Venting anyone else feel like their life is gonna end soon?

[Unattainable666]

Yes, but I have a plan in place

 

[HouseofMortok]

Feels looming, just dumped a bunch of people that seemed toxic in the end, maybe it's the Autism, but an organisation can't advertise they're there for mental health, then make snide jokes behind customers backs. "I'm not racist, but casual racism is ok" hmm no? Anyways, felt better disappearing from their group. Next steps are self sabotaging my relationship, can't stand being near her, will be homeless and no state help or family after, no desire to slave away for substandard living. Prices for everything is ridiculous nowadays and only getting worse. Feel like when the relationships over I will finally get the drive to end it, feels soon. Content with the CO method.

 

[flowers in the mist]

I feel the same way. I have felt hopelessness for as long as I can remember.
No one really took me seriously until a failed suicide attempt but it has been a while since then and everyone thinks that I am okay but I am not.

I got myself SN and other things prepared quite a while ago but I have not been able to do anything yet.
Not really sure what the future holds right now..

 

[SolomonKado]

like i haven't made the plan to CTB but i don't trust myself and i feel i may start actively looking for a way soon and it'll be out of my control, anyone else feel this way? I told my friends "i feel like i won't be alive for much longer" but they don't really take me seriously but it's a looming dread i have

May I could feel the end definitely. I was falling apart extremely. I think spending a full month in so many bad emotions caused my brain to numb myself to survive. Now nothing matters…

 

[notverylucid]

100%. For me the feeling is an absolute that I've never been so sure about. I've been clinically diagnosed with depression at 16 and admitted to a psychiatric hospital on a 5150 hold, but even at those times I felt more confused and angry than anything. Impulsively reaching for suicide. Now I feel like an empty husk and recently, I came to the realization that no matter how many times I try to build back and become the person I was before the depression, that studious, athletic version of myself, I can never be that person again regardless of how hard I try. I feel like there's no path forward for me anymore, when in the past I've been able to cling to shreds of hope, I now have absolutely nothing. Being on this forum allows me to mingle with the thought of death and myself to slowly accept it fully throughout my subconscious so that I don't leave behind any fleeting regrets when I inevitably do ctb.

 

[pinkribbonscars]

I have a plan. I have donated a few bags of clothes and plan to donate more soon. I'm at an open mic music/comedy show to say goodbye to my sister and her bf. I threw away food. I'm killing myself this week idk when but it's happening. I can't help it. I'm done