Sarros
Student
- Sep 2, 2021
- 104
I moved in with the person who is, as of 6 months ago, my ex, around 9 months ago. Through this time I have done what has only recently become, too much for me to handle. For context, they are depressed, able-bodied, and capable of work.
It has been a strain on my financial and emotional resources and my time.
All the while I feel that it would be selfish to expect anything in return and to continue to do this out of the kindness of my heart.
But I can't do it anymore. Now, instead of killing myself years ago, I've created a situation where now my suicide would surely and truly devastate someone I love and completely shatter their way and quality of life, instead of merely passing away.
And I've never yearned for it (my death) more.
It has been a strain on my financial and emotional resources and my time.
All the while I feel that it would be selfish to expect anything in return and to continue to do this out of the kindness of my heart.
But I can't do it anymore. Now, instead of killing myself years ago, I've created a situation where now my suicide would surely and truly devastate someone I love and completely shatter their way and quality of life, instead of merely passing away.
And I've never yearned for it (my death) more.
