Anyone else have a huge inferiority complex?

[tears and vomit]

I feel so hated by everyone. My family is poor and religious, which puts a lot of restraint on my life. My parents are from third-world countries and were immigrants. Did I mention that I'm poor? I've failed at everything I haven't attained any goals; everything seems impossible. It's funny because I used to have a huge superiority complex when I was younger, so it's ironic that I'm the total opposite now but I guess I was stupid and naïve back then I didn't know anything about reality. I'm behind everyone. I lost everything. I'm so ashamed of myself and everything. My existence itself is shameful.

Since I started college I've met new people and lied about myself to all of them. I'm so ashamed of everything all I want to do is die but even that's tricky to do I don't even know what I am, and because I'm ethnically mixed I don't belong anywhere. No one wants me; I feel like an alien wherever I go.

 

[kosmischerunfall]

RELATABLE!!!!!

Mixed race kid that belongs nowhere, living in a white country, feeling like an alien.
Feeling unwanted:P

I'm basically an Liar for everything, even small things, idk why!!

Being me feels just horrible xDDD!!!

 

[LackOfDetermination]

Something I used to take comfort in was the thought that most probably don't even think of us at all, let alone hate us. Everyone has their own lives, goals, problems and the such, so why would they have the time to hate someone they probably barely know? I know this isn't always the case, hell, some girl I'd only ever talked to once knew me by name after we both happened to switch schools and have the same class, and even said she'd heard people talk about me at the old school, but considering how my sister's male friends had said I scared them and gave off school shooter vibes... well you probably don't need to worry about that.

And about lying about yourself, don't worry about. Everyone lies or embellishes certain things about themselves, whether it be their competence, incompetence (in my case), or just random traits. Don't feel bad about something so inconsequential as a mask you put on for socializing, most of the time, such things are for self protection anyways, and i don't know anyone that would fault another for protecting themselves.

lastly, anyone who dislikes you for your ethnicity isn't worth the scum under their foot, so remind yourself of that, even if it doesn't make you feel all that better, because trying to appease people like that will only make you feel worse, and it just isn't worth it.

 

[58Alice85]

i am white. when alone with other whites i have heard the most awful racial slurs, hatred, seeing all non-whites as non-people to be exterminated and so on. these same people then go to their jobs and act friendly to blacks and muslims
personally i like japanese people and other asians, i guess i am a little bit racist too

 

[tears and vomit]

RELATABLE!!!!!

Mixed race kid that belongs nowhere, living in a white country, feeling like an alien.
Feeling unwanted:P

I'm basically an Liar for everything, even small things, idk why!!

Being me feels just horrible xDDD!!!

If we're talking DNA I'm north african and southern European. I've never been discriminated against but I just feel like I don't belong in any group. Some see me as white and others see me as ethnic. I kind of feel this way because of the racist shit I see online and idk what side I'm meant to be on in a way. Humans are fucked they discriminate between races how poor or rich you are looks ect it never ends
Earth will never be a nice place as long as humans are around and that's just fact

i am white. when alone with other whites i have heard the most awful racial slurs, hatred, seeing all non-whites as non-people to be exterminated and so on. these same people then go to their jobs and act friendly to blacks and muslims
personally i like japanese people and other asians, i guess i am a little bit racist too

Not to be rude but I think you gotta change? this post isn't solely based on race

 

[DontCryForChimp]

It's funny because I used to have a huge superiority complex when I was younger, so it's ironic that I'm the total opposite now but I guess I was stupid and naïve back then I didn't know anything about reality

I come from a similar type of family as what you described. How you describe this is exactly how it played out for me. The moment I started to understand the world I decided to hide from it. I was already a very mediocre person, being poor on top of that just destroyed whatever self esteem I could have had. I feel a constant sense of fear and shame. I am deeply ashamed of myself.

 

[tears and vomit]

Something I used to take comfort in was the thought that most probably don't even think of us at all, let alone hate us. Everyone has their own lives, goals, problems and the such, so why would they have the time to hate someone they probably barely know? I know this isn't always the case, hell, some girl I'd only ever talked to once knew me by name after we both happened to switch schools and have the same class, and even said she'd heard people talk about me at the old school, but considering how my sister's male friends had said I scared them and gave off school shooter vibes... well you probably don't need to worry about that.

And about lying about yourself, don't worry about. Everyone lies or embellishes certain things about themselves, whether it be their competence, incompetence (in my case), or just random traits. Don't feel bad about something so inconsequential as a mask you put on for socializing, most of the time, such things are for self protection anyways, and i don't know anyone that would fault another for protecting themselves.

lastly, anyone who dislikes you for your ethnicity isn't worth the scum under their foot, so remind yourself of that, even if it doesn't make you feel all that better, because trying to appease people like that will only make you feel worse, and it just isn't worth it.

Yeah your right in truth neither of us matter, our existence does not change anything. No one dislikes me for my ethnicity (I hope) and I've never been discriminated I guess it's more just self hatred for myself. I just hate every aspect of myself. I hate everything I can't control. Also it's just the fact that I constantly see the people around me hate on other people or themselves which makes me question me as a person.
For example, while I was enrolling in college, my mom came with me. There was a South Asian woman who was also a parent, sitting nearby. The person in charge of enrollment told my mom to wait outside with the other parents, and afterward, she started venting to the person next to her about how "this isn't her country" and how "all the English people looked at her as weird" or something along those lines (she told me about it later in the car).


Growing up, I heard conversations like that, so those thoughts kind of got planted in my mind. Do I not belong here too? Am I weird too? Are other races bad? Etc. Or maybe it's because I live in the uk now it's different here I felt more 'belonging' in the states


I'm not a perfect person, but I've never and will never make someone feel bad for something they can't change. In the end, we're all technically related anyway.