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DrowningWithin

DrowningWithin

All I wanted
Jan 23, 2025
16
I'm wondering if this is just me, physically I'm exhausted after an attempt. Yet in the moment I have so much adrenaline and I'm always somehow "proud" of myself. It's like I'm putting out the trash or something. It's hard to describe,

has anyone else felt this? Immense lack of regret for every attempt? A sense of accomplishment but frustration of it not working?

Is it just me?
 
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interna

interna

Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
Dec 1, 2025
123
not at all! it happens to me too. its some sort of weird euphoric feeling i cant describe. similar to feeling relief
 
violetforever

violetforever

Elementalist
Dec 24, 2025
859
yeah but not even attempting, just practicing.
 
itwonttakelong

itwonttakelong

all things must pass away
May 3, 2026
2
Yes, some of my happiest moments have been directly before or after attempts or practices. I get such a strong sense of calm, accomplishment, and control.
 

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