't know. Years and years of living to reach peace and love, but still, the world is cruel. Self-love is undoubtedly hard—you can't be self-sufficient, especially when parents like mine only showed interest in boosting their ego or serving their own interests.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I'll be 40 in a few months and I can absolutely relate. My health has declined over the last decade, and I'm always having to get used to an even worse version of me.

 

[Heartaches]

Welcome to SaSu :)

I can relate. I'm younger but don't hold a lot of faith in life. I've tried so much, but ultimately, those efforts have never been able to keep me away from hitting rock bottom frequently. I don't feel anything gets better for long, it's just an illusion to keep going, constantly fighting against yourself. It wears you down.​

 

[sserafim]

I'm exhausted with life as well and the thing that I hate the most is that I didn't choose to be alive. I never asked for any of this. I just want to sleep forever and never wake up

 

[wanttodie12345]

I can relate to this. I used to tell myself I could change, I could find happiness. Now my health has declined and I can't do anything about it, can't improve my situation. I look back at my life and realize all the places I thought were rock bottom were actually better than this. I was just deluding myself all those years, working hard and never really finding peace.

 

[Dresden45]

I'm not going to go too much into my history and life as it doesn't really matter, you'll all have heard similar stories like mine before and I'm not here to look for sympathy.

I'm 40 years old and I'm exhausted with life. I'm just done. My life has been unhappy for as long as I can remember (I have two fleeting moments of happiness I can remember) and a lifetime of toil and rubbish.

I have nothing to look forward to and nobody to live for, so I just keep thinking "what's the point?"

People say things like "Well you have to hit rock bottom before you can climb up" but when I hit rock bottom, it turns out there's only more bottom to go down.

It's refreshing to have a place where I can actually be open about this without being referred to useless (for me) mental health charities.

I don't really know where I'm going with this as its my first post here. Just really a feeler to see how people react and to see if this is somewhere I want to discuss my feelings in without the "call the samaritans" nonsense like everywhere else.

I agree, Katie, it's a huge relief to have a forum like this where people can be honest about how they feel. It's really exhausting keeping up a happy front all the time. It's infuriating the way mental health charities carry on as if there's an answer for everybody and we all need to stay alive. One of the things that makes me laugh most is when they advise you to speak to' friends and family', if you're 'feeling down'. What if you don't have any friends or family? In my experience the quickest way to see the back of your 'friends' is to tell them honestly how you're feeling - which I haven't actually done very much anyway.

 

[bland_mammal]

Maybe the point of life is watching cute puppy videos on the Internet, or maybe it's crying alone in your apartment, car, or bathroom stall. I don't have the answer.

I'm not at rock bottom – at least I don't feel like I'm at rock bottom yet. It still sucks, though. If it sucks this much and I'm not even at rock bottom, bah!

 

[Hotsackage]

With the ignorance of mental illness yes

 

[Hollowman]

Been exhausted for years, looking forward to eternal nothingness.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I completely relate. I'm 44 and I've just had enough basically. It's not like it's all been terrible, although there have been some terrible bits and more to come, I have no doubt. It's more for me the overall feeling that it's all so much hard work and it simply isn't worth it.

I'm not sure I want to wait for rock bottom to promt me to get out of here. I'm hoping just the fear of it on the horizon will make me quit while I'm (comparitively) further ahead. Welcome to the forum though. I hope you find some sollace here. Feels like we need to cling to what we can while we're stuck here.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I'm certainly so tired of suffering in this existence, in fact the tiredness I feel is one that only eternal sleep can bring me relief from, I only hope to never exist again, existing truly has caused me nothing but pain.

 

[Qevyn]

I'm not going to go too much into my history and life as it doesn't really matter, you'll all have heard similar stories like mine before and I'm not here to look for sympathy.

I'm 40 years old and I'm exhausted with life. I'm just done. My life has been unhappy for as long as I can remember (I have two fleeting moments of happiness I can remember) and a lifetime of toil and rubbish.

I have nothing to look forward to and nobody to live for, so I just keep thinking "what's the point?"

People say things like "Well you have to hit rock bottom before you can climb up" but when I hit rock bottom, it turns out there's only more bottom to go down.

It's refreshing to have a place where I can actually be open about this without being referred to useless (for me) mental health charities.

I don't really know where I'm going with this as its my first post here. Just really a feeler to see how people react and to see if this is somewhere I want to discuss my feelings in without the "call the samaritans" nonsense like everywhere else.

I agree. I've been referred to help lines, been admitted to psych wards, taken (& still taking) antidepressants, talked to therapists & psychiatrists & some (few remaining) family members. I'm just SO TIRED of it all.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

42 here and yes I am just exhuasted by everything and anything. I used to enjoy a few things now even doing those is exhausting. I remember enjoying playing video games and doing little things here and there, but it's not nothing brings me joy or even a bit of happiness. I get up,take care of my animals and wife and then I sit here in my head because it's been too hot to go for walk or anything. I don't like people and have no friends. I am just merely existing and going through the motions. been in wards, taking mind bending antidepressants, dealt with loss on a large scale throughout my existence. May have the bare essentials in life to "live" but happiness is nothing more than a fleeting wish that will never come to pass. can't wait for it all to be over.

 

[maniac116]

I'm not going to go too much into my history and life as it doesn't really matter, you'll all have heard similar stories like mine before and I'm not here to look for sympathy.

I'm 40 years old and I'm exhausted with life. I'm just done. My life has been unhappy for as long as I can remember (I have two fleeting moments of happiness I can remember) and a lifetime of toil and rubbish.

I have nothing to look forward to and nobody to live for, so I just keep thinking "what's the point?"

People say things like "Well you have to hit rock bottom before you can climb up" but when I hit rock bottom, it turns out there's only more bottom to go down.

It's refreshing to have a place where I can actually be open about this without being referred to useless (for me) mental health charities.

I don't really know where I'm going with this as its my first post here. Just really a feeler to see how people react and to see if this is somewhere I want to discuss my feelings in without the "call the samaritans" nonsense like everywhere else.

 

[HopeToStay]

I'm 39 and i know how you feel. Since COVID i go into every year with goals and ambitions and i end the year failing to achieve them because some brand new problem has emerged. I thought lockdown was rough but those times seem like a dream compared to my current life. This year has been a particular disaster due to job, finances and health.

At some point you start wondering if the trajectory can change. It's starting to feel like the endgame.

 

[Dresden45]

Yes, I completely relate. I'm 44 and I've just had enough basically. It's not like it's all been terrible, although there have been some terrible bits and more to come, I have no doubt. It's more for me the overall feeling that it's all so much hard work and it simply isn't worth it.

I'm not sure I want to wait for rock bottom to promt me to get out of here. I'm hoping just the fear of it on the horizon will make me quit while I'm (comparitively) further ahead. Welcome to the forum though. I hope you find some sollace here. Feels like we need to cling to what we can while we're stuck here.

I'm 63 - it's been a God-awful effort to get this far and I just can't pretend it's been worth it. I feel like I've been invisible my whole life and now I'm an old woman with no family even more so. I just wish I hadn't tried.

 

[sweetcreep]

yeah i feel so similar. i've just been kinda going through the motions for a while now and will continue to do so until i ctb. i dont have any hobbies, no close social circle or anything to really look forward to. everything feels pretty tedious and meaningless. i just want to sleep.

 

[notsadtogo]

I too have recently joined and have been reading thru the threads and this is the one I've been looking for. I'm 57 now and for the last 10 years I've felt this way. Tired. Tired of pretending to family that everything is good, tired of putting on happy faces at work just wanting this all to stop. I truly hope when I do ctb there is nothing.