Anyone else going soon?

[DreamEnd]

Or planning to ?

 

[Hislight88]

I think about it every day. Unfortunately darn si is so strong. My chronic health is torture and I think one day it's just going to override si..
I think about it every day. Unfortunately darn si is so strong. My chronic health is torture and I think one day it's just going to override si

 

[Falseunderworld]

Going soon , gonna make some plans first though..

 

[19nitten]

probably in a month or so, i was a few weeks away from doing it until i met someone… that made me happy for probably a couple days the poof they were gone. lol what's up with that? anyway i'm feeling myself getting there but again i'm not in a rush.

 

[Talvikki]

I want to leave soon.

 

[Notforlong]

Yes, just need a few more things to make sure it doesn't fail.

 

[brokenpersi]

8 months. Gave life last chance till then.

 

[_Kaira_]

Hopefully soon. Within a couple months if everything goes well.

 

[jodes2]

No I'm gonna be here for a long time probably. Sigh. I hope shit improves

 

[ThanksBigPharma]

Hope to override SI and get it done in the next few days. Didn't want to, but progressive disease is going to kill me anyway and I don't want to be here for what it's going to continue to do to me…

 

[almostoutofhere]

Within next two weeks or so gonna book a hotel for 2 days, once I have my benzos to help with SI

 

[stermc]

anytime probably

 

[Darkover]

just wish it was all over with right now, but im going to try and get what i need to ctb this month

 

[sigil_sara]

This Monday night or Tuesday early morning. 11:30pm-3:00am

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Within the next few weeks.

 

[DukeDestroyer]

My SI is my biggest hurdle. But I did have an accident with nicotine last year. Throughout the entire experience I was feeling fine through it all, except physically I was puking up a storm. I went to bed thinking if I die because of this I'm completely ok with it. Passed out pretty quickly, ended up waking up a few hours later. So I don't know if my SI will pose much of a threat after that experience.

 

[Freebird4567]

Hopefully soon probably 2 or 3 months, I've got my SN, waiting to get other things and I've got an interview for a job in a hotel, purely for the fact I can get a discount and get a room for cheap to ctb

 

[GasMonkey]

Yep.

 

[causingkeep]

I want to, I just haven't found a method that feels "right" or attainable & I'm also struggling with how it'll impact my fiancée.

 

[Papilio_polyxenes]

At present, I have a blood donation appointment set for next week. I've also quit my primary job, a step I should have taken long ago. Tomorrow is my last day there.

The blood donation a day before the attempt should speed up the SN process, but this remains untested here on the forums. I will use 75 mg of Meclizine as an AE and 600 mg of Advil - maybe propranolol if I can source it.

Imposing artificial deadlines on myself is the only way to make me commit to this plan. I've had all necessary components since SN arrival in January, but I decided to wait until February for health insurance (in case of failed attempt). As a worse case scenario, I postpone until March.

It may sound strange, but I think I should allow myself to feel happy. Everything is ready, and my suffering can finally come to an end. I should have CTB'd 6 years ago instead of now.

At work, I've kept my head down and pretended not to overhear gossip about me. At home, I've maintained my usual routine. Nobody knows or suspects that I'm suicidal.

 

[Source Energy]

Hopefully. If I can't find a drug, this pain is bound to kill me anyway. No one can carry such an immensity of sadness and heartbreak inside and be alive for long. I will die under their very eyes, bit by bit every day...

 

[ThanksBigPharma]

This Monday night or Tuesday early morning. 11:30pm-3:00am

Hey that's when I am hoping to go!

 

[Blackroom_57]

Have all materials to ctb and a solid plan. Going to try to fix my psychiatric problems (extremely severe depression) first though because I might actually be able to. I haven't tried that many psychiatric medications. If I didn't have family to support me and I was out on the streets I would just give up and do it.

 

[sigil_sara]

Hey that's when I am hoping to go!

Hopefully we will peacefully ctb with minimal pain or discomfort. I'm trying to decide what my last meal is going to be. Will start fasting around midnight tonight.

 

[ThanksBigPharma]

Hopefully we will peacefully ctb with minimal pain or discomfort. I'm trying to decide what my last meal is going to be. Will start fasting around midnight tonight.

I wish you peace.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Hopefully we will peacefully ctb with minimal pain or discomfort. I'm trying to decide what my last meal is going to be. Will start fasting around midnight tonight.

Per ardua ad astra

Hey that's when I am hoping to go!

I wish you peace.

Per ardua ad astra

 

[missingpeace]

I want to go asap but I live with 3 other family members at home and never get any privacy. Also I'm unsure of my exact method, I was banking on SN without using an antiemetic but I read a few instances where it hasn't worked and they've suffered for many hours after taking it. I'm now thinking of changing to going via the nitrogen gas method but have to get the necessary materials and set-up, nervous about buying it since I don't know what reason I would say and also knowing where I would execute it. Dying is so effing complicated just want to be gone already.

 

[Zee33]

Yeah If there is an afterlife, I'll see you there.

I want to go asap but I live with 3 other family members at home and never get any privacy. Also I'm unsure of my exact method, I was banking on SN without using an antiemetic but I read a few instances where it hasn't worked and they've suffered for many hours after taking it. I'm now thinking of changing to going via the nitrogen gas method but have to get the necessary materials and set-up, nervous about buying it since I don't know what reason I would say and also knowing where I would execute it. Dying is so effing complicated just want to be gone already.

I'm renting a U-Haul cargo van, taking a bunch of blood pressure pills and doing the partial hanging method. Partial hanging is enough on its own. Quickly lose consciousness, and death within 15 mins. The pills are just a bonus. As for knots and rope. The strangle snare knot is a good option, and 10mm rope is the best size. You can be dead for under $100! What a bargain! Lol. Good luck

 

[freevoid]

Yes, in the next 3 months or so.

 

[cowie]

I would love to go out on Valentine's Day but I'm doing SN and don't have benzos. I have everything else.