Anyone else have zero friends?

[tiredofbreathing]

I have zero friends. No I'm not exaggerating. I did have like 3-4 friends I would talk to sometimes but since my depression and life situation got worse they all drifted away or are distant. I've just given up. I am completely isolated and alone in this world no family or friends. (I had a friend on here but he ctb recently i miss them.) Only my brother i talk to on occasion but he lives in another state. I'm completely alone now and it only compounds the pain and suffering from my painful health situation which I've been suffering the past almost decade the reason I joined here in the first place. The truth is no one really cares about each other in this world or maybe people just don't care about me. I feel very misunderstood by society sometimes. I would get more into being misunderstood but because of side effects of pschy drugs i wasn't myself around many people because of the side effects for many years and I still can't feel emtions because I have a chemical lobotomy. Loneliness and feeling completely misunderstood by society is such painful feeling. People never try to understand your pain or how hard you try, they just see your mistakes or the side effects from your pain

 

[Lost21]

In my entire life I have never had someone close to me that I would consider a friend

 

[tiredofbreathing]

In my entire life I have never had someone close to me that I would consider a friend

I'm sorry. I don't even have anyone I can text a hello to anymore unfortunately

 

[Marine]

Also no friend, plus no family and no SO. 100% not normal and not how humans are though, no matter how brainwashed since survival depends on connection more than anything else, even food and water, just how trauma keeps us jailed separated from the world from what I understand. I wish people could find us still and / or we could find a way to break out...

 

[suicidalenby]

I get how you feel. I don't really have any friends either, the one person who I kinda count as a friend lives hundreds of miles away and is always busy. Being this isolated sucks so bad.

 

[BBBB]

No family or friends either.
Completely alone!

 

[tiredofbreathing]

I get how you feel. I don't really have any friends either, the one person who I kinda count as a friend lives hundreds of miles away and is always busy. Being this isolated sucks so bad.

It feels just like being in jail but your not in a cell just mentally trapped

 

[Blackroom_57]

Ive only ever had acquaintances my entire life. I just can't make friends. The only friends I have now are in a discord chat that I've been a part of for years. Outside of them no one talks to me.

 

[Death is my goal]

real irl friends? none

 

[tiredofbreathing]

real irl friends? none

No.. I just been more and more isolated over the years. It would be better if I could work but can't because of my disability

 

[Hotsackage]

i do sort of but dont make an effort to talk to them

 

[coldcontact]

I haven't really had friends since I was a kid, I don't even have autism or anything (at least I don't think) just social anxiety, but I've become so socially detached that I can't make friends even if I try. It's kind of pathetic to think about because friendships seem to form naturally for most.

I've come to believe that I was just never meant to get along with people, for whatever reason.

 

[Chemical Animal]

I only had friends until the age of 14, only had acquaintances and occasional companions ever since. I was always an awkward person, but developed extreme social anxiety ever since I moved from the neighborhood I was raised in. I'm minimally able to make relationships but unable to maintain them.

Currently, my parents are my only friends, but if parents don't count then I have zero friends. I managed to make some friends on Discord during the pandemic but lost contact with them since late-2021...

 

[thankyou]

I have zero friends. No I'm not exaggerating. I did have like 3-4 friends I would talk to sometimes but since my depression and life situation got worse they all drifted away or are distant. I've just given up. I am completely isolated and alone in this world no family or friends. (I had a friend on here but he ctb recently i miss them.) Only my brother i talk to on occasion but he lives in another state. I'm completely alone now and it only compounds the pain and suffering from my painful health situation which I've been suffering the past almost decade the reason I joined here in the first place. The truth is no one really cares about each other in this world or maybe people just don't care about me. I feel very misunderstood by society sometimes. I would get more into being misunderstood but because of side effects of pschy drugs i wasn't myself around many people because of the side effects for many years and I still can't feel emtions because I have a chemical lobotomy. Loneliness and feeling completely misunderstood by society is such painful feeling. People never try to understand your pain or how hard you try, they just see your mistakes or the side effects from your pain

Im also completely alone except I have an SO. But what kills me inside is the toll it takes on my SO given I have absolutely nobody else, no friends or family. My SO has expressed wishing had more friends and I am trying but genuinely it just leads me to think they deserve so much more and I'm better off dead. I feel like nobody talks about how hard it is to actually make friends once you have zero. It's easier with the more friends you have. But when you have none nobody wants to be friends with you…. I've tried very hard to make friends but now my only friends are online and that's how things will stay. Im sorry you feel the same.

