Anyone else dreading Christmas?..

[Xena87]

I definitely am! I have been drinking alot this month to cope, to escape and I know I will be worse Christmas day. I just wish I never woke up. Ugh

 

[Final Escape]

Yes, I'm going to be alone with my cat basically. Last Christmas was slightly better I did lsd lol! This one might just really blow. I really liked this guy but I told him I have herpes so that ended yesterday. It's just gonna be a brutal one this year I think. I hope the hormone replacement therapy at least helps me cope slightly better.

 

[SinisterKid]

I will be joining those self medicating with alcohol. On my own until mid afternoon, then the real fun starts and the drink will flow and by 10pm I should be about ready to sleep for 8 hours solid. With wine, champagne, beer and gin, I think the hangover is not going to be a pleasant one, but who cares.

 

[rosetrapped]

I'm forced to face my large extended family and socialise for hours on different days. I have depression and anxiety and honestly every year I dread Christmas. I cry a lot and it's really embarrassing in front of these people who barely know me. I'm awkward and bad at conversation anyway and all I want to do is go back to bed and be alone. I just end up hating myself even more after.
My mum doesn't understand and she gets upset if I don't 'make an effort'. I don't want her to do anything drastic either like taking my laptop/ forcing me to a doctor so I have to just go along with it. I also grieve badly for my dad at xmas(he killed himself), you just notice the lack of someone so much more, and my family usually gets out old home videos of him too which I hate :( I just want to end it now but I haven't sorted out the method yet and I can't make it a memory for my family every Christmas, so I have to wait and endure this shit.

 

[Jean4]

Yes, I'm going to be alone with my cat basically. Last Christmas was slightly better I did lsd lol! This one might just really blow. I really liked this guy but I told him I have herpes so that ended yesterday. It's just gonna be a brutal one this year I think. I hope the hormone replacement therapy at least helps me cope slightly better.

Hello fellow cat lover! You will be joining us here.

Good going about being open about your herpes. You were honest. You didn't have to be, and if he really cared, it wouldn't matter.

See you on the holiday thread. ;)

 

[k75]

This will be my first Christmas completely alone. My best friend moved away. My family and friends are thousands of miles away. My cat is dead. I feel like being dead...
I'm not really looking forward to it.

 

[Jean4]

This will be my first Christmas completely alone. My best friend moved away. My family and friends are thousands of miles away. My cat is dead. I feel like being dead...
I'm not really looking forward to it.

Cough and what are we? Chopped liver? Wait. Wrong holiday! Anyway, see you on the forum on out holiday thread. ;)

I will be joining those self medicating with alcohol. On my own until mid afternoon, then the real fun starts and the drink will flow and by 10pm I should be about ready to sleep for 8 hours solid. With wine, champagne, beer and gin, I think the hangover is not going to be a pleasant one, but who cares.

You will be here with me.

 

[k75]

Cough and what are we? Chopped liver? Wait. Wrong holiday! Anyway, see you on the forum on out holiday thread. ;)

LOL interrupting my pity party with your logic!

 

[Jean4]

LOL interrupting my pity party with your logic!

No pitty parties and Stan would be glad some of his logic wore off on me. I am the emotional one.

So..... what are you bringing to the party?

 

[k75]

I heard desserts were taken, but that's my specialty.

 

[Jean4]

I heard desserts were taken, but that's my specialty.

You can share with @Squiddy! It's the holidays. One can never have too many deserts and calories don't count during the holidays.

 

[Squiddy]

You can share with @Squiddy! It's the holidays. One can never have too many deserts and calories don't count during the holidays.

Yup :) go ahead and bring some dessert

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Yea I really dread it. think I'll just be drowning myself in Xanax this Xmas...

 

[Squiddy]

Yea I really dread it. think I'll just be drowning myself in Xanax this Xmas...

Come join me, @Jean4 and the others on the Christmas post :)

 

[enjoy]

i'm definitely gonna get nice and drunk on christmas after i drive a few states down to visit family. i have to slap on a smile for at least three days while i'm there. this is going to be the first christmas since my ex dumped me and i hate how festive and cheerful everyone is. i'm completely miserable.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

I'll try to excuse myself and sleep it in. There's no joy in it for me anymore, the only good thing is the turkey.

 

[Jean4]

I'll try to excuse myself and sleep it in. There's no joy in it for me anymore, the only good thing is the turkey.

Hey.....you will be with us! What are you bringing?

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

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Hey.....you will be with us! What are you bringing?

I'll sneak in some turkey and a few decorations cause we have so many :)

 

[Jean4]

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I'll sneak in some turkey and a few decorations cause we have so many :)

I only do dark meat... and no gravy that our UK peeps drown everything in!!!!

 

[thinkkank]

I've had some bad ones for the past couple of years. this one will be no exception.

 

[filthyrottendirty]

i dread all holidays

 

[FuneralCry]

I cannot stand christmas. It is the most depressing time of year for me. Also everything associated with it annoys and irritates me. It was horrible last year. Overall, I am just so tired of living and all I want is to be free from this existence and to be at peace.

 

[deleted]

I'm going to drink alcohol until it slowly disappears and I forget who I am

 

[demuic]

Christmas is just another day to me.

 

[Green Destiny]

Don't like it anymore. Hate the crowds of people and the overused christmas music.

 

[coal-light]

I'm not dreading christmas but I have a trip planned and I want nothing other than to be alone. Kind of regretting it.

 

[Shadowplay]

If I'm lucky it will be my last --- wooh00!!!

 

[grungeCat]

Yes, this year christmas will probably be shitter than ever before. This song helps me to cope

 

[TheHatedOne]

I hope I'll manage to CTB tomorrow or next few days cause otherwise the next Christmas+next new year eve(my fav holiday) will be muuuch more shitty than the ones llast year, even more lonely than before.

 

[stellabelle]

I definitely am! I have been drinking alot this month to cope, to escape and I know I will be worse Christmas day. I just wish I never woke up. Ugh

Absolutely. Commercial holiday, illusions of perfect people and perfect families and happiness, in crumbling relationships and crumbling households that continue on the perfection parade.