Anyone else feel like maladaptive daydreaming is all they have left?

[pechaberry]

I feel like the only time I'm happy these days is when I'm inside my head dreaming about shit that can never be real. I wish I could crawl into my daydreams and disappear.

 

[starboy2k]

Maladaptive daydreaming is pretty much one of the reasons I haven't killed myself in my younger years. My head wasn't at planning my death, because it was too busy daydreaming. Now I want to die because I know my reality will never match my daydreams.

 

[pechaberry]

Maladaptive daydreaming is pretty much one of the reasons I haven't killed myself in my younger years. My head wasn't at planning my death, because it was too busy daydreaming. Now I want to die because I know my reality will never match my daydreams.

That's kind of where I'm at too. The older I get the more I realize how far away and pathetic my life is from my dream. My daydreams haven't really changed, my life does. It's just an endless depressing march forward.

 

[JVC]

I feel like the only time I'm happy these days is when I'm inside my head dreaming about shit that can never be real. I wish I could crawl into my daydreams and disappear.

indeed. I'm starting to consider psychedelics and dopamine reuptake inhibitors to enhance the vividness of my daydreams.

 

[rotthjärta]

It is pretty much all I have. God, I just lay in my bed for hours a day daydreaming, or even when I need to leave the house I always need some time to daydream. I always had a bad habit of this since I was very young and its only gotten better, more vivid. Who would hate to talk to anyone and everyone at anytime in their own way.

Sometimes I really wish they were real too, at times I get so desperate and I wonder if maybe there is a way out of here to live in those never ending fantasies.

 

[itsgone2]

Yes. I hate it. I want it to be real so bad. Or just let me leave this place. What a mess life can become

 

[Echo]

Yes, mine are all unrealistic but its either that or thinking about ctb all the time.

 

[Soumatou]

yes but then i get a panic attack when i return.

 

[sulvumnolo]

I've reached a new level of depression were maladaptive day dreaming doesn't work anymore. I literally don't care about anything

 

[ButterflySucideBaby]

After a huge bout during my tween-&-teenage years that basically helped me survive- it stopped cold turkey against my will when I became anhedonic in my late teens. Sometimes I get tiny creative "bouts", but for the most part, I can't rely on my imagination to cope anymore. I miss my OCs as if they were real friends.

 

[iamsotired25]

Maladaptive daydreaming is pretty much one of the reasons I haven't killed myself in my younger years. My head wasn't at planning my death, because it was too busy daydreaming. Now I want to die because I know my reality will never match my daydreams.

Omg I feel this so much. Yes, I hate my current reality.

That's kind of where I'm at too. The older I get the more I realize how far away and pathetic my life is from my dream. My daydreams haven't really changed, my life does. It's just an endless depressing march forward.

Yes. I am losing my mind too. I feel such a loser in my real life. But, the worse thing is - I had the potential to be that version of me. It's just that I wasted those years being depressed and anxious and now it's too late to be her.

 

[FoxSauce]

Yes I would like daydream of fantasy scenario.

Including this depressive episode which it has gotten worse overtime

 

[Green Destiny]

Maladaptive daydreaming is all I've done since high school and now 13 years later it's still all I do.

 

[iguazo falls]

it used to be my bigeest and most persistant cope but now i cant engage with it as much for some reason. i think its because ive left home so i'm not "trapped". but also i feel like now most of my life empty and i thought i was a passionate person but i think it was just cope masking as a personality/neurodivergence (idk sry if its weird to say thtat i dont mean this for anyone else) whenever i would get super into a piece of media and know everything about it and think about it 24/7. now i dont care and cant get into anything or daydream much, i struggle to listen to music too since my enjoyment used to be daydreaming along with it. i wonder if anyone else relates. i feel guilty about it too now i have a partner and more free will.

 

[dyingisanart]

It used to be my biggest coping mechanism, but I can't do it the way I used to anymore. I really need to pace while daydreaming, and since I started living with my SO, I don't do it because I'd look like a crazy person. I truly miss it.

 

[le-pendu]

I don't even have that anymore. I just can't find a foolproof way to kill myself

 

[whatsleftover]

Maladaptive daydreaming is pretty much one of the reasons I haven't killed myself in my younger years. My head wasn't at planning my death, because it was too busy daydreaming. Now I want to die because I know my reality will never match my daydreams.

this is probably where I'm headed too but i notice that, as i grew older, my daydreams started to become more and more realistic, probably because i know i'd feel horrible if i knew reality couldn't match.