In my case I have always been very introverted and it's just the way that I am. I have always preferred and had seen it as best to be alone. People can be tiring, irritating and are capable of making our lives so much worse so of course it's best to stay away as then there is no risk of others making us suffer more. Whenever I hear about all the horrible things that people do, it just makes me dislike humans more. People can be disappointing and unreliable as well and I see it as best not to be too trusting of others. I mostly keep my distance from people.
This is what I used to do... what I didn't know is that at a point, when no one could intercede for me, I would be so disconsolate of my beloved loneliness.
Actually the fear and refusal to relate to others has been devastating at this point in my life, I would never have expected it.
And only because I didn't sense the extent to which I was overly dependent on my mother and perhaps other people I haven't yet taken into account.
It sucks to realize it too late.
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Això feia jo abans... el que no sabía es que arribat a un punt, en el que ningú podría intercedir per mi, em desconsolaria tant la meva estimada soledat.
Realment la por i el rebuig a relacionar-me amb els altres ha estat devastador en el moment actual de la meva vida, no m'ho hagués esperat mai.
I només perquè no intuía fins a quin punt depenía en excés de la meva mare i potser d'altres persones que encara no he tingut en compte.
Es una merda adonar-te'n massa tard d'això.
