Help Anyone else is actively looking for a job ?

[Insomniac]

Hi Guys!

I graduated last summer and have bbeen looking for a job ever since.

The whole job hunting process feels uncomfortable and slightly traumatising.

Perhaps I should give up and CTB. I decided to find a job because my relationship with mom is quickly deterirating and she is now treating me poorly and has started acting disrespectful towards me (she occasionally makes hurtful passive aggressive comments about me not having a job lol).

She used to be a kind and sweet mom, until she realized that I wasn't a reliable retirement fund because of my mental health issues xD poor mom.

Anyway, she's the main reason I feel suicidal. She kicked my dad out of the house because of his mental health issues (alcoholism) as well.

I'm afraid I'll be next.

Anyone else here realized parents love wasn't unconditional? It's a rather choking realisation. It's a really ugly one. I don't wish it upon anyone.

Anyone else job hunting? Let's support each others!

 

[luten]

Don't let job hunting intimidate you, takes time.

I am not jobless, but I am looking for more clients (contracts), self-employed.

 

[Insomniac]

I am not jobless, but I am looking for more clients (contracts), self-employed.

If I may ask, why did you chose to be self-employed? do you find it easier than a 9-5? Also, what do you do?

Sorry for all the questions, I'm curious :)

 

[luten]

If I may ask, why did you chose to be self-employed? do you find it easier than a 9-5? Also, what do you do?

Sorry for all the questions, I'm curious :)

I have been self-employed for 18 years, because of spinal-cord damage, and extensive spinal instrumentation, and fusions. I can walk, but I live a life in pain. There is no way that I can work 5 days a week, from 8 to 5.

I am in I.T

 

[Insomniac]

I live a life in pain

It sucks. Is this the reason you're suicidal? I'm asking because Idk why I simply assumed that everyone here was mentally ill.

 

[goat]

It's a great thing you had the initiative of looking for a job instead of just enduring the current situation with your mother and stay motionless! Very good first step!

I come from neglect and severe abuse, I never had that parental love to lose afterwards, so I don't know how that feels, I just runaway as soon as as fast as I could and never looked back. I even went homeless and resourced to sex work for surviving at some point, and I got with a partner that mutilated me and you know what? it felt less worse than my childhood "home". That speaks volumes. Lol

My advice to you is to not take job interviews to the personal side. They can be quite frustrating at times but it's like a hard level at Mario's video game, it's annoying but just keep trying and you'll pass. :)

Enjoy now that things at your place are still bearable to keep looking for a job! Once you have your own income you'll feel a huge relief and way more secure. Because you know that if things ever get insufferable with your mother you'll be able to at least rent a room or at least a motel room, you'll get your own back and not be at your mother's mercy and this can change everything.

Keep fighting for that coin! You can do it!

 

[luten]

It sucks. Is this the reason you're suicidal? I'm asking because Idk why I simply assumed that everyone here was mentally ill.

my condition is deteriorating, in a neuromascular sense. The older one get, the less pain you able to handle, which is also true for the medications that I am on. Opiates, Benzos, in huge dosages, it will probably kill me in the next 5-10 years.

 

[Insomniac]

It's a great thing you had the initiative of looking for a job instead of just enduring the current situation with your mother and stay motionless! Very good first step!

I come from neglect and severe abuse, I never had that parental love to lose afterwards, so I don't know how that feels, I just runaway as soon as as fast as I could and never looked back. I even went homeless and resourced to sex work for surviving at some point, and I got with a partner that mutilated me and you know what? it felt less worse than my childhood "home". That speaks volumes. Lol

My advice to you is to not take job interviews to the personal side. They can be quite frustrating at times but it's like a hard level at Mario's video game, it's annoying but just keep trying and you'll pass. :)

Enjoy now that things at your place are still bearable to keep looking for a job! Once you have your own income you'll feel a huge relief and way more secure. Because you know that if things ever get insufferable with your mother you'll be able to at least rent a room or at least a motel room, you'll get your own back and not be at your mother's mercy and this can change everything.

Keep fighting for that coin! You can do it!

Thank you so much, this is really encouraging @goat! To be honest, I have started to contemplate sex working too... I can totally feel you when you say that being mutilated by your partner still felt better than your childhood home. Sometimes, I consider selling myself and becoming a slave to someone else only to escape my family haha. It sucks.

my condition is deteriorating, in a neuromascular sense. The older one get, the less pain you able to handle, which is also true for the medications that I am on. Opiates, Benzos, in huge dosages, it will probably kill me in the next 5-10 years.

This sounds really horrible. I'm sorry

 

[nopointofliving]

I have been self-employed for 18 years, because of spinal-cord damage, and extensive spinal instrumentation, and fusions. I can walk, but I live a life in pain. There is no way that I can work 5 days a week, from 8 to 5.

I am in I.T

I'm sorry for your pain luten...I wish life treated us better

 

[goat]

Thank you so much, this is really encouraging @goat! To be honest, I have started to contemplate sex working too... I can totally feel you when you say that being mutilated by your partner still felt better than your childhood home. Sometimes, I consider selling myself and becoming a slave to someone else only to escape my family haha. It sucks.

