Anyone else hate to be so hesitant about the "last step"?

[_Minsk]

I miss my impulsiveness I had as kid. I hate this extreme rational mind, I overthink stuff so much that in the end I rarely do anything. In many cases doing nothing is the best option, at least when im already in a bad state of mind and in public/work where I have to keep my stuff together..
But when it comes to ctb its very annoying.
Whenever im drunk I feel like I have access to my true feelings for life. Im less inhibited and very drawn towards ctb. I totally love it for that reason.
Once I got my method, i will use the first impulsive state to pull trough.
Anyone else the same way?

 

[Worndown]

Just about everyone is hesitant about that last step! One reason so many people are here.

 

[Ash]

As a veteran of impulsive, failed attempts, in part due to mood swings, I'd rather plan it properly down to that very last step and get it right.

 

[CTB Fella]

I'm drunk at the moment.

Contemplating slicing myself up.

I'm an overdoser, but don't have the means to take one now.

Alcohol is a great tool. It expands the mind, and allows one's true feelings to take over. I know this, because, being an overdoser, you have to drink the right amount of alcohol, combined with the tablets (in my case, I'm up to 300) to stand a chance.

I've been in so many comas, and on life support so many times, to qualify this.

I have no-one.

Sending love x.

 

[Artemisia]

Yes! Unfortunately for me, I wanted to live, it's just that I'm too sick and there's no hope left, but I keep going to this one last doctor, then this one last therapist, then a last doctor with a different speciality... Not a single one gives a damn and the therapists only keep doing it worse. I want this to end, I want so much for this to end, but I'm so physically exhausted it's even too much getting things going. And I still wanted to live... So I'm just dying the slow death of the cowards.

 

[LaughingGoat]

It's the reason I have so much respect for the actions of Dr. Kevorkian, he sacrificed just about everything to help people over the final hurdle.