Donk
Useless since day 1
- Jan 3, 2020
- 1,129
immigranted to this country when i was 9 yo with my parents. i remember the first night here i was balling my eyes out. the thought of living in a foreign place and unable communicate with others terrified me. i was the only asian kid. i didnt have any friends and i was constantly bullied in school for being different i thought things would turn around in high school..boy i was wrong...i felt even more of an outcast in high school. nobody wanted to hangout with me and i felt vulnerable. kids smelled blood and bullied me everyday. thats when i started getting depress and anxious. i attempted suicide twice at the age of 12. i felt worthless since i was failing in school and i didnt have any friends for support. fast forward to the present i still feel like that kid who came to a new country alone and afraid. i have no friends because im afraid of rejection. like how i was constantly rejected when i was a child. my bro is also mentally ill. he's a schizophrenic and im always concern for his well being. he went through the same ordeal as me when he was young. life is not fucking fair. i wish i was born a different race so kids would have accepted me instead of bullying me for being different. sorry for sounding like im rambling but i needed to get it off my chest. i feel like ctb is the only solution since i cant change my past and it still haunts me to this date.