Water-Lily

Water-Lily

Enlightened
Dec 26, 2020
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I am 24 and cannot hold down a job. I can barely function most days and it hurts. Seeing my friends who are around my age and older flourish and thrive in independence. And its because they didn't suffer abuse. Or at least, not as severe as mine. I just hate what life has given me. I got such a shitty monster of a mom who left me so emotionally damaged and unable to function. My therapist, who still has faith in me, is setting me up with a psychiatrist for next month. Where I am is entirely due to trauma, and I wish I had a better life. I hope that after death (not so much suicide) I can restart life in a better and healthier way.

Can anyone relate?
 
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onlyanimalsaregood

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Mar 11, 2022
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Yes. I had to stop working because I couldn't do it anymore and I've been in bed for 1.5 months since then. I also have lots of traumas from my childhood. It's unfair that because of people who should never have been parents, we now have to deal with this as adults. And it's not easy at all. I've only just begun to realize that I act in certain ways because of those same traumas. It sucks. Try not to compare yourself to others, it only gets worse. It's good that you are being accompanied and you are doing psychotherapy, I believe that with the right person it helps. I hope things start to get better for you. I eventually accepted the medication and now that I am taking it at the right times it has helped me. I am calmer. Anyway you are not alone and if you ever want to talk about anything you can always send me a PM :)
 
Chiisai

Chiisai

To infinity and beyond!
Sep 1, 2021
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I feel you. I believe I am too.
 

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