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Depressed_Kettle

Depressed_Kettle

Experienced
Apr 25, 2021
253
I feel like I was destined to suffer. My whole life is a mess and I don't even know what to make from it. I can't even do the things I want.

I didn't ask to have anxiety, ADHD, depression or any of these other mental problems.
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,006
Yeah I feel that way, one day all the stars lined up, and I fucked my entire life up. Ended up finding SS, and I'm now ready to leave this world
 
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Depressed_Kettle

Depressed_Kettle

Experienced
Apr 25, 2021
253
Yeah I feel that way, one day all the stars lined up, and I fucked my entire life up. Ended up finding SS, and I'm now ready to leave this world
I'm so tired, I just want to give up. I can't even do the things I want correctly. I am just trying to figure out what's next for me if anything.
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
Yeah, this shit sure feels personal on a visceral level. It doesn't help much that I know it's just random bad luck
 
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Desdemona

Desdemona

Member
Oct 14, 2020
88
I feel like my life was already harder than average compared to those around me and the last few years have had health issues snow ball out of control and I'm only 27. I 100% feel this way
 
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agate

Member
Sep 29, 2021
54
Mainly I feel that things I want to happen in life will never happen to me, only to others, more so annoying if most people think these things are normal (normal life things I guess ). But all I want , all I ever wanted was a normal life and it never did. Now I no longer care about anything.

We all seem to feel this way, that we have no control over anything in life really. I don't know what to say in comfort other than I understand as I feel the same :heart:
 
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exhausteduntreatable

exhausteduntreatable

Member
Oct 8, 2021
80
Yes, sometimes I laugh because it's like a conspiracy in a black comedy to make me as miserable as possible. Like I'm the universe's whipping boy. I actually think the universe/life is completely indifferent and void of greater meaning when I'm thinking clearer though.
 
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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
OMG YES! It's as if life only wants me to suffer and burn and always be in pain no matter what. I have always been dealt the shitty card.
 
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Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
Not the universe no. The universe doesn't care if I live, die, or suffer.

The real problem is that the functional part of my brain is small and non-motivated leading to mental growth issues that are severe enough to cause me to feel suicidal a lot.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,378
I think that in my case, the only way it would be possible for my life to be specifically and deliberately fucked with is if whoever was in charge of the operation had some advanced knowledge of the future in order to make these unfortunate coincidences that have occurred extra ironic. I have some theories but they're well within the realm of science fiction because of the time travel required to orchestrate my life's worst moments.

My leading hypothesis is that my child/children from the future are somehow also suicidal (probably because they're related to me) and they've lucked out by being able to access time travel so they've done everything they can to kill themselves by preventing me from meeting their mother, whoever that is, thus also preventing their birth. Assuming this act is paradox-free, then they've likely already succeeded at this point. Honestly, as crazy as it is to say, if this is true then I'm actually quite proud of them.

Another theory I have is that maybe myself from the future just likes fucking with me that much. Makes sense since I screw over my future self all the time anyway.
 
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depressedsoul

Member
Sep 21, 2021
50
I feel like I was destined to suffer. My whole life is a mess and I don't even know what to make from it. I can't even do the things I want.

I didn't ask to have anxiety, ADHD, depression or any of these other mental problems.
I do.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,592
Yes, I understand how you feel. Life is very unfair in general, many of us are disadvantaged from the start. Everything is determined by chance. I see it as a curse to be born, as I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. I have always had bad luck and things have always went wrong for me. I do think in my case, I am simply not meant for this world and I do not have the ability to cope with life well. I see life as very cruel and horrible. There is unlimited potential for suffering after all. I see myself as deserving better than an empty existence. I deserve peace.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,630
The universe is incapable of sentient thought and being "out to get" anyone. Odds and statistics easily explain that I just got a shit deal in life randomly.
 
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Depressed_Kettle

Depressed_Kettle

Experienced
Apr 25, 2021
253
The universe is incapable of sentient thought and being "out to get" anyone. Odds and statistics easily explain that I just got a shit deal in life randomly.
I know but it feels like it.
 
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FractalTears

FractalTears

Member
Feb 4, 2022
51
I feel the same way.. this world is horrible.
 

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