Anyone else feel worse at night?

[Ambivalent1]

Especially when out in public?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm usually really tired after work and have some alcohol to further knock me out, so night time isn't so bad. I keep waking at 2am though at the moment and struggling to get back to sleep- that's pretty tedious. But no, mornings are currently my worse time. I just seem to feel super angry and resentful till around lunch time! I barely leave the house but definitely not at night. What do you go out to do? Are you going to reveal to us you're Batman or some other vigilante?

 

[1MiserableGuy]

I used to be the opposite, but then I had a kid and now every single night is a terror

 

[Ambivalent1]

I used to be the opposite, but then I had a kid and now every single night is a terror

Terror for their sake? You would ctb while you have a young child?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Not necessarily, though my mind tends to feel more clear at night which I could conflate with feeling worse if that was already how I felt all along.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I'm usually really tired after work and have some alcohol to further knock me out, so night time isn't so bad. I keep waking at 2am though at the moment and struggling to get back to sleep- that's pretty tedious. But no, mornings are currently my worse time. I just seem to feel super angry and resentful till around lunch time! I barely leave the house but definitely not at night. What do you go out to do? Are you going to reveal to us you're Batman or some other vigilante?

I go to bed at around 2-6am and hate it. I don't know how to go to bed earlier since brushing, etc takes me so long because of my ocd. I don't want to start getting ready for bed at 6pm and be in bed by 9. And I cough choke while brushing and dread it every nite. I feel like im being tortured. I'm considering letting my teeth progress to periodontal disease so they'll fall out and I can get dentures that are easier than teeth to clean.

I go out to the store. Less traffic. Less people. But everything feels sinister. Not Batman. Just the joker. "all it takes is one bad day."

 

[1MiserableGuy]

Terror for their sake? You would ctb while you have a young child?

None of what you just said makes a lick of sense

 

[Ambivalent1]

None of what you just said makes a lick of sense

I just assumed you cared about the child so you were afraid for them because the world is scary. Considering suicide when you have a child who's dependent on you is disgusting.

 

[1MiserableGuy]

I just assumed you cared about the child so you were afraid for them because the world is scary. Considering suicide when you have a child who's dependent on you is disgusting.

I see you've got a nice meta narrative going on with yourself but I was just talking about the nightly routine of him screaming and fussing about not wanting to do anything he's supposed to because that's what two year olds do

 

[halleyscomet]

I just assumed you cared about the child so you were afraid for them because the world is scary. Considering suicide when you have a child who's dependent on you is disgusting.

Parents are allowed to have suicidal feelings too. Suicidal thoughts don't just go away when you have a child.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I feel the worst when I go out during the day in public. All the people bustling about their lives, holding hands with their partner and pushing their strollers and talking on the phone and eating takeout. Smiling and laughing, full of life. It's horrible. I wish it was winter again so I could go out in the dark and be surrounded by death.

 

[SexyIncél]

Especially when out in public?

Now that you put it into my head, perhaps I will :P

 

[Ambivalent1]

Now that you put it into my head, perhaps I will :P

Good misery loves company mwahahaha

I see you've got a nice meta narrative going on with yourself but I was just talking about the nightly routine of him screaming and fussing about not wanting to do anything he's supposed to because that's what two year olds do

They're called the Terrible Twos for a reason.

Parents are allowed to have suicidal feelings too. Suicidal thoughts don't just go away when you have a child.

Never said they did but one should stifle such thoughts since they decided to reproduce and have a responsibility to that life.

 

[Heartaches]

Yeah. Night is when my depressive episodes get worst and start having memories from the past. My emotions get all fuzzy and chaotic, my mind cannot thin clearly. It's typically when I sh the most. Plus, I have trouble sleeping.​

 

[InversedShadow]

Same happens to me, i can feel significantly worse at night, before sleeping i see rather unpleasant intrusive thoughts, get rushing thoughts, im prone to sadness and all paints in rather unpleasant colours, it doesnt happen often to me luckily but if it does it hits :/

 

[theboy]

it is very common to feel worse in the evenings and early mornings.

 

[thenamingofcats]

Think of it this way... night means another day is gone and 1 day closer to dying, even if you don't ctb.

 

[Ambivalent1]

it is very common to feel worse in the evenings and early mornings.

How come?

Think of it this way... night means another day is gone and 1 day closer to dying, even if you don't ctb.

That's not bad

 

[theboy]

How come?

because generally the person does not find distractions that he/she has during the day.

 

[Havnis]

Night is the best time

 

[chicanocompost]

i get stuck in my thoughts easier at night but it feels serene to a point