anyone else have bpd?

[drainganggggg]

im pretty new to posting here, but have been lurking for a couple months. does anyone else have bpd in here? around 10% of people with bpd die by suicide so some of you have to be here

 

[hiddenbpd]

Yeeep

 

[milkandcoffee]

yes hello

 

[-autisticSunflower]

Don't have bpd but I am an autistic female and experience a lot of similarities to those with bpd

 

[hiddenbpd]

Feel free to delete if I'm hijacking your thread, but my fellow borderlines, do those in your life know you have bpd? If so, how do they treat you? Same or different as before diagnosis? My family and friends still have no idea.

 

[drainganggggg]

i was diagnosed a couple months ago, and i still haven't worked up the courage to tell anyone. stigma against bpd is horrible, and it's too hard to tell who is and who isn't okay with it. i plan on telling some of my more accepting friends soon, but idk when that would be

 

[spacehardware]

I have BPD, diagnosed 12 years ago when I turned 18. In 'remission' now though, mostly, after a fucktonne of therapy. Family know. Work colleagues don't. I don't have friends really, lost three to suicide (all also diagnosed borderline), and the chaos of my BPD drove the rest away. Interpersonal relationships aren't my strong suit, and I'm too scarred by the losses of my friends to try to make new ones who could potentially do the same.

 

[deathbylife]

I have BPD, diagnosed 12 years ago when I turned 18. In 'remission' now though, mostly, after a fucktonne of therapy. Family know. Work colleagues don't. I don't have friends really, lost three to suicide (all also diagnosed borderline), and the chaos of my BPD drove the rest away. Interpersonal relationships aren't my strong suit, and I'm too scarred by the losses of my friends to try to make new ones who could potentially do the same.

Same.

Diagnosed in my 30s, now in my 50s.

In remission for some time and now fighting the symptoms again. Unresolved trauma I'm dealing with, my new therapist says. BPD as you know usually coincides with multi-year, repeated relational trauma. I am literally physically exhausted right now because of my mental exhaustion. I feel sick most of the time. I don't even care about ctb-ing. I seriously think I'll probably just eventually waste away.

 

[CandyCane]

I've been diagnosed with it, but I don't believe them. I think this is a label psychiatrists give you when they don't like you or have failed you, instead of looking inward at the value of their field and career.

 

[stillthinkingabtit]

im pretty new to posting here, but have been lurking for a couple months. does anyone else have bpd in here? around 10% of people with bpd die by suicide so some of you have to be here

I'm here

 

[tiredone]

My partner been diagnosed with it 4 years ago. A lot things made sense after diagnosis. Life ia hard to say at least, but i dont give up on her. At least untill i ctb.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

I suspect I have BPD. Based on videos and stuff I've read. Raised by a narcissist mother. I grew up ignored and neglected. Sexual abuse as a child by a partner of my mother. even though I'm 45, I still cry when I bring this up. Things never got better, and my life is embarrassing

 

[Tired and Done]

Yup. Also diagnosed with BPD a few years ago. It helped to know why I was such a wrong person and I was able to learn more about it. Not that it changed anything. I am not strong enough to change.

I suspect I have BPD. Based on videos and stuff I've read. Raised by a narcissist mother. I grew up ignored and neglected. Sexual abuse as a child by a partner of my mother. even though I'm 45, I still cry when I bring this up. Things never got better, and my life is embarrassing

I had very similar experiences and I know exactly what you're feeling. I was sexualy abused by my grandfather and when I got too fat for his liking the verbal abuse got really bad. To this day I am ashamed myself for my childhood. I know it was all my fault. It shaped my brain and I have never been able to learn good patterns. Even when I was eventually living with my mother again there was just more abuse of a different kind. And so much neglect.