 

[HitsanoEllangmainta]

I had a few friend in my teen years, but then I just grew distant from them, I wasn't agree with them on many things and talking to them was just giving me unpleasant feelings and I just couldn't think of them as friends. So I just dropped them. Then I had a gf who could take my anxiety away, and we were real soulmates to each other. That was the best time of my life. Sadly, it seems like it was this way only for me and she wasn't really into me, she took our break up perfectly fine and without any trying to repair it. In other words, a few years forward and here I am all alone again.

 

[BlazingBob]

I have some friends but because of my disability they're fading away. I'm constantly exhausted and have horrible brain fog and never have any energy to do anything. Can never make plans because I never know if I'll be physically able to follow through. My 'family' are assholes. I only talk to my mom occasionally but it never ends well. Zero family functions. Holidays, birthdays etc alone. 50, never married no kids. I've never had a real relationship and have never been even close to marriage. I've never been stable because of physical and mental health struggles. I have an incurable neurological sleep disease that has ruined my life. I've struggled with severe depression since I was 16. God knows I've tried to fix things but here I am. I wanted a family of my own at one point but it just wasn't in the cards. My dad split when I was ten and currently wants nothing to do with me. I haven't seen him in close to 3 years. It hurts. In public I feel like an alien. I'm living in someone else's house and will soon be living in my car. I'm too sick to support myself. I don't even want things to get better. It's a moot point because with the incurable progressive disease I have it's impossible anyway. My biggest desire is to not exist. This movie isn't going to get better or have a happy ending. I take care of three dogs and can't abandon them. Taking care of them is part of the reason I have a place to live. Once they're gone I'll be on the streets. That's when I'll ctb. How I'm not sure. Probably partial suspension. Sorry for rambling. All the drugs I have to take make me loopy.

 

[neemva]

Same, I feel you too. I don't have any friends. Even though I am in university, all people in my class treat me so differently, no one even wants to sit next to me, being friends is far away. No one passes me attendance sheet. When I am absent in my class, i have no one to call and ask class work, as one one is going to pick my calls or read texts. They all treat me as a nobody when I've done nothing wrong, I sometimes even doubt myself, if something is wrong with me. I have cried countless nights, I don't attend even my classes regularly, I even feel scared to step out of my room. I feel like my head will explode soon...but some time later I started self harming, but still I just feel so bad for myself, so I am trying to find a reliable method for ctb

 

[tiredofbreathing]

Same, I feel you too. I don't have any friends. Even though I am in university, all people in my class treat me so differently, no one even wants to sit next to me, being friends is far away. No one passes me attendance sheet. When I am absent in my class, i have no one to call and ask class work, as one one is going to pick my calls or read texts. They all treat me as a nobody when I've done nothing wrong, I sometimes even doubt myself, if something is wrong with me. I have cried countless nights, I don't attend even my classes regularly, I even feel scared to step out of my room. I feel like my head will explode soon...but some time later I started self harming, but still I just feel so bad for myself, so I am trying to find a reliable method for ctb

Im sorry to hear this. I remember college wasn't easy to make friends either. The friends I had before were at jobs after highschool. I usually recommended people to do a job after high school and attend community college because it's less stress

 

[InSearchOfLess]

Yes, and I enjoy it, having to grow up with six other siblings I've learned that enjoy being reclusive plus I lack emotional connection to others thoughts and feelings. I get enough " support " from my family I don't need friends to tell me more " no don't go we love you man " and " it gets better " type shit, nah I'm good being alone.

 

[StillBreathing]

Someone once said to me: If you don't feel comfortable being alone, you have to make yourself a person you'd want to hang out with. This is no easy task when everything feels like a living hell.. Try to find out what your problems are and what you can do about them, one at a time. Me currently am trying to fix my depression by seeking help, this has not worked in the past but I'm willing to give it a try a few more times.

