Anyone else forgotten completely what its like to feel good? Or even okay?

[iloverachel]

Feeling like complete and utter shit is just the norm for me. I honestly don't remember the last time I felt good. Maybe 10 years ago? I have no idea what it even feels like anymore

I have had some okay days but they are quite rare this past decade

For every 50 bad terrible days I may have one day where I feel okay

How about you guys? How many good or okay days do you have compares to bad days where you feel crap?

 

[teajay1]

yes i can't remember the last day where i felt 'ok'. i just have some worse days than others and they stick out a lot

 

[iloverachel]

yes i can't remember the last day where i felt 'ok'. i just have some worse days than others and they stick out a lot

Even for me the rare okay days are still quite boring and pointless

Most days are absolute terrible. Some days are bad, slightly terrible etc. Okay is just relative to the worse days.

Even if I had only okay days I'd still want to ctb

 

[bookgirl]

I feel like shit every day

 

[iloverachel]

I feel like shit every day

Sorry to hear
Me too for like the past 8 years

 

[flightless bird]

very painful knowing that you will never experience something that lets you breathe for real again. i remember all my dreams and how they used to make me feel. i can still visualize them, see into all those old emotions, but i can't ever experience them. they are just so far away from the heart.

 

[divinemistress36]

Same I would kill just to feel neutral

 

[iloverachel]

very painful knowing that you will never experience something that lets you breathe for real again. i remember all my dreams and how they used to make me feel. i can still visualize them, see into all those old emotions, but i can't ever experience them. they are just so far away from the heart.

I gave up on my dreams hobbies and passion

My biggest passion when I was young was lifting weights but now it seems like a daunting chore and I don't even feel better exercising

Same I would kill just to feel neutral

Even neutral days for me turn bad quickly because I know it won't last long and I'll have a shit day the next day mist likely

Same I would kill just to feel neutral

Even neutral days for me turn bad quickly because I know it won't last long and I'll have a shit day the next day mist likely

Same I would kill just to feel neutral

Even neutral days for me turn bad quickly because I know it won't last long and I'll have a shit day the next day mist likely

 

[sugarandspice]

For me, it's a constant mixture of feeling okay for like a couple of mins, then just feeling terrible after not long ago just being fine.

 

[DogSandwich]

I can't remember what it feels like to experience happiness. I'm done with all of this and I don't expect anything anymore. I just go through the motions.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it wouldn't even make sense to feel good about existing. I find it tragic how I was forced into this hellish and harmful reality where there is no limit as to how much I can potentially suffer. I've never wanted to exist and never could do under any circumstance, being conscious and aware is so incredibly dreadful and only causes suffering.

There's nothing good about having the ability to suffer endlessly in this undesirable existence that there was never a need for in the first place especially as existing can get so torturous beyond how one could even imagine. More than anything I wish I never existed at all, existence itself is evil and an abomination as it's the source of all suffering, all that would be good to me is finally being able to permanently cease existing.

 

[Malaria]

Yeah, I haven't been truly happy or okay since I was 8 years old. I'm 29 now.

 

[divinemistress36]

I gave up on my dreams hobbies and passion

My biggest passion when I was young was lifting weights but now it seems like a daunting chore and I don't even feel better exercising

Even neutral days for me turn bad quickly because I know it won't last long and I'll have a shit day the next day mist likely

Even neutral days for me turn bad quickly because I know it won't last long and I'll have a shit day the next day mist likely

Even neutral days for me turn bad quickly because I know it won't last long and I'll have a shit day the next day mist likely

I feel the same . People talk about how exercise makes you feel better but sometimes it can just make you feel worse

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Yes but I also have PSSD. I also don't think I've ever felt good? I can have periods where I feel ok.

 

[to fall to winter]

I don't think I've ever felt good, and the okay days are few and far between.

 

[random_user]

I know what you mean, in my case I've felt like this my whole adult life and can't really remember anymore when things felt different.

 

[sadman710]

Yeah, definitely. I'm at a point where I'm certain that every moment that progresses in the future is going to be a greater hell to endure. I have nothing to look forward to except greater and greater suffering. So I'm just trying to make the best of now while I can, if that makes any sense.

 

[DogSandwich]

Same. I'm just seeing and waiting. Everything carries the same intense weight. I'm done, but but don't know how to quit.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I sympathise. I remember talking to the college therapist over 10 years ago and she tried to get me to recall a time when I was happy and I couldn't really. I can probably remember happy moments but not much consistence. It's hard to know what even is normal though when it feels like it's always been like this.

 

[Mea Culpa]

I think so. It all feels so fake. Like a placebo. It never feels ok to be okay...

 

[onbekend]

I can tell you that I used to feel good or at least okay 2 years ago. But I too can relate, because I also have completely forgotten what it's like to feel even a little "okay" now.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I never knew what it's like to feel good to begin with. I'll die without ever finding out the answer to this either

 

[TiredTurtle2]

i remember what it feels like to feel good and know it will never happen again and i dont know which is worse, to have felt good and know theres no recovery or to have never felt good in your life and not know what your missing

 

[arnxxx]

I can feel alright when im with friends, especially when drinking alcohol. But most of the time i feel like shit.

 

[NeverGonnaEscape]

I haven't felt good happy or excited about anything in almost 20 years I think, about half my life.

 

[BrokeN__lil’__girl]

Same for me. Can't believe bc of my mother's stupid decision I have to suffer….

 

[hopeless08]

Feeling like complete and utter shit is just the norm for me. I honestly don't remember the last time I felt good. Maybe 10 years ago? I have no idea what it even feels like anymore

I have had some okay days but they are quite rare this past decade

For every 50 bad terrible days I may have one day where I feel okay

How about you guys? How many good or okay days do you have compares to bad days where you feel crap?

I'm so sorry that's terrible, I can't imagine what suffering for 10 years must be like.
You're beyond strong, I can't take another hour. Sorry for your pain

 

[F@#$]

Yes I have