This sounds really horrible. I'm sorry

Dont go down the sex work path that easily!
I don't say that because I condemn sex workers but because it will take a toll on your mental health, a toll that not everyone is able to afford, specially long term. And it will physical well being in danger too!
Even if it's "only" virtual SW it has a price even tho nowadays it seems all fun and games to have an OF.
Sex workers are still marginalized by society too. And it's an easy gateway to alcoholism and drugs you do to endure certain "tasks".
Be aware of all the possible consequences and if they're worth it.
We're not Bella Thorn to get bazillionaire overnight with an OF account and be sure to never need a 9/5 job that will kick your ass when they discover what you posted online ages ago.

It's not such an easy money as it seems.
Specially if you already have suicidal ideas.

Keep safe!

I did that when I had all my survival instincts on. Cause I needed food and shelter. Nowadays I prefer to ctb before having to do that again.

 

[luten]

I'm sorry for your pain luten...I wish life treated us better

thank you...it is what it is.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

I'm currently a student who study programming. I wish I could get a job too. Although SN is very easy to buy here but I wish I have the 800$ for N.

 

[EraseRewind]

I will graduate in two weeks but I know I have little hope of employment because of my past issues (my own responsibility). I've made the decision to continue study until I find I cannot progress any more. My best hope is a P/T job doing something simple or unpopular to get income.

I hope you are able to find some good job soon, you've done nothing wrong and deserve a chance at a good life, I wish you all the best in your search.

 

[WornOutLife]

Job hunting sucks so much.
I just hate the system. They tend to be pic the more good-looking and sociable person no matter what.

I was suicidal because of working for many years until I found my passion: teaching and became my own boss.

Wish you the best and hope you can find a nice job so that life gets better! Maybe the future has good stuff in store for you!

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Currently looking for a mininum wage, minimum hours, minimum responsibility job.

 

[Marktheghost]

I'm kind of looking for a job. Not actively though. I gave up years ago, and only look every few months or so.

 

[suicidesheep31]

I should be looking for job. Mine finishes in December. But I am really ambivalent between looking for job and just kill myself. So, I don't actively search....

 

[mold]

i've been job hunting for the past year or so, i lost my job(s) cause of covid and now i just can't get another one. it sucks :( i know it takes time, but hopefully things will look up for the both of us!

 

[Insomniac]

i've been job hunting for the past year or so, i lost my job(s) cause of covid and now i just can't get another one. it sucks :( i know it takes time, but hopefully things will look up for the both of us!

Courage! <3

 

[my heart hurts]

I graduated uni last semester, so I feel your pain. I somehow wedged a good time time since there were many hiring surges earlier this year, but I did lose amazing opportunities in final round interviews through the process. I ended up with something solid, but the growing pains put me in a headspace that I was not really able to handle ~_~ All we can do is keep trying, as that's how it goes without those who can abuse nepotism aha

 

[Sprite_Geist]

No I already have a job, but I am looking for another one. I would like to work at another place where nobody knows me too well; which will hopefully make my planned disappearance (death) easier.

 

[boc]

I have a job, but currently job hunting as well. It's a depressing process. Especially when one is already qualified. I'm trying to find a job that would increase my quality of life, but it takes a while at the best of times. I'll keep you posted on how it goes.

 

[Insomniac]

I have a job, but currently job hunting as well. It's a depressing process. Especially when one is already qualified. I'm trying to find a job that would increase my quality of life, but it takes a while at the best of times. I'll keep you posted on how it goes.

O have a job interview in a few hours and I'm panicking. I don't even know why I stress so much since I already know it's gonna be a disaster

 

[boc]

O have a job interview in a few hours and I'm panicking. I don't even know why I stress so much since I already know it's gonna be a disaster

Good luck man! I'm pulling for you. Try and calm down in advance. I try doing a breathing exercise to calm my nerves in advance.

 

[FireFox]

Hi Guys!

I graduated last summer and have bbeen looking for a job ever since.

The whole job hunting process feels uncomfortable and slightly traumatising.

Perhaps I should give up and CTB. I decided to find a job because my relationship with mom is quickly deterirating and she is now treating me poorly and has started acting disrespectful towards me (she occasionally makes hurtful passive aggressive comments about me not having a job lol).

She used to be a kind and sweet mom, until she realized that I wasn't a reliable retirement fund because of my mental health issues xD poor mom.

Anyway, she's the main reason I feel suicidal. She kicked my dad out of the house because of his mental health issues (alcoholism) as well.

I'm afraid I'll be next.

Anyone else here realized parents love wasn't unconditional? It's a rather choking realisation. It's a really ugly one. I don't wish it upon anyone.

Anyone else job hunting? Let's support each others!

Big Virtual hug for you.

I am job hunting too. I have been unemployed over a year. It is so lonely being unemployed because everyone talks about thier job life and being unemployed I can't engage as I am not working.

All my friends have jobs and live on their own. Everyone around me is successful and I am a loser . One of my family members are getting married and everyone in the family is talking about the wedding

I feel like an embrassment to my family and I do believe they are better off without me.

I don't talk to people anymore and I have effectively isolated myself from everyone.

 

[Insomniac]

Big Virtual hug for you.

I am job hunting too. I have been unemployed over a year. It is so lonely being unemployed because everyone talks about thier job life and being unemployed I can't engage as I am not working.

All my friends have jobs and live on their own. Everyone around me is successful and I am a loser . One of my family members are getting married and everyone in the family is talking about the wedding

I feel like an embrassment to my family and I do believe they are better off without me.

I don't talk to people anymore and I have effectively isolated myself from everyone.

I'm really sorry @FireFox. Feeling behind in life is one of the worst feelings ever. The way I deal with it is by befriending those who are less privileged than me, and according them all of my attention and affection. It makes me feel like a real person.