Edit: Being alone is completely fine and many people prefer it, it's when you are miserable you have to do something about it.

 

[tiredofbreathing]

Someone once said to me: If you don't feel comfortable being alone, you have to make yourself a person you'd want to hang out with. This is no easy task when everything feels like a living hell.. Try to find out what your problems are and what you can do about them, one at a time. Me currently am trying to fix my depression by seeking help, this has not worked in the past but I'm willing to give it a try a few more times.

Edit: Being alone is completely fine and many people prefer it, it's when you are miserable you have to do something about it.

I agree. It's funny actually I liked alone time a lot even when I had friends. I relaized tho there's a difference between being alone vs not having any form of social connection.
I'm glad your seeking help for your depression and hope that revolves some. I have alot of health problems unfortunately that are physical but also mental because of the pain. It's unfortunately something that doesn't have a bell curve so there is no knowing if I will or when i could get better

 

[StillBreathing]

I agree. It's funny actually I liked alone time a lot even when I had friends. I relaized tho there's a difference between being alone vs not having any form of social connection.
I'm glad your seeking help for your depression and hope that revolves some. I have alot of health problems unfortunately that are physical but also mental because of the pain. It's unfortunately something that doesn't have a bell curve so there is no knowing if I will or when i could get better

It's an "evil circle" (I don't know if this phrase makes sense in english), when you have depression mixed with physical health problems. I have moderate/severe IBD so I completely understand you. Also the part about wanting to be alone even though you have company. I have had many friends and even girlfriends leave me because of the depression pushing them away while they do not understand why I am doing it.

I have one friend who is very similar to me that I talk to and play games with online. He lives nearby so that obviously makes it easier to keep in touch. My dm's are always open for anyone who need to chat. I hope you will find someone that understands how you feel - I think many do. Especially on this forum.

Pretty funny how similar our profile pics and nicknames are lol.

 

[Gaga786]

Back in school, I would hide away in the bathroom stalls or in the library. During the moments where i would head out in the playground, I would be sitting alone or being chased around by my peers. I haven't had any friends growing up

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, but I see it as being for the best to stay away from people. It's very true that they don't care and you cannot trust and rely on people. Other people very often just create more suffering.

 

[Emptied_soul]

I only have one person and it's a friend from work, we've been friends for around 2 years but we barely talk due to our different work schedules and how tired she gets from working. As of now she's the person that's taking care of my cats but even I don't want to be open about my problems with her since she already has enough problems and worries herself. So for the most part I'm completely alone.

 

[Ken Ough]

I'm fine with people not caring about my mental and physical issues.
The problem is no one likes me. I guess they find me moody and boring and therefore useless.
Thus I disagree with the part that no one cares for one another. People do and I witness it every day.
Depressed/anxious individuals just don't add any value to others' lives since there's always someone more fun to be around (and who doesn't seem like a dead inside weirdo).

 

[dreamsandstares]

I honestly think I'm better off not having any "friends".
Had two friends, one of them took advantage of me in a variety of ways, and the other one turned out to be a morally reprehensible human being.
I am not a good judge of character and feel better alone. I think it's the autism. My family and therapist pressure me to socialize, but I just end up getting hurt and burnt out. No more.

 

[bigdog]

In my experience some so called 'friends' are worse than enemies. So don't fear being alone. Sometimes it is much better for you.

 

[tiredofbreathing]

Depressed/anxious individuals just don't add any value to others' lives since there's always someone more fun to be around (and who doesn't seem like a dead inside weirdo).

Yea.. I guess this was actually my main issue.. after opened up to some people about the truth of my situation they start to drift away. I guess I was confused because I thought instead they would be supportive
this is what I meant by people don't really care about others, once there lives go downhill as you mentioned people don't really care anymore. Im sure some do but a lot don't
edit: Ive also pushed other people away because of depression so part me also. Idk Im just venting

 

[mierepeashi]

I feel u man. Even though I have some friends I feel like they are not the real kind you know. They just really care, I think, and even if they did there's something wrong with me for sure because I just can't talk to anyone about how I am feeling. It's like my mouth is shut everytime. But I think I like it this way, or so I delude myself to believe.