anyone else getting high right now?

[iloveyouihateyou]

or getting drunk, just any sort of substance. i used to be able to tell my friends about all my times spent doing drugs but nowadays despite them still partaking, seem to just try and discourage me from doing anything out of worry for me or something like that. i just wish they would be a friend rather than be some sort of mentor i never asked for. anyways, i just drank a beer right when i woke up and now i'm smoking weed and a cigarette in order to lube myself up to get through another day. i've been wasting so so much money but i don't even care anymore, i know i'll be wasting more and more as the week/month progresses. i wish i had xanax again but i don't have enough to sustain paying for those so regularly so i buy "cheaper" things like smokes and drinks. what are you on right now? how does it feel? and even if you're not on anything, how does life feel for you? for me, it feels like nothing is real anymore

regardless i hope you have a nice day today!

 

[Grim days]

Wish i could, bf would freak out if I did. Used to use gear (if youn know, you know) recreationally. Shocked me to find out how common it is. Had an easy time of it too, kept it recreational, no cravings, took care of myself so minimal crash/hangover, and could easily sleep while high or hungover.
Used to be the highpoint of my month, zero'd out my stress levels and felt like I could handle life again. Now I haven't used in years. It's not a healthy solution, but miss having it to balance the scales, so to speak.

 

[CatLvr]

Haha! I